Saturday, April 25, 2009
OnE LaSt TiMe
and so.. yesterday i ended my nomad life of goin 2 makeup cg every fri.. it lasted for abt 4 mths.. keith was sayinggg tt i could not do this as i might as well change a cg.. hahahah.. but i tink willy and sally hav diff opinions..
the reason is tsraightforward and simple.. i cant go 4 my usual sat cg due 2 classes these 4 mths on a sat.. and 2dae i prouldly announce... 2dae is my final sat lesson!!! huzzah... i will not hear of any saturday finance classes anymore!!!
well it ended wif pastor yock kiang cg near holland V.. it started wif kelvin cg.. alonggg the wayy went 2 chew yan's and jingxuan.. but mostly my makeup cgs were anchored on kel's cg but yesterdae it is the 1st time i hear pastor preach in cg.. he is jus as good as wat i perceived.. lolzz
the end of the sat finance lessons means the start of a great battle: the final exams.. it is comin soon in 3 weeks time.. i bet none of my classmates ar revisin their stuff yet as they were all rushin 4 deadlines 2 complete their project.. hahahah.. and for sure.. the sat classes were tough.. we werent gdd in finance.. but we didnt pay much attention to it either.. lolzz.. anyway history has proved tt as longgg as we study.. passing this subject shouldnt b a prob after all..
now wat it would b like when i "go backkk home to N435"?? i hope tt there will b a warm welcome on my return.. everyone will b happi.. and expectant.. and they were grateful tt im backkk!!! (If only... i wish...) guess everyone will still go on wif their lives whether im ard anot.. but anyways like wat yesterdae sermon says.. i mus commit myself 2 walk in the light wif God and His ppl, aka fellowship, to build up the spiritual lives of the younger members.. and it will all start at the nxt cg meeting!!!
wEiwEi|3:46 PM
Thursday, April 16, 2009
LeArN t0 ReLaX
i realized tt my com hasnt been restarted or shut down for more than 3 wks.. it onli went 2 hibernate or sleep mode and then everythin resumed from there and then..
and then i realized tt my com is verriii "stress" by the wayyy it operates.. its laginess and all.. and i decided 2 let it restart.. and the com seems 2 suffer from a "mental breakdown" when it took its time 2 slowly close all appplications b4 shuttin down and rebootin again..
wahhh.. i can sense wat it is goin thru.. lolzz
i always tot tt i enjoy working.. whether im on a job workin or its sch workk.. i like wat im doin.. even in the army when conditions were badd.. my superiors were nasty.. i still take pride in wat i do.. as a result.. i always communicate wif my workk 2 other ppl.. of coz.. most of them use it 2 relate 2 me.. but 4 those who is actualli goin thru the same thingg as me they would actualli avoid talkin abt our workkk stuff and chat abt somethin else..
and i always wonder.. arent they proud of their workk?? these ppl showed more focus and interest than i do in workk and yet when they ar outside they prefer not 2 tok abt it.. ar they escapin reality? face it!! the world's cruel..
and i realized im rite in my latter sentence but i was wrongg in my former judgment..
the world's cruel.. tt's a fact.. period. but inasmuch they gave full commitment 2 workk.. they wanted 2 relax and enjoy and workk is certainly not their entertainment nor their pleasure.. all they wanted was somethin fun and excitin besides workk.. and the various types of hot topics such as fashion and entrtainment provided jus tt for them 2 relax..
me?? the onli wayy i relax is 2 play bball lor.. but bball is more like a competitive sport.. nowadays the more i play.. the more i tell myself tt im not there yet and i need 2 train harder.. i tink i need 2 find another type of leisure.. tt would realli allow me 2 relax and enjoy.. and jus hav fun..
wEiwEi|11:04 PM
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
红尘 SuNsEt
ok.. b4 i introduce my poem.. here's a new songz from BY2.. their new album had jus released!!
here it is..
题：红尘
举目观夕阳
如画过不忘
思那赤血汗
皆成金岸沙
今时剩余光
照那寂心房
translation:
title: sunset
i lift my eyes and behold the evenin sun
its like a painting i'll always regard
the sweat that came from these red hot blood
had turned into sand of the golden shores
herein lies the light of dusk
shimmer through that lonely heart
it's a translation... for those who dunno chinese... arggghhh.. the translation was realli bad though..
wEiwEi|10:12 PM
Saturday, April 11, 2009
DiE HaRd FaN
michelle says tt this songz is a sleepin songz.. hmfffff... she dunno how 2 appreciate.. this is a gdddd songz.. its sentimental.. slow.. and has nice vocals courtesy by fish leong..
anywayyy while everyone in my class and ppl out there tt i knew ar talkin abt the premier leagu.. im the onli guy tt talks abt the NBA.. in fact.. i support my fav lakers team as much as u guys supported ur fav arsenal, liverppol, chelsea and man u teams.. lolzz..
here's my evidence..
yesterdae i was at home and i closely monitored the internet play-by-play between the lakers and the nuggets game on my computer.. when the scores ar realli close i was so tense.. but i heaved a huge sigh of relief and joy when they finally won.. after which i watch the report... the videos and their plays to relieve the victory tt they had got... but i knew tt they hav another game the nxt dayyy.. and in my heart i realli hope tt they'll win..
