Saturday, January 21, 2006
BrEaK n0w
it's 12 midnight.. i felt like venting all my frustrations by thrashing someone 7-0 in a 1-on-1 bball game..
well fat hope.. ppl will jus thrash me wif thrash and thrash water on me 4 disturbin the silence..
i grow weary of all the projects and the group.. it seems tt when the most crucial part and season of the project stage the grp members were not seeking a breakthru but instead throwin all kinds of problems on me.. and finally i couldn't take it and blasted, "hey.. i've done 2 out of 4 components.. cant u all jus do the other 2??" immediately the grp fell silent.. onli a reply came back 2 me was, "well it's ur project too.. so cant u jus help??" no one agreed wif tt statement.. and i jus carry on wif my own business..
as 4 the projects.. thank God the things tt im supposed 2 do were done.. it's so easi.. tasks assigned will b completed as the fastest time possible coz when i dunno wat 2 do.. i dun jus sit there and whine and cried like a spoilt brat sayin, "ohhh.. i dunno how 2 do.. it's so tough.. im hopeless.. also helpless.. how?? how?? how??" i always believe there is a way out.. aint no mountain gonna put wEiwEi down..
jus like my attachment period.. im already countin my daes when all the projects ar over by 3rd feb.. it's abt 2 wks from now.. it'll b real quick.. i realli dunwan 2 hear anythin abt them anymore.. it's amazin tt i can tolerate the nonsense for 6 mths.. im jus bein too kind.. and the kindness tt i gave it's like cheap grace.. as if they hav tt kind of favor like the air tt they breathe..
im gonna break now.. and i need a gd break.. seriously..
wEiwEi|12:06 AM
Thursday, January 19, 2006
mY cHrIsTiAn bDaE
i rem on this dae 2 yrs ago.. i felt so convicted in the heart.. i told angela.. i wan 2 b a christian.. and at tt time angela prayed 4 me.. a week later sis esther knew of my salvation and approached me and prayed 4 me too.. then soon afterwards came the daes of persecution.. perseverance.. refining.. mouldin..
and tt's wat i am 2dae..
lookin back.. a tough time i came here.. if i were to throw away of my experiences tt i had durin these 2 yrs is equivalent 2 throwin away of my life.. the mistakes and wrong behaviors i made were being kept in my brain and in my heart so tt i will not 4get them wat i did..
most imporatntly.. the word tt has been preached.. the presence of God tt i had felt over the past 2 yrs is a real time and real life experience.. i cried.. im convincted.. im transformed.. all those turning pts of my life.. they were there onli to make me better..
behold.. new things will come.. in 2006 God wans me 2 b ready.. but sometimes is jus tt we ar too used of bein an obedient soldier and we do not wan 2 step out 2 become an obedient general or marshal.. indeed there was a call 2 rise up.. but where will i go?? i dunno.. wat would i b in church?? i dunno.. these ar the answers i wan from these qns but yet God would not reveal till he finds it suit..
so there u go.. there is a certainty for failures and problems tt will arise right from the start.. when God wans 2 prosper me he make sure i'll get some setback 1st b4 i get my payback.. but come 2 tink of it.. firstly im already immuned 2 all these stuff and secondly.. it's better 2 hav setbacks 1st then setbacks later.. coz it will lead 2 destruction if setbacks is 4 the later..
well 1 thing's 4 sure.. the challenge will come real soon.. im waiting.. im waitinggggggg...
wEiwEi|12:20 AM
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
tHe t0pIc g0eS 0n aGaIn
last nite durin cg.. ppl were discussin how and when they ar gettin attached
some wan it real funni.. some made plans.. some wan it this way.. some wan it tt way..
but i remained confident.. and i noe where and when im goin..
so they asked me, "u wan 2 get attach this yr rite??"
"aiya come on lahz.. u go army come out then find lahz.."
