yes i hav not been updatin the bloggg for 1 wk.. despite the fact tt im home almost every other dae..

man nowadays u talk abt ppl gettin stress and all tt stuff.. 1/6 singaporeans ar stressed and depressed ppl.. and wif an increasin no of ppl havin an increasin lvl of stress.. and tt's y i see more and more ppl gettin admitted 2 the SAF ward..

come on i mean 2 all those high rankin officers out there.. ur men ar gettin vexed.. they ar abt 2 split apart.. they cant take it anymore.. call a timeout from work!! if they cant cope wif all the mental challenges from within.. its time 2 slow down.. and look 4 a better alternative!! do u realli wan 2 admit ur men 2 the SAF ward.. and then they AWOL from there??

well better not.. the fella could get charged.. jus like a guy who did on tues..

he ran away from the SAF ward after bein told 2 b admitted.. man i dun write reports 2 charge ppl.. but i hav to.. every medic in the ward who saw tt incident gave a statement abt wat happen and tt guy who AWOL-ed in front of a medical officer who is so proficient in chargin ppl and he could do it like nobody's business.. gdd game and best of luck 2 the guy..

and the prob abt shiftin my sleep place.. once again jus 2 reinforce my prev statement in my prev entry.. I DO NOT WAN TO SHIFT.. if onli tt red beret regular can hear my groanings and frustrations 4 tryin 2 grip my throat jus like he did 2 the other specs.. but nevertheless im gonna draggg and delay.. and man i made a mistake of transferrin my off daes from the med ctr 2 my coy line.. becoz at the coy there's no way i can take off on a random dae.. and tt's wat i used 2 do at the med ctr.. so im already feelin it.. 10 daes of off gone down the drain..

and man things kept piling up my mind when a trainee collapsed while runnin his 2.4km.. thank God tt he's ok after the intravenous infusion tt was given to him.. but man tt means i hav 2 enforce stricter stds and be more alert on my IPPT covers from now on.. the tot of 1 of my men doesn't sound too gddd.. does it??

i thank God 4 bringin peace wif all the unsettled issues i had the past week.. at least its like a breather.. 4 the rest of this japanese occupation..




yes its official.. i'll b leavin HQ and join bravo company for the rest of my NS daes.. so i'll bunk in there for the rest of the 1 yr i hav left in the army..

the sudden move when my CSM called me, "hello Lim this is Encik.. i hav got a bunk 4 u already.. come and move in.."

dan saes tt its gdd 4 me as im finally "goin home 2 bravo.." but on the other hand goin home means my privelleges will b stripped as nights off is rare in the coy.. becoz it is the CSM tt set the regimental standard tt prevents the commanders of gettin too much freedom outside.. well tt's my guess..

and even though in HQ there ar timings 2 follow.. but in the midst of their regimentation there is freedom 2 go out and they hav nites off.. whereas in bravo though timings were not the main concern of the company but the freedom is.. restriction is present whenever the CSM is ard..

lookin beyond the deflations of my future.. i looked back of the recent past i had wif HQ.. those daes were great as we stayed out "illegally" when we book in the nxt dae mornin and caught by warrant soh.. any crap and lame excuse is gdd enuff 2 fend off ourselves from trouble when we ar caught sneakin in the mornin.. and who can 4get abt those daes after last parade when i jus walk out of camp freely??

and its the bondin tt's precious wif the HQ medics.. everyone will b so happi seein each other and we realli enjoyed one another's company.. 4get abt the rank difference between me and the medics.. we jus simply love one another.. despite the fact tt we ar always makin fun of each other.. lolzz..

well it shall b a new environment 4 me..nevertheless i'll b still seein them.. some things jus wont change despite the fact tt we ar buildings apart..




when i play the game heroes 3.. whenever i see my creatures die in battle.. i always 4get tt my archangels hav the ability 2 resurrect them from the dead.. instead i kept concentratin on the battle and make do of wat i had and in the end i incurred great losses 2 sometimes a meaningless battle..

and in life when somethin's dead i realli duno wat 2 do.. esp when a situation became like an endless pit of frustration and troubles.. im at a terrible loss.. i overlooked the fact tt when (the situation) seems dead.. God can resurrect it and restore back into its originality..

most of the time i got so overwhelmed by the fact tt it's dead.. it's no more.. and it's finished.. like for example.. my spiritual life.. (or should i call it the spiritual zombie?? it realli seems like one..)

