"and young man shall see visions.. and old man shall dream dreams.."

2dae when i went 2 cut hair.. my hairstylist asked me, "hav u tot of joinin the channel U superstar show?? i ans "no.. y??" he replied, "i hav a dream.. dream tt all of those who i hav serviced b4 became famous ppl.. so hope tt u joined the superstar show.. then hopefully u'll win.. and then u can help me advertise my salon and i'll b famous along too.." i rolled my eyes wif amazement.. but he suddenly sae, "aiya.. i tink at tt time they'll probably get u 2 sign contract wif famous hair salons like jean yip.. and then i'll probably b forgotten.." and i told him, "dun worry lahz.. surely i will help u.."

my hairstylist is already in the mid 30s but he had this kind of wonderful dream in his mind.. it's realli amazin.. and i love ppl who hav dreams like these tt they may able 2 inspire and motivate themselves 2 do the better.. of coz in a christian context a dream is like a callin from God tt He has put in our hearts.. but no matter wat.. a dream is real powerful..

"ur sons and daughters shall prophesy.."

my dad called and i tok 2 him over the phone.. i heard his difficulties already and i jus spoke w/o even thinkin wat 2 speak 2 him initially.. so in the end.. wat i wan 2 speak 2 him is almost entirely diff from wat i wan 2 tell him actualli.. i kept givin examples and concepts tt i hav nv tot of and in the end.. he sae tt he was so touched by my encouragement.. he will realli take it into deep consideration..

indeed God is pouring out His spirit on all flesh.. we will hav the power and authority given by the Holy Spirit..




had a dream last nite.. dreamt tt melvin (the one from the same zone as me as well as same poly) lives in the same unit as me but diff room.. suddenly the landlord wans 2 renovate his hse so we were brought into another temp place 2 stay.. when i was there i went 2 play wif mel.. then suddenly saw jiayi and velly 2gether wif us.. i was so shocked tt they were there.. and later i was so disillusioned when i realize i am still in sengkang jus awoken from my dream..

and i was so fluttered in the mornin.. suddenly God spoke, "y dun u come into a realm of worship??" immediately i got on my knees on the bed and started 2 worship and pray.. and God began 2 reveal things 2 me and it was realli wonderful spendin these times wif the LORD..

so after tt things went pretty smooth.. thank God tt our project was able to hand it b4 time.. this is the only project we hav 2 hand in and im so thankful i could take a breather now.. therefore my plan is 2 rest well 4 the dae.. and after tt gear up and prepare myself 4 shortcomin battles..

i tried 2 prepare myself mentally so i went 2 play bball this evening.. my shots were taken gd and i challenged a middle aged guy.. he looked at me and sae, "wahh.. u ar so tall.. how can i win??" but aniwae he obliged and i won the match.. actualli rite from the start i knew i hav won.. coz those who had feared my height had already lost 100% mentally and wif tt mental barrier.. the game would surely b mine 2 call.. therefore dun look at ur circumstance.. look at ur faith.. and ur promise of victory..

sad 2 sae the rest was shortlived.. had a tiff wif my mum becoz of my grandma (dun wish 2 tok abt it aniwae) and tt argument made me feel bad.. i pray 4 the better.. but i may hav 2 pay the price.. tt is the permit 2 the overnite prayer meetin this fri..

the daes ar drawin near..




i planted.. a few of us watered.. and God gave the increase in our fellowship among the cg..

i was so dismayed and out of frustration i complained 2 willy tt our cg dun hav much 2 fellowship wif each other.. willy jus sae plainly, "well.. u gotta step up lahz.. bring the cg 2gether.." but it struck me tt i should not giv up.. keep on waterin and waterin and hope tt 1 dae things would turn better..

