Sunday, November 26, 2006
tHe PpL tH0uGhTs
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the dae was a rollercoaster.. the destination ended wif the passengers crashin over..
when i booked out 4 my checkup.. i tot tt after the checkup i hav time 2 hav a gd meal and do some shoppin wif my civilian clothes.. indeed theer was time but the shoppin was unfruitful.. nevertheless im disappointed but i tot i would go back 2 tekong and had a gd rest after tt..
when i went back there.. i realized tt 1 of the mates lost his retainin pin in his rifle.. the nxt thing i noe is tt the whole platoon had 7 mistakes they made tt dae accordin 2 sgt francis..
immediately i could sense tt everyone is so unhappi and the atmosphere is verii tense.. the rain outside my window wont seem 2 cease anytime from now..
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2dae was my grenade assault course.. jus like any other dae.. everythin was regimental.. however.. while we were waitin 4 our turn.. sgt ng talked 2 us and the topic turned 2 my church..
i boldly declared tt im part of city harvest.. like any other ppl out there.. he talked how bad the reputation had been ruined.. however.. most of the time i jus smile and spoke up in a wise manner..
it ended up as a decent conversation as it was focused 2 other directions..
personally.. i enjoyed the conversation verii much becoz in the army u dun had much gddd conversations dae in and out.. most of it ar jus commands.. instructions.. and all other sorts of thrash talks..
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i realized in BMT the common practise is this: either become an officer.. or become a rifle man.. do not become a spec becoz u ar always stuck in the middle and stress levels comes from both sides..
i tell u honestly.. i greatly condemn this attitude..
it simply means tt the person wants 2 run away from prob and usu ppl like this would not b overcomers or conquerors of their probs..
however.. it seems tt most ppl also do not wan 2 bear havy responsibilities for themselves and become men.. i greatly condemn this attitude too.. the greatest qn is: how can u become a real man when u ar not bold enuff 2 take responsibilities??
wEiwEi|6:56 AM
Sunday, November 05, 2006
tHe ArMy DiArY - MeN aNd LeAdErS
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daryl called.. told me tt i got into deep trouble because i supposedly say, "God says tt we ar supposed 2 b 2gether" to a gal.. what nonsense!! i was so upset by this statement tt i could a crush a table 2 pieces.. it is absolutely wrong 2 sae tt.. i noe deep down it is veriii wrong from my memory of the bible study..
rite now ALL HELL BROKE LOOSE.. from now on.. i shall not tok 2 her and will perhaps (or rather 90% confirm) block her from my contact list in MSN.. since it is our main channel of communication..
i really could not get over the anger.. jus now i jus ran about 10 plus rounds in 30min.. i am still not feelin gddd..
i feel like shoutin out crazily.. or perhaps jus blast out at someone 2 let out my anger.. it's a verii bitter pill 2 swallow..
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tt's it.. tt's the end of the last thing i tot i could hold on.. rite now i realli need 2 focus on my SIT test and hopefully i can become an officer..
actualli bein a gdd soldier is quite tough yet attainable.. ttt's becoz i noe nothin abt the army yet if u show tt u ar willin 2 work hard.. ur reward is there.. the qn is: how hard is hard?? there is no standard benchmark of merit in the SAF as most of the time is the way we present ourselves 2 our fellow mates and our superiors..
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the 1st dae outside the field had jus gone.. 2 b honest.. 12km road march is nothinwhen ur field pack is much lighter than the last time and u noe tt God's strength is wif u.. after tt.. the dae is quite ok actualli..
when i reach the field site i found tt i actualli forgot 2 SMS teh bdae msgs 2 alan.. in my heart i was thinkin.. "ohh no.. i 4got again.. this time is her again.."
then i start 2 tink of her again.. perhaps i would realli make an effort and buy her a card and send her bdae greetings.. 2dae is my 2 gdd friendzz bdae.. heng yang and peter.. how i wish i hav a phone.. wishin them happi bdae..
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2dae book out liaoz.. well the 3 dae 2 nite SIT test has been ok.. i felt jus alrite.. hopefully can become officer lor.. and the time i book out 1930.. i'll b seein my mates again in 24 hrs time..
wEiwEi|7:12 AM
