Monday, May 18, 2009
Fr0m mY EyEs
i told joyce b4 tt looks can b deceivin.. she agreed and she insists tt she did judge character based on wat is expressed..
i admired her 4 tt..
came across a facebook quiz tt asked, "wat do ur eyes say??" and the result was "innocent" and it says tt i "possess a passion of light which shines forth 2 mani ppl.." i rem i received comments from my friendz sayin tt "i am always like a kai xin guo...", "there's always fire in my eyes.." which i felt tt its quite true.. i looked into the mirror.. and there was those round and biggg windows of the soul.. tellin me 2 gear up 4 my best and gave me a sense of hope and life...
but then... somehow it didnt reflect my soul..
inasmuch i wanted 2 portray myself 2 b positive cheerful and bubbly so tt i could b a blessing 2 those ard me... there were mani things tt were shoved deep down and the groanings tt couldnt b muttered... the fact is... some things ar jus not gdd enuff... some things were jus negative.. bad.. foul.. i felt tt there were so mani probs and if i jus opened my mouth and bragged every single one of them... even those who ar patient would eventually faint..
wat then.. do i do 2 keep myself cheerful when ppl see me?? meditation?? No.. (though i need 2 meditate on the gddd things... somehow when i do it.. i'll tink of the bad ones too..) keep my mind suppressed? No. (coz if i do, not onli i would not tink of the bad things... but the gdd things and well.. in other words.. a retard..)
wat i did was jus to look at the person whom i am ard with..
i tink one (duh) fact is tt the ppl whom i hanggg out wif ar my gddd friends.. kakis.. cliques.. best pals.. buddies etc etc.. and when i look at them.. i immediately could tink of somethin gddd.. a quick one would b their pleasant personalities... outfits or even their looks... and tt's how i smiled.. becoz they, unknowingly, made me do it..
im so happi 2 hav these friendz ard me.. u cleared my soul and rejuvenated the windows.. awesome!!!
wEiwEi|10:51 PM