and it did.. 4 a start all the cg guys sat 2gether in 1 line of the circle.. and after cg the guys took mani photos wif gerade (coz he's leavin the cg as he was transferred 2 another cg).. so all the guys gather and posed and i tot of lying my long body across the photo pic but the guys took me up and grab me 4 a pose.. later on they kept on tickling me and i screamed.. finally they put me down i was so devastated.. lolzz.. then i shouted.. "gerade~~!!" and we all grabbed gerade and we posed.. but instead he got more than me.. we turned his body from sideways 2 hangin upside down.. and siew shya took a series of pic tt could illustrate his process of torture!! lolzz.. the guys were once again 2gether and i believe tt there is more 2 come when all the guys stick 2gether in the cg 2 bring joy and laughter 2 the cg..

on sunday it was great.. mani of us went 4 ice skatin and this is the 1st time i saw the rink was rather empty wif ppl.. also in the cg most of them dunno how 2 skate so those who can skate stood up 2 help out.. we enjoyed a great time and we went 2 hav dinner.. tt is probably the last time we spent time wif gerade 2gether..

i pray tt he will b a blessin 2 the cg and i hoped 4 a new dawn in the atmosphere of our fellowship..




yes!! tt stupid detroit pistons.. tt cocky detroit pistons.. they lose!! spurs win the NBA championship!! hurrah hurrah.. rasheed wallace onli noe how 2 tok big dunno how 2 do things.. so when u wan 2 b a bball player.. tok less.. train more and u'll win.. lolzz..

well 2dae after sch as i was headin 2 the bus stop i met chai ying.. a TRP harvester.. we waved at each other and she told me, "hey.. i added u in friendster.." i smiled and walked away.. at the bus stop i met aileen.. another TRP harvester.. she told me, "hey i added a testimonial 4 u in friendster!!" at tt time i feel like laughin abt wat she sae.. i smiled widely this time and sae, "ok.." conclusion?? TRP gals is so excited abt friendster.. lolzz..

well im supposed 2 type the HR report now.. but all the discussions and stuff hav been drivin me nuts.. initially i spoke and mentioned the pts i wan 2 type.. but there were so mani tt i spoke and i already 4gotten some rite now.. i tink i realli gotta put it aside 1st and wait 4 a better time 2 do.. of coz.. it will b done well..

tomolo cg liaoz.. not realli lookin 4ward.. y?? brian and gerade confirm gone.. the 3rd one probably willy.. if onli i could turn back time.. haha but tt's impossible.. well come wat may.. the guys in the cg ar depletin like crazy.. pray tt there will b guys revival in our cg.. lolzz..

though im supposed 2 b in a relaxin mood.. im so tensed up within me rite now..




hmm 3 daes has passed and mani things happened.. some i dun wish 2 tok abt it.. and some i simply 4gotten liaoz..

the HR project deadline is near.. im quite surprised tt most of us still take things rather lightly.. probably we had the experience already and also i found tt the grp's progress is goin at a steady rate.. also at every project tutorial i make sure i had done somethin b4 goin 2 class.. or else i would b jus a free rider jus like b4.. lolzz..

sch work aside.. recently i do not hav time 2 do loads of things.. first is 2 cut my hair coz its rather long already.. and my wax had already used finish but i kept 4gettin 2 buy.. also my phone where the screen is spoiled.. i realli had no time 2 go down 2 suntec and repair.. everydae after sch i look 4ward 2 go home and rest.. been real tired all these daes.. i mus recuperate as much as i can so tt i could focus on my nxt tasks.. but it seems tt the time i rest is longer than the time i do my stuff.. gotta do the things liaoz man.. i cant afford 2 b lethargic..

well 2dae i went 2 sch 4 onli 2 proj consultation seession.. 30min each.. and wif tt the grp meet 2 discuss the event mgt proj again and 1 hr later we ar off the sch.. so u may tink its slack.. but y am i so tired all the time??




alrite 2dae's real fun.. exciting.. and realli wonderful..