i hav seen great comebacks b4.. like losin by at 30pt margin 2 win a game at full time.. (lakers vs.mavericks.. at 2004-2005 season) scorin 2 goals in the last 3min 2 win the european cup.. (man utd. vs bayern munich 1999 european cup final) but i hav nv realli exp much comebacks in my life..

perhaps this is a new lvl.. a new lvl of challenge.. where the situation seems diff.. the challenge gets higher.. but perhaps the reward is bigger?? i realli do not noe..

there's a chi sayin.. "drive to an end an u will find life again" (置之死地而后生) but it seems tt most of the time i took the escape tunnel of my life 2 get myself out of trouble.. i tot abt it this time..

i'll FIGHT..




so 4 the past 3 daes.. i find myself doin nothin once again..

on second tots.. mayb not.. im prayin a little bit more lately.. find myself gettin back on the rite track.. where i left off.. or izzit gettin back 2 wat im originally am?? hmmm sounds confusin.. hahaha..

my MO grumbled and groaned the other dae and he accused me 4 takin too mani offs.. well.. i tot.. sometimes i've gotta b thick skinned.. but on the other hand if i dun clear off this week it'll b like damn borin 4 me.. no pt stayin at the med ctr doin nothin!!

well like the same back at home.. doin nothin.. well at least things aren't tt regimental at home.. for example.. playin on my PSP at home.. where supposedly it's "office hrs".. lolzz..

its onli on wed i went out wif cong.. it seems so long tt i couldn't rem the last time i came 2 town.. and its been like a weirdly long time since i do abit of shoppin.. hmmm.. perhaps we were too dependant on our 1 and onli fav shop 4 our needs.. tt is the E-MART.. hahah..

i find the dae fruitful.. i bought a pair of earphones and a new bball... wanted 2 get some speakers but i'll jus hav 2 wait 4 the nxt pay coz im limitin my own budget.. talk abt financial discipline.. lolzz

watch movies.. went 2 the arcade.. wooo.. its like easin some tension away..

ohh btw.. my mum sae tt my NS is like part time.. where im supposed 2 b an NSF (national svc FULL-TIME) then i wonder.. wat does it take 2 b an NSP then?? well perhaps we could submit the idea of a NSP 2 the govt.. but unless we hav enuff manpower.. like triple the male population eligible 4 NS.. then perhaps we can form a part time army.. haha.. well on the other hand the guys would not feel responsible of protectin the country if its part time..




work is gettin mundane from dae 2 dae..

now wait a min.. wat REAL work do i realli hav in the army??

im a company medic.. aint it?? so tt means i hav 2 function 2gether wif my company 2gether wif my med skills.. but it seems tt all the time im stuck in the med ctr.. coz there's nothin realli 4 me 2 do in the company itself..

now in the med ctr im supposed 2 help out the medics in times of need.. but do these times of need realli come 2 me?? onli when everyone's realli busyzz..

ok let's get me sorted out.. so wat do i do in the camp then??

im supposed 2 support med cover when the coy goes 4 exercises and trainings.. period.

so wat am i doin when the coy does not hav trainings and exercises?? nothin at all...

i always find it amusin when other ppl accused me of slackin.. how can u work when u dunno wat ar u supposed 2 do everydae?? unlike other medics.. who ar holdin key responsibilities 2 the med ctr.. i actualli hold none..

and daes can go by like this and rite now im actualli tryin 2 explore and catch up wif the outside world wif readin of mags and newspapers everydae.. and it seems tt while the other medics ar preparin 4 their stuffs 2 b accounted 4 the yearly audit.. they ar actualli growin weary of wat they ar doin and constantly explorin the world usin the same means too.. furthermore wif a few of our guys completin their NS liability.. it seems tt the focus is lost..

but on the bright side.. it could b rather beneficial.. like the ppl whom i meet every weekend would not hav 2 suffer from my army stories AGAIN and AGAIN every week..









to accomplish certain diff tasks.. we always put on a strong fight against our obstacles.. at all costs.. some costs involve hardship.. sufferin and abit of mockin from ppl b4 we started to fight.. while some costs involves betrayal of trust.. war of words and some of the selfish gains 4 ourselves..


