so my dad sat me down 2dae durin lunch time and sae, "well.. ur attachment is ending this wk.. so after u go back 2 sch??"

"yes" i replied..

"so after tt u will graduate... and next u will go into the army.. for 2 yrs.. so when u come out do u wan 2 go 2 university??"

i did not reply him.. but instead i fed myself with another slice of fish...

"hmm.. so it all depends ehh?? when u get gd results u will go into uni.. is it??"

"erm.. well.." i shrugged.. and i fed myself again wif another slice of fish..

i rem some time back i tok 2 another sis in Christ and she told me tt after she graduate she hoped to go to singapore poly to take up the music diploma courses.. when i was on the way i tot to myself, it is a gd idea 4 her 2 hav a desire 2 get into the course.. but on the other hand she mus believe and hav the vision tt she will make it 2 the course itself..

and i'll preach to my sons and grandsons likewise 2 help them fulfil their visions and dreams.. but here i am.. bein offered by a gd idea and yet i jus let it passed my mind..

we ar jus bein too caught up in our everydae lives.. everyday when i tink.. i tink of wat should i do 4 the dae.. wat's goin 2 happen 2dae.. wat will i do tomolo.. the nxt few wks and so on.. everydae when i pray.. i onli had visions and thoughts tt is placed within me for the few daes.. nxt few weeks.. oiverall.. there ar no dreams and visions of wat should i do 4 the nxt few yrs.. nxt 20 yrs or even 30 yrs.. life jus go by wif me.. sometimes the visions ar jus empty in my mind.. i dunno where 2 go and where 2 start..

i rem some time back ago i kept dreamin and visualising of myslef bein a dynamic guy making impacts and changing lives in the world.. but so mani things had happened and i dunno wat would happen 2 me for the nxt few daes or wks.. im jus like a person livin in my yrs of war and captivity when i do not noe wat would happen tomolo in my life..




so finally after 3 consecutive daes of pouring from heaven (literally).. im finally able 2 play bball on a dry solid ground with a clear weather up the sky.. and when i reach the court.. im confident tt im able 2 shoot well like usual.. indeed the confidence tt was in me realli helps me alot in my shootin.. it seems ages since i get back 2 the bball court.. let alone playin matches..

and soon enuff i get 2 take on some of the younger players.. and an older senior.. i teamed up wif the older guy initially and the game started fast and furious wif the opponents kept knockin shots down.. i held my peace knowin tt somehow im able 2 grab a rebound from a miss.. so finally i hav waited.. and the opponent had already knocked down quite a few pts.. i played real hard as i slashed into the basket.. taking gd looks and confident shots and knock then down.. soon the 2 young men can't seem 2 find a way 2 stop me.. so in the end after we played for 11 baskets.. we switched team and we balanced our strength..

the game restarted again and the opponents kept knockin down shots.. i waited as usual for my turn.. and when i got it i slashed my way in as usual but this time i mus do my spectaculars.. despite my spectculars.. we still lost becoz we didn't defend well and my team mate did not step up 2 help me.. oh well aniwae it's jus a game.. aniwae i knew how kobe bryant felt when LA lakers keep losing again this season.. kobe's one man show isn't enuff 2 lift the team up.. the team mus b able 2 work as hard as he is in order 2 b consistent in winnin games..

aniwae i mus giv credit 2 my shoes.. the friction was so gd tt when i slashed into the basket i can avoid myself bein caught travelling as i can jus suddenly brake and turn ard 4 an easy bucket.. and also realli thank God 4 this great talent tt He gave me.. amen




i realized yesterdae tt i actualli 4gotten my friendz bdae.. she was one of my closest friendz in sch.. and durin work i tok 2 her on msn.. and she sae she had her bdae celebration the day b4.. and blamed me for not wishing her "happy bdae" and as a result.. she labelled me as "heartless"

well i dun miss ppl's bdae now and then.. but i missed hers.. well wat can i sae.. she's all out rightly 2 point the fault on my forgetfulness.. i knew it would b rather useless 2 giv excuses and explain my situation and environment rite now.. coz when u realli 4get all abt it means tt u ar not even aware of it and u ar jus unfaithful in those little things..

i rem last yr when i was a young christian.. i 4get this and 4get tt.. almost 4gettin everythin tt i should do.. i tried 2 explain it's becoz of tt circumstance and it's becoz of tt reason.. but somehow my cgl and my other cg members simply disagreed.. they jus spoke flatly 2 me, "u ar unfaithful.."