the purpose of 2dae's TRP outin is a farewell party coz leon our beloved TRP member is goin NS.. and puttin aside his troubles.. we made it such a fun and wonderful time 4 all.. firstly it's the games.. we played from smallest 2 biggest (i played it in cg b4..) and then the transformation game.. initially they make it the losers get forfeit but we were backfired.. im 1 of the 8 winners and i got sabotaged wif the other 7.. nxt is the game H2O where 2 persons havin a gap between them mus go find a person 2 fill in the gap.. subsequently the game turned ruthless as ppl tried 2 stop the others from snatchin the ppl..

then melvin toh turned the game into a fiercer atmosphere.. he laid human obstacles so tt the obstacles could delay the person of reachin towards the goal.. ultimately the human obstacles jus began 2 snatch and grab guys and the game turned wild.. the final showdown came when mel sae tt, "i will push any of the person inside and u mus try ur best 2 save him.." but instead he got backfired when the guys ganged up and every physical body was piled on him.. we lay him down again and piled him the 2nd time.. at the 3rd time we wan 2 throw him into the swimmin pool but the security guard was there so we didn't do it.. and melvin was so devastated.. he couldn't believed wat he seen and experienced...

so after a great time of game its time 2 eat.. at least a dozen boxes of pizzas were lined up 4 us and there ar also plenty of drinks.. suddenly in a corner.. haohan and sis xuemin and a few others gathered 2 play taboo... i joined in and we divided ourselves into 2 teams of 4 each.. and we realli enjoyed ourselves and tt attracts alot of ppl 2 watch how we play.. subsequently more ppl came and watch how we played.. and abt 10pm we finally ended everythin as we packed up our feelings and everythin and we went home..

i like the TRP crusade too.. jus like my tuition ministry.. both these grps showed a great sense of enthusiasm and freedom of expression.. it was so fun fellowshippin wif them.. i tink our guys from cg should realli learn from them.. they stand in unity.. but in s25 the guys ar so separated from one another.. time and again i tried 2 pull unity.. but the guys wouldn't cooperate.. in the end i was so fed up and i gave up..

guys in our cg.. pls when u look at this.. let us realli stand 2gether and make this cg lively.. let every member be well treasured and let each member self esteem b built so tt they can effectively release the joy tt they hav in cg..




2dae is cheong wai's matrimony and tomolo nite will b his wedding banquet.. praise the LORD.. he's finally married and pray tt God would bless him and his marriage..

the whole matrimony is so fun and relaxed.. though in praise and worship we could not freely express ourselves.. but when ps yong told the couples wat 2 do after gettin married is so funni in terms of the way he expressed it.. and when cheong wai recite the oath he slanged alot and we all giggled loudly at the back.. at the end we couldn't take it anymore... we laughed and clapped at cheered 4 him..

and almost everytime he sae somethin during the matrimony we all jus find his slang so awkward but yet funni.. and when we took photos wif the couple we were also verii rowdy.. so after tt when we fellowship is so gd.. we jus joked and we can basically tok abt alot of stuffs among ourselves..

tt's wat i find common in TRP and the tuition ministry.. we ar all verii enthusiastic.. and i find tt our cg lack these enthusiastic substance... my cgl finds it so weird when i shouted "hey!" when singin the bdae songz.. i mean other cgs.. ministries ar doin all the time.. y cant we do tt?? can we b enthusiastic durin fellowship?? can we hav more life.. more noise.. and excitement??

i realli hope tt it will happen..




2dae i kept unusually quiet in class.. not sae im depressed or somethin.. but when i noe deep down tt God is wif me.. He tends 2 shut up my mouth coz He noes tt my mouth doesn't noe how 2 speak well.. so therefore in the whole entire tutorial session i spoke and ask onli a few things.. other than tt i did not realli crack any jokes or chat ard wif my project grp mates..

but God showed me alot of circumstances tt i will face.. firstly u got ppl gossipin.. then u got ppl harboring bitterness and anger all the time.. and some they would fear 2 step over into the rhema of faith and believe.. all these bad habits and thinkin tt the world possess will b mountains over my life tt prevents me 2 reach out 2 the lost and bring salvation.. but all is not lost.. my decision 2 run the race of faith was made quite some time ago and i will nv back out.. the loser will quit.. but those who wans 2 win will always run 2 the verii end..