the dae had arrived.. i told the medics tt i'll b carryin a stretcher MOP and my field pack 4 the 24km route march.. initially they dun believe it.. but on tt dae.. i stuff my stretcher and my MOP inside the field pack and i told them im gonna walk the 24km like tt.. they were shocked.. some of them respected my faith.. while others dun believe it.. the specs were doubtful abt my load and ability 2 complete the march.. while pl 4 PC believe tt i could do it..

and so the march ended.. i walked the entire route march and completed wif the rest of the guys.. the medics were astonished.. tt nite.. no one realli tok 2 me the way they usu do.. but i could feel an atmosphere of respect and dumbfoundedness when they saw me completing the 24km route march..

and b4 the bus arrives.. my boss gathered the specs and tok 2 us.. he mentioned tt some of the bosses from other companies hav diff ideas and had their own interests 4 their men instead of harborin the vision of the unit.. he quoted an example where the sergeant majors of the companies quarreled over their transport timings back 2 camp as they wanted 2 return back 2 camp as earli as possible..

in my mind i tot tt they were rather selfish and childish.. fancy quarrelin 4 such things as nobody would wanted 2 giv way 2 one another.. if onli i had authority 2 criticize this negative behavior!! but i thank God 4 my boss.. where he is gracious and able 2 understand as he puts the unit vision as the priority rather than the small little gains tt the company desires.. and furthermore how would this unit progress as a whole when the companies were so disunited and disorganized?? tt would surely spell trouble in the future when no remedy is 2 b done..





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wat do u tink CO will do when he ask the medics 2 bring their medical stores + field pack + SBO?? it means tt he will roast us alive by callin us 2 participate in some pre road march thingy at tekong b4 reachin 2 camp site.. the men were not verii happi as they waited at the med ctr 2 confront MO.. but seein time is drawin near and MO is not reachin.. we decided 2 report our respective companies..

so after we reported 2 the superiors we waited 2 embark on the transport 2 tekong.. it seems tt CO didnt wan 2 screw us at all.. but still y the so mani stuffs tt we hav 2 bring??

finally we reached tekong.. as i went 2 find our safety rover.. we were told tt weren't any safety rover.. 4 now.. and man.. we walked 2 field camp site.. thank God is not tt far onli abt 2-3km.. soon after the sit and the recruits were settled wif their tents and all their stuff.. they went 2 hav lunch and they had FRESH RATIONS!! not onli tt.. they even COLLECTED SYRUP 4 THEMSELVES!! pl 6 PS was complainin and complainin tt they had such gdd life tt this field camp is so "kind" 2wards them.. the commanders then agreed tt they will not receive any syrup 4 the nxt meal..

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1 more yr 2 ORD!! man im officially a 1 yr soldier already.. in he mornin shouts and screams greeted me as i woke up when the recruits were scolded and punished 4 their inability 2 stick 2 fall in timings.. man its like a great start.. finally the steam gets rollin as i felt tt the real stuff.. or the real field camp life has jus started where the mornin tekan sessions were jus appetizers..

recruits will hav BIC and live grenade throw 4 2dae.. CSM once again sat the recruits down and gave them a piece of mind when they tried 2 test the system.. i got some crap from DY S3 when he messed ard wif my medical stuff.. 1 of these daes i'll chop off his head and smash into pieces like a nigga~~ and durin the grenade throw the china recruit got tekan by the PC 4 throwin a blind.. the PC even scolded him via the loudhailer.. sometimes things get screwed up when there's not enuff understandin between 2 parties.. the poor china cum SAF recruit mus get 2 noe this..

finally 2dae they hav tasted field camp.. wif a bite of SAF classic combat rations.. well im not consmin those crappy sticky stuff.. instead my field pack.. wif a whole lot of commercial food.. made up my meals 4 the daes of combat ration consumption.. lolzz..

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wat am i doin 2dae last yr?? hmm.. i rem vividly on how i surrendered my pink IC 2 the SAF.. i should hav made a fake pink IC 4 surrenderin or jus refusin 2 surrender my pink IC citin emotional disorders abt givin ppl my IC.. and exactly 365 daes from 2dae i'll b like a free bird.. flyyy awayyyyyy~~

i was greeted in the mornin by the usual commotions between the commanders and the recruits.. and thus the dae is ready 2 start well.. 2dae the recruits ar learnin urban ops.. and i was like, "ohh no.. it'll b slack.. there'll b ample time 2 rest wif little 2 b taught.." true enuff.. onli the basics were taught.. nothin much..

pl 5 and 6 PS.. PC 5 and my fellow medic gaz were talkin wif each other in a small room.. pl 6 PS felt tt this field camp seems meaningless.. there was no objective 4 this field camp.. gaz tot tt the activities could b held in sg mainland instead of comin 2 tekong.. i felt tt if the field camp were 2 b meaningful.. the recruits hav 2 b pushed mentally 4 a breakthru mindset instead of focusin their welfare out in he field.. tt way their mental capacity could expand..