even until now.. i tend 2 4get this and tt.. these and those.. daryl told me tt i should get an organiser so tt i could noe wat's my stuff for the dae so tt i do not hav 2 rely on my brain now and then.. however.. i dun hav the habit of keeping an organiser and bring it everywhere..

so it realli boils down 2 being organised in all ur stuff.. sometimes i felt tt it could b real troublesome.. but i'll rather focus on the few things rather than overseeing many things and overlooking most of them.. well aniwae i'll make a decision.. to b organised in my stuff.. wat's supposed 2 b this way will not go tt way and wat's tt way will not go this way..

speaking abt heartless.. i may hav 2 forego my grandma's bdae this sat.. wat would the relatives tink of me?? but i had no choice coz i hav 2 work till 9pm.. i noe my relatives could b understandin and forgiv my absence.. but it seems tt i hav 2 speak 2 myself 2 b able 2 forgiv myself of this..




everydae when im out.. i always carry my mp3 player.. even though is a short dist 2 work or even jus a trip 2 compass pt i would always bring it on and listen.. everydae on the MRT or bus u would see me jus listenin 2 my songz and stare at a gaze or jus slp.. but u may ask.. y am i doin so??

first reason, im jus tired...

and when im tired.. i would jus play my songz and go 2 slp on the bus on MRT and i dunwan anyone 2 disturb me.. sometimes ppl would jus sae, "hey!!" and i would hav to open up my eyes.. smiled at tt person or wave at him and then go back 2 sleep again.. it could b verii disturbin and as a result.. not enuff slp... furthermore.. the voices of women or men can dustract my slp when they tok real loud or sharp... so by covering my ears wif music im able 2 "rest in peace"..

second reason, im bored..

when i tap my ez link card and board the train or bus.. it seems tt there is nothin else 2 do left on the bus... thank God 4 TV mobile but still the shows ar old, repititive and borin.. and furthermore it is always not functionin a 100 per cent.. so might as well listen 2 music and sit back and enjoy...

third reason, i do not wan 2 hear any nonsense from ppl's conversations..

u noe ppl could jus tok and tok without actualli realising tt ppl could actuall hear them.. sometimes they sae things tt i realli dun agree wif them and at many times i can get verii provoked by their words.. furthermore.. some of them kept holdin their idle chats tt keeps goin on and on and on and sometimes when it goes into ur ear.. u cant b too happi wif it.. so might as well shut my ear and stay clear from these conversations and listen 2 some nice music instead..

so aileen and david has always labelled me as "tt guy wif his headphones on" (coz previously when i hav my mp3 player... i would always wear my headphones and play my discman..) obviously they did not noe tt it was for a cause..




this evenin after work i happened 2 walk by jurong pt and saw the pizza hut restaurant.. now it's every now and then i walked by this restaurant recognizin onli its name.. but this time when i lifted up my eyes and i saw this restaurant in a verii diff angle..

it suddenly brought me back memories when i first came to this place.. which was more than 1 yr ago when i haven accepted Christ.. i came 2gether wif the cg and there it was.. my friendz angie goh was together wif me and wif a gd friendzz of her named qiuyan... together they talked 2 me and "entertain" me.. there is also a nice lady who was and is the cg leader and her name is esther... and at tt time angie introduced me 2 another friendz in her cg whose name is angela.. and we feasted in pizza hut.. and the cg was veriii "kind".. they kept "encouragin" me 2 eat more and eat more until im realli full..

sounds real familiar ehh?? more than 1 yr later when i went 4 makeup cg at sis helen's place they did the same 2 me when it's refreshments time.. so tt's the 1st impression u get from wEiwEi... tt he suffer from malnutrition and he needs more nutrients and carbohydrates for himself.. they should hav looked from the positive side tt i hav high metabolism rate as there is no way i can grow fat!!

but i could still rem vividly how we went there and how i fellowship wif them for the 1st few times.. there was realli a big grp.. i couldn't rem who exactly ar the members.. but i could rem i was like a hard nut 2 crack.. kept everythin 2 myself and was realli not in the mood 2 tok wif them.. but aniwae they were real nice.. and tt's wat attractin me 2 come back 4 cg again and again and finally im saved..

and in those daes.. names like evelyn, qiuxia, siew shya and huimin sounds so greek 2 me.. how times realli change nowadays.. these names kept ringin at the back of my mind.. i hav actualli shifted my life so far tt and at most times i did not look back and ask, "wat happened??"




i dod no wrong coming here.. nor it was a coincidence.. but it was God who placed me in this company and once He did tt.. He will take care of everythin...???

hmm.. sounds quite impossible.. alrite i'll better rephrase my words... it was God who placed me in this company 4 His chastening.. so tt when im in this furnace burned wif fire i could become pure gold in my character.. however He will also provide 4 me in times of trouble and...