and when i alighted the bus walkin back home.. i suddenly lifted my head and felt a strong presence of God.. my heart cried out, "the LORD God of heavens!! the God of hope, love and faith.. He is here!!" 4 tt moment i am totally speechless.. i didnt noe wat 2 do..

so when i reached back home i tot tt i would take a nap 1st.. but as usual i cant slp.. so i decided 2 finish watchin the bible on VCD which features abraham.. i realised tt throughout the whole show.. abraham kept confessin tt "God will provide.." when he sent away ishmael into a vast desert.. he believe God will provide.. when he was abt 2 sacrifice issac he told issac tt God will provide.. no wonder he is the father of our faith.. becoz he noes tt in every situation.. God will provide.. and in modern daes a solution tt God will provide...

well God will provide strength and wisdom tomolo at ministry and cg.. amen




as i went 2 rivervale mall 2 hav my dinner as usual.. i suddenly tot tt i'll visit video EZY the video rental shop and look at wat new movies they hav got 2 rent.. 2 my greatest surprise.. i found the shop showcasing the diff stories of the bible..

there were so mani diff stories showcased on the shelf.. genesis.. solomon.. esther.. the revelation and apostle paul.. after lookin at all the diff titles i decided 2 choose paul becoz i wan 2 see tt how wat he realli was b4 he became converted at the road 2 damascus.. so i rented it and happily went home 2 watch..

he introduced himself in the story tt he is a tentmaker b4 he joined the pharisees.. and when he was a pharisee he followed the law carefully and law by law he observed and take it seriously.. whereas his close friend, reuben, hated the christians verii much.. paul actualli did not possess hatred jus like reuben does.. but as time goes by he followed the ways of reuben and started persecuting the christians..

so after tt.. every story line followed as the bible saes.. but when i was watching.. i noticed paul's gd friendz (after he got converted) barnabas wanted 2 stay at jerusalem and antioch jus 2 enjoy the fellowship and the great faith tt the congregation possess.. it reminds me of christians bein so contended wif where they ar wif and do not wan 2 step out anymore.. but on the other hand there is the great apostle.. sayin, "i hav a mission.." and tt's how we form modern dae "missions.." mani christians tink tt this is an awesome task.. but this is the primary God's purpose tt He told us when we got saved.. this is OUR MISSION.. tt is 2 reach out 2 the world..

after watchin this VCD.. i felt convicted tt there ar ppl who ar always mockin at our faith and our LORD Jesus.. wat we can do is onli speak wif boldness and not condemn the others.. paul greatly emphasize abt love in this show.. he once again remind me tt "if i spoke and preach the gospel.. and not hav love.. i will jus b a noisy cymbal and drums clangin ard the ears.."




i cant believe 2dae's lesson is so borin.. at managerial accountin tut 2dae i jus feel like sleepin.. the tutor do the same old things as time goes on and i realli dosed off.. finally 2 miserable hrs hav passed and jiayi project grp and our project grp ar off 2 our field trip..

the purpose of the field trip is 2 find out the site of the event we ar abt 2 propose 2 our event mgt tutor in our project.. so after agreein 2 set off 2gether.. we went 2 the place and im actualli surprised 2 find the place diff than wat i tot.. there were trees alongside of the pavements and the grass was verii tall.. i wasn't wearin jeans 2dae so i had a diff time walkin ard.. as madeline and irene were takin pics of the site.. i drew a rough map of the site citing the various trees, benches and length if grass in the map.. so after viewin the place for abt an hr.. they decided 2 take a majestic view of the whole site area..

initially they went 2 esplanade roof terrance but they failed 2 get it becoz a certain buildin blocked the view.. then we went all the way 2 marina square 2 take the pic.. and we managed 2 get a rough one from the newly constructed foodcourt.. so after takin the pic evelyn and irene went home and the rest of us stayed at the food court 4 dinner..