"yahzz.. u will become a better man when u find a gf!!"
i feel tt's absurd.. my fellow tp harvesters got attached last yr.. both the gal and the guy ar so 2gether.. then u got certain ppl tryin 2 go after one another by organizin study places and other sorts of outings..
and last yr they ar also talkin tt when they ar goin 2 attached.. tt they ar findin guys now.. and also discussin abt the guys.. ohh yes the same specific topic was again discussed this yr.. the guys' age!! lolzz.. every yr's the same.. guys too young too immature.. guys too old no gd.. watever sort of excuses.. reasons.. blah blah blah..
ok but i gave it a tot.. dr joyce meyer preached tt instead of blamin others.. we mus surrender 2 God and sae "alrite.. it's my fault.." perhaps the gals should go 4 extreme makeovers!! ehhh no.. perhaps the gals should dress up better..
hmm... but i gave a tot again.. the gals ar already quite sharp..
but ar their actions aggressive when they realli wan a guy?? well mayb somewhat..
ahhhhhh!!! i get it!!! if they realli desire a relationship.. they should hav prayed earnestly and realli ask 4 God 4 a gd bf..
ok enuff said.. jus pray it.. no pray no gain.. muahahah
wEiwEi|9:16 PM
Monday, January 09, 2006
b0nDeD
there's jus so mani things 2 do.. so mani tasks on hand.. so mani responsibilities tt tie me down..
1st is projects.. then there ar proj discussions.. research.. and then term tests is nxt wk.. tutors ar tryin hard 2 fail us..
i tell u somethin.. pastor told us b4 tt God set us tests so tt we can pass..
but men set tests so tt we can fail.. how ironic.. if onli the setters ar christians.. they will understand better..
remember?? God mercies always truimph over judgment?? where's there's judgment, God remembers mercy??
blah.. this seems foolish 2 them.. 2 them realli it makes no sense..
but it seems tt so mani tasks tt realli tie me down.. i felt tt those discussions. progress checks.. realli makes no sense 4 my purpose in life.. and when i find tt the purpose in my life does not match wif the things tt i do and the things i do kept on tormentin my soul and spirit.. tt's realli like hebrew ppl livin in egypt..
ohh how i wish God would sned plagues, frogs and locusts to the land.. but tt's impossible aniwae.. i dun wannna b a spiritual terrorist and b charged b4 the judgment seat..
it's jus 1 more month.. jus like attachment period.. 1 more month and im off 2 army and then 2 more yrs later.. the decision of my life will start..
ohh well.. the future.. how scary can it get.. firstly u ar old.. then u need 2 make big time choices.. but i'll jus leave tt in God's hands..
wEiwEi|9:21 PM
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
CrAp sTuFF ExTrAcTeD fR0m Fr|eNdStEr
ok besides bloggin long borin entries.. i hav decided 2 blogg crappy answers 2 these long winded friendster qns 2 get ppl 2 noe abt them.. lolzz..
Spell your first name back wards]: iEwiEw
[the story behind your msn name]: once upon a time, in a secret place call the brain, there's where the ideas generate
[Where do you live?]: some kang places in singapore
[3 words that sum you up]: tall black skinny
{DESCRIBE YOUR}
[Wallet]black, unappealing and dun even tink of stealing it.. muahaha
[Pillow cover] blue and yellow tt doesn't make ur head roll
[Coffee cup] tt's boring.. describe other things lahz..
[Shoes] Nike, DaDa and trail
[CD in stereo right now] wahh still use CD ahz?? wat generation liaoz??
[What you are wearing now] t-shirt and shorts lor..
[Hair] nothin special, jus black
[In my mouth] saliva
[In my head] there's the brain
[Some of your favorite movies] Narnia!! lolzz... this is not crap.. it's REAL!!
[Something you're looking forward to] the end of the semester..
[The last thing you ate?] orange
[Something that you are deadly afraid of?] deadly posion tt is deadly which is deadly 2 b afraid of..
[Do you like candles?] we'll sing silent nite.. holy nite..
[Do you believe in a thing called love] i believe in love but i dun believe in a thing call love..
[Do you believe in soul mates] well perhaps maybe it is a possibility
[Do you believe in love at first sight] mayb it would b wise 2 get a few more sights b4 fallin in love..
ok there ar so mani mani more qns.. but i shant do them.. it realli wears me down.. so tt's all i could provide 4 now..
wEiwEi|11:44 PM