well now tt's trouble..

big time trouble.. the manager simply told me tt regine and me better get ready 2 pay up the remaining balance of my problem.. (it was on the previous post..) is this too big of a punishment?? but wait.. in the 1st place was it my fault?? not at all.. i did not suggest customer to pay a deposit of $100.. so now im pointin the finger 2 my colleague ehhh?? i didn't wished i had to.. but things realli get out of hand..

it may get worse.. and i tink i hav 2 call up my liason officer 2 tell her abt it.. or else it would b real disastrous.. to pay up a few hundred bucks is such a heavenly figure 2 my colleagues.. let alone a student like me...

and sometimes men can disappoint u big time.. so i better pray hard.. when i came home i was reminded tt God's angels ar always there 2 protect and 2 propel any harm.. now this is a veriii big harm 2 me.. oh God... sent ur angels above 2 protect me!!

at the same time.. i pray tt my relationship wif my colleagues would not b affected.. coz when things go wrong, esp in money terms.. there is no quarter.. it's so scary.. but tt's too bad.. we live in such a broken down world tt money is always a source of "life" to our personal well being..




it was a terrible week i had been.. probably the most troublin week tt i hav in my whole life and i realli wan 2 break down.. my heart is so discouraged tt i made a promise 2 myself not 2 join the travel industries in the near future...

firstly it was my own carelessness.. i tink i 4get 2 submit my order 4 the air ticket and i hav 2 pay for an amt outstanding of $170 to the company.. i was further threatened by the accounts dept sayin tt if i delay my compensation payment they would charge me even more.. thankfully.. my senior colleague regine rang them up and reprimanded their methods... but still i paid the price for carelessness..

secondly it was a customer not payin the balance amt as she claimed tt she had actualli informed us earlier tt she wans 2 cancel the trip and postpone it 2 the nxt feb.. and in the end it aroused the operators as they demand the customer 2 pay the air tickets and the cancellation charges.. so my supervisor and 2gether wif my senior regine helped me again and they demand the customer 2 pay or else they would bring this matter 2 the authorities.. rite now i do not noe how this had worked out.. but all i can do is pray..

and my spirit is so weak.. all the time i feel like faintin.. at times i wan 2 cry out but i hav no strength.. recently i jus thought of the Father taking me home.. but God jus wouldn't even hear of it and ignored simply..

it jus seemed tt i hav 2 go on like this wounded.. jus like the famous england referee say, "if a player is havin a bad game he is subed.. if im havin a bad game i would hav 2 grit my teeth and carry on.." and yes rite now its a bad week.. bad job.. bad environment.. bad customers.. but tt's jus my job.. i still hav 2 go on..




the power of life and death lies in our tongue.. whenever we speak.. it's so powerful tt this little organ of ours can result in a person's death and life..

judges giv verdicts their tongues.. kings and quens of the olden times giv their final judgment by the words tt they sae.. yes though we dun hav such powers 2 determine a person's life and death.. wat we sae everydae 2 a person can lead 2 emotional death.. and even so we could lead 2 a person's morale death or even spiritual death..

i realized tt after bein attached 2 this company 4 so long.. the words and moods tt we usu speak changes over time.. it is not by any mighty influence or office policies or even the top mgt pressure tt affects our work.. but is the ppl tt call us up and speak 2 us, be it in a rude or unworthy manner, could lead us 2 b frustrated and angry towards the subsequent peoples.. as a result.. we as travel agents may lose our focus 2 strive 4 excellence in customer service and resulted in a service gap in our company..

u may argue as long as u ar consistent in ur character there ar no worries into handling anger and moods.. well then i guess tt u ar wrong.. we ar not born robots.. huamns like us hav moods, tempers and angers.. take away our moods and tempers and angers and we'll b robots.. but we aren't robots.. we ar flesh and blood.. if customers get angry wif us.. who do we vent our frustrations to?? i feel tt sometimes it is inconsiderate not 2 b patient and understandin 2 one another.. u criticise and criticise and criticise.. how would u feel if u ar on the person's shoes and the same situation happened 2 u??

wat would hav been if we encourage and help one another?? the results will b marvellous.. u can determine a person's hope by either sayin, "u ar useless" or "u can do it".. imagine wat would u do when ppl points 2 u sayin, "u ar useless??"

i wished i could hav blasted those critics who kept on criticisin ppl all they long while they ar jus watchin the downfall of a successful person's life.. but i noe i hav a choice 2 pursue my success and the way 2 avoid the words of the critics is 2 shut my ears upon them..

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