as i was happily enjoyin the food.. suddenly i saw a familar face.. a young man wif his wife and his parents sat in front of me.. 2gether wif his 2 kids and his maid.. behold.. IT WAS PASTOR ZHUANG AND PASTOR AUDREY~~!! i got the biggest shock of my life 2 see ps zhuang in the marina square food court.. i greeted him and we exchanged a few words.. then my friendz secretly ask me, "ah?? he is the pastor from ur church?? how mani pastors u hav actualli??" so i ans them accordingly.. and they sae, "hmm.. seems tt the pastor is rather rich.. he got 2 kids.. and a maid too.. he mus b earnin alot.." well i jus smiled.. indeed ps zhuang is rich.. but not mani from the world noe tt wat he has done 4 the church and how much he sweated and gave..

so after tt i bid ps audrey gd bye (ps zhuang went somewhere else) and when we were shoppin i saw him again.. this time browsin 4 some VCD.. so after a few rounds of shoppin at marina square.. we retired from an eventful dae..




currently listening to eason chen yi xun - yu jian le ni.. feel tt the music does not match well wif the vocals.. as such the song is a complete crappy mess.. cant get wat is nice out of it..

oh well.. its been a few daes since boxup.com and mybaidu.com close down.. firstly boxup.com close down coz i couldn't see the latest 933 charts and therefore i could not acknowledge new and nice songz on the blk.. dun ask me 2 listen 2 the radio.. firstly i dun hav one at home and i dun like radio stations coz most of the times they got their own programees and stuff.. which is pretty bo liaoz in my opinion.. and also mybaidu.com.. i couldn't get songz from there..

and recently jus bought a new discman coz my discman kept on scratchin and damagin my disc and 1 fine day it had completely lost its playing powers.. and when i went 2 buy i bought a cheap one and guess wat.. no anti-skip system.. initiallly feel like sellin off when i first had a bad encounter wif it coz it skip tracks and the songz jumps here and there.. but too bad my tt discman realli cannot work liaoz.. so i pray tt my internship i will get a little more pay than the norm so i could afford mp3 players tt is 1GB and above.. lolzz..

and i had a great desire 2 learn guitar.. 2dae went 2 brian's hse and picked up daryl's guitar and willy tot me the 4 basic notes.. im hopin 2 realli play the guitar well so tt i could get 1 4 myself and play it at home 2 worship God..




this yr the emerge conference i was onli able 2 attend the nite session.. but it was still gd aniwae..

throughout the 3 nites of conference my mind was realli quite distracted by the things ard me.. i feel tt my mind's gettin crazy again.. btu whenever i tot abt it i came 2 a pt tt i will rationalise.. 4 the LORD says, "fear not! i am wif u always," still.. i hav a desire 2 b filled wif the presence of God..

4get abt the POS.. the talentime.. and all the events tt were held at emerge.. coz wat stood out of the conference is the presence of God... pastor kong preached on the 1st nite tt we should hav spiritual hunger within us and it mus not cease.. and when he sae tt i checked myself.. wat is the level of hunger compared 2 last yr?? it was so diff.. i am too complacent..

but still God gave me more.. He ask me, "how mani encounters do u hav wif Me??" i sae, "2.. 1 at home and 1 at cg prayer meetin b4 the actual meetin starts.." and i began 2 crave 4 it.. i wan more.. more and more... i do not wan 2 lose the fire and b an avg nice christian and while doin my ministry w/o bein filled wif the aniontin..

and 2 do so.. pastor preach tt we mus die, so tt Christ lives in us.. last nite i died.. now i live wif Christ in me..




in abt 19 hrs time the parade of sch is goin 2 start.. yet i dun see a positive attitude displayed among TRP..