and then i had a dream.. dream tt they were losing by a 20pt margin by halftime.. and they try 2 cut the deficit and get backkkk 2 the game.. and in the end they still lost 2 this jinx team.. urrrrgggghhhh.. it sounds horrible.. and wif tt i woke up 2 reality..
went 2 sch the nxt dayyy 4 project meetin.. and i allow the play-by-play analysis 2 flow in my com while im doin my home.... time and again i checked.. not too bad.. at least the scores were close.. they hav a chance 2 win... then suddenly.. they were losing when the game is comun 2 an end.. and they lost in the end.. urggghhh.. i tot.. how disgustin.. and i didnt even bother 2 look at the reports and videos..
but anyways.. they were the top in the western conference.. i cant wait 4 the playoffs 2 come!!
wEiwEi|2:25 PM
Friday, April 10, 2009
aNd aNoThEr PaSsEd..
and if i go on like this.. i'll prob see myself bloggin once a wk.. jus like my army days..
i hope not.. anyway... life jus cant go on like this..
i hav been thinkin harddd abt my life 4 the last few daes.. which wan should i commit myself more?? the church or work?? and i realize i knew the answer.. the main thing is.. i cant forsee myself as a cell grp leader.. prob not one in the near futue.. becoz im more interested in buildin relationships and befriendin wif ordinary ppl rather than church affairs.. often durin conversations.. i'll b proned 2 hear abt ppl talkin abt the ppl out there rather than the ppl in church.. i'll b more interested in events tt happen in the marketplace rather than the events tt ar happenin in the church..
perhaps a connect grp leader or a ministry member will i reach at the most.. there's no doubt im able 2 provide discipleship and counselling.. but i hav doubts over the ability to reach a targetted goal.. take 4 example.. a cg wanted a large amount of ppl by the end of june.. rite now the attendance did not even reach half tt amount.. if i were the cgl.. i'll surely harbor the intention 2 step down..
for many yrs when bigg days arrive.. i pledged friendz but brought none.. this easter i was told tt i've got a quite alot of names here.. but i try 2 convince them not 2 believe in those numbers.. and i was told tt i jus do wat i can.. and these few daes im so horrified of myself.. i jus couldnt open my mouth and ask.. i could onli set goals tt i hav complete control or at least 50% of them.. in short.. church growth is still not for me..
sometimes i wonder if im created w/o the ability to bring friendz 2 church or to evangelise to the masses.. perhaps i hav.. perhaps i hav not.. i've yet 2 discover tt within me.. but i would b utterly disappointed of myself if i happen 2 set a target so high tt i couldnt even sniff at it.. makin promises in a hyped up moment.. tt's not wEiwEi at all..
wEiwEi|11:20 PM
Sunday, April 05, 2009
tHaT WeEk-Ch HaS PaSsEd
ok.. its been 1 week since my last entry..
i was rocked on monday.. someone whom im veriii closed to msn me sayin she was angry wif me and hated me 4 not bein able 2 fulfil my words.. i was so crushed.. but nevertheless i kept my focus on the projects tt i had 2 do.. and once i again found myself sleepin on tues mornin 3am..
after a few hrs of slp.. i rushed 2 sch 4 the proj presentation.. it all went well.. thank God 4 the plans b4 hand.. however... i knew somethin was wrong yesterdae.. went down 2 orchard and tried 2 get a gift despite of a heavy flu.. and i did not buy anythin and i sms sayin tt im sorry 2 disappoint.. and i realize tt it is not an object tt she wants.. it is my bad habit of delayin promises..
i was rather remorseful.. wed came and i rose up earli 2 go 4 prayer meetin in the mornin.. so mani things 2 pray 4.. so short the prayer meetin.. lolzz.. but it was gddd anyways.. on wed nite i knew somethin was verii wrongg.. i lost my appetite.. not onli i hav cough and flu.. but also a verii badd headache.. it would not go away.. at midnite i wasnt able 2 slp.. and i suspect i had a fever.. true enuff the temp is 39 deg.. i was so shocked tt i almost informed my parents tt im goin 2 the hospital.. but on 2nd tots i tink tt its not wise 2 wake up my parents at 4am in the mornin and try 2 settle myself.. i took a few panadols and a cold bath.. and the temp dropped drastically..
the nxt mornin.. there wsnt any sign of fever.. thank God.. went 2 the polyclinic.. it was thurs already.. doctor did not tink tt it was dengue... but she advised me 2 go 4 blood test aniwaes.. i told her i see how.. then i took some med and most imptly.. a day of MC.. lolzz.. and slowly but surely.. i recovered bit by bit... tt antibiotics is realli damn stronggg..
it can exaggerate my hunger by makin my stomach growl where the body onli needs the portion of a small size of noodles.. as such.. i always end up eatin more than i could.. on fri went backk 2 sch and we got backk our proj results... woohoooo!! ROM presentation was an A!!!! there were onli 2 grps who achieved it in class.. praise God!!! and our MICE mgt result was a B.. not too badd..
esp when we copied and paste most of our content and most parts we ar not quite sure wat he wans.. lolzz..
and the weekends came and now they ar gone... whew.. wat an adventure ahhh~~
wEiwEi|10:47 PM