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i've got sickk of wat im eatin alreadyyy.. though its 10x better than wat the recruits and some of the commanders were eatin.. i still prefer hot cooked food.. suddenly.. gaz and me were talkin abt food all over again.. man i tot.. it's always like this.. u wanna eat somethinrealll gdd after u hav eaten somethin realll baddd.. lolzz..

the recruits were once again stressed earli in the mornin when they were turned out by the commanders wif flash bangs.. they tot it was onli a prank by some jokers when they hear from their voices of their commanders 2 wake up and fall in.. everythin was sloppy.. slow.. and they got a piece of mind from their commanders once again.. i woke up earli this time 2 pack up my stuff as we prepared 2 leave gddd old tekong 2 go back home..

and teh verdict of this field camp?? crap.. despite the punishments tt they received durin these 4 daes most of them still remain unaware of their situations.. ar they realli ready 2 b passed out as trained soldiers?? i doubt so.. b4 the field camp their discipline was so baddd and a little progress was made durin these 4 daes.. like wat OC sae.. they will suffer at the nxt phrase of trainin if they remain like this..

mayb this boils down 2 perhaps 1 reason: if the welfare is not given freely 2 the commanders.. they will not pledge 2 commit 2 raise up the standard of trainin 4 the men.. will things change if the commanders were empowered wif freedom tt they wanted?? mayb so..




yeahhhhhH~~ im gonna be a 1 yr soldier in 2 daes time.. which means tt i hav actualli served the nation for exactly 365 daes this comin sat..

to look back from last yr this date.. hmmm.. let's see..

ohhh dinner wif christine.. man.. 1 yr nv see her liaoz.. dunno how's she survivin out there.. but given her talents.. prob can do verii well in her life.. depends on she want 2 anot.. lolzz..

mayb jus like wat brother sufian sae.. 2 yrs of jap occupation.. veri fast one.. and this revelation mus b drilled so hard in ur mind tt u do not brood over the ORD date..

so actualli.. wat's the significance of bein a 1 yr soldier??

hmm.. nothin actualli..

perhaps we can use it 2 suan those who ORD later than us or those who jus enlisted!! lolzz..

ohhh yes.. tt's top up of our E-mart credits.. and i used it 2 buy gortex boots.. lolzz..

and also seein new medics populatin our camp..

so now the med ctr has 2 shamsuls.. 2 danials.. 3 farhans.. 2 johns.. 1 rezali and gazali.. (not 4gettin sham-zali).. chee wei and zheng wei.. (btw the chee wei's a doctor.. which means CPT (DR) tan chee wei..) warrant lim and sergeant lim (no special relationship between the 2 realli.. but jus tt 500 yrs ago we ar 1 family..)

and man.. the recruits ar passin out soon.. which means no POP tekaning them already.. and perhaps unit life.. is gonna start soon..??




man.. after 5 daes of hard work at AOH.. it deserves 2 b paid off.. handsomely..



dang dang dang~~!!! collar pins tt were gathered from AOH.. i do not hav all though.. the armor vehicles and the air force badges ar the ones tt i do not hav.. one of the coolest collections were the SAR21 collar pin and the ultimate warrior set.. which is the 5 piece set at the top left hand corner..



i onli hav these 3 water tattoos.. the commandos.. 9 div infantry (forging ahead!!) and the artillery..



5 wristbands and the AOH polo tee and cap.. the polo tee and the cap were specially 4 ambassadors onli.. lolzz.. also there's the black waist pouch which is part of the ambassadors package.. the torchlights were from our bandage boxes.. lolzz.. our senior medic allow us 2 keep.. hahaha..



all these i got it from the last 2 daes of AOH.. there's the bag wif teh army logo on it.. ponchos and yet another waist pouch.. and a handphone puch.. and a CD from power98.. the blue color pack is a bandana from the bandage box.. and the 2 stars.. they ar the some kinda lantern lights.. lolzz..

this is the most no. of free gifts i hav collected in a major event!!

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