most of them tired.. some of them sick.. and few of them ar frustrated.. i rem the nite b4 when we had our final combined rehearsal in church the execution was not perfect and when we were exitin the stage we hung our heads low and watched the other schs in admiration..

few hrs ago we had our practices again.. this time we try 2 make perfect every move.. thank God no one's seriously injured.. and we practice and review.. practice and review.. until abt 1120 then we were officially dismissed... but when i look back and see.. most of them were still rackin their heads thinkin abt wat they hav 2 do tomolo..

i jus pray tt when we were up there in stage tomolo we will do better than any of those practices.. by faith we shall not fail.. we onli had 1 chance.. i believe tt all of us would definetely push themselves 2 the final limit..

well after tomolo we will b goin our separate ways.. though we still meet sometimes in one way or another.. i would definetely hav mixed emotions..

as 4 me.. i am ready.. absolutely ready 4 the emerge conference..




the dream will start from here.. and it will increase from here..

i was so inspired 2 do composition 4 the kids.. firstly i wan 2 noe wat ar they experiencin and feelin rite now.. also i wan 2 noe their command of their languages.. so i tot the topics and i quickly came out wif 3: my church, wat i wan 2 accomplish this yr and begin the compo wif, "recently, something terrible happened.."

and so 2dae the students wrote their compos.. and out of 11 students.. 3 wrote abt the church and 8 wrote abt "recently, something terrible happened.." when i saw the 8 who wrote tt something terrible happened.. i could sense tt they ar writing 4 real.. most of them wrote the truth and i could sense of wat they wrote.. its realli unbelievable 2 see kids goin thru life wif all these pain and tribulations.. i am totally shocked..

the 3 tt wrote abt the church were basically thankful of the teachers tt hav done 4 them.. i finally knew y the majority of the children church workers cried durin the conference.. the reason y these children come is becoz they ar not livin well in the outside world and had came 2 the church 4 peace and hapiness..

i felt realli bad 4 them.. mayb i should repent from shoutin at them.. no wonder the jurong west kids were the least spiritual among the other areas.. tt's becoz they seek love... they wan God 2 do somethin 4 them and the children ar not interested in bible readin becoz they tink tt its such a burden 4 them..

and also their grammar and vocab is in a terrible mess.. i need 2 do some cleanin up this area..

now i realli weep 4 them deep in my heart..




yesterdae i had a drainin dae.. and tt's followed by POS.. and when im back home im told 2 reach out by my cgl.. this noon i receive a sms from my IC tellin me 2 set the papers.. indeed it's realli unbelievable tt i did not break down and fall sick in the midst of all these..

but thank God tt my cgl knew wat was goin on and told me 2 do the best as i can and she also tell me 2 make use of the time effectively 2 reach out... indeed talkin 2 friendz and spendin time wif them requires time but she told me tt in everywhere i go im supposed 2 touch their hearts and lives..

and when she sae tt i tot i could not take it anymore.. so after tt i went 2 slp.. this mornin i woke up and pray as usual.. but when i got out of the hse im still verii worried abt my plans 2 reach out... suddenly i tot of my cg members.. i tot of alan.. then willy.. this 2 beloved bros of mine sticked thru thin and thick wif me.. and also tommy and ben.. my 2 beloved young bros who ar lookin upon me.. and then sam.. brian.. and most imptly my mentor daryl.. who always put hope and hoped the best 4 me 2 mature and prosper in my spirtual walk.. when i rem all these ppl i suddenly felt tt they were all lookin at me on how i run this race.. i could also sense tt they ar encouragin me 2 fight.. and 2 go thru all these things..

and when i tink of them.. immediately i tot of Jesus who promised 2 b by my side when times get tough.. and suddenly the inner me is strengthened.. and my tots ar finally cleared.. there's onli one way out.. fight for the faith..

so after tt then i received the sms from my ministry IC.. but the work did not put me down but it led me 2 tink on how could i help these children via tuition.. i pray tt this time i could go into another level 2 reach out 2 the children..

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