Monday, May 22, 2006
iS tt TrUe aBt mE??
You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.
You are totally dissatisfied with your present situation. Matters are not going right for you and you are seeking a means of escape. Your mental state of mind necessitates that you need to change your thinking patterns. Remember, if one particular modus operandi doesn't seem to work, then try something different.
Nothing seems to be going right for you and you are thwarted every way you turn. You are not at all happy with the situation but it would appear that there is very little that you can do about it at this time. Sit back and let the situation take its course, because at this time you feel that there is nothing you can do to change whatever needs to be changed.
For whatever the reason, you find it extremely difficult to sustain relationships - that is to sustain them in the manner that you would wish. You are a very gentle sort of person, full of feeling, sensitivity and susceptible to love and affection, looking and longing for a partner with whom you can enjoy 'All things bright and beautiful' - someone with whom you can seek out the more esoteric things of life. But up to now this person has only existed in your imagination. You are very choosy, appreciative, refined and extremely artistic in temperament and it is your hope to seek others who will allow you to form and express your own taste and judgement and who at the same time may assist you in your intellectual or artistic growth.
You are inclined to be too trusting and you feel that you need to be on your guard against the possibility that your endeavours and actions may be misunderstood. Too often you have been taken advantage of and you have been mentally abused. Now you are seeking a relationship which can provide peace of mind, where you can be yourself and not have the need to put on a false front.
wEiwEi|9:20 PM
Thursday, May 18, 2006
t0 aNd fR0
well 2dae in the mrt i was supposed 2 read up my book, "makin decisions God's way" but i 4got 2 bring.. so i gazed ard instead..
and as i look.. i saw ppl readin the newspapers concernin the champions league finals.. then somethin strucked me.. i actualli knew the results liaoz.. and some of the follow up interviews they hav made after the match.. i was thinkin tt these ppl actualli spent 60cents on receivin such info whereas i could get myself on the internet without much hussle 2 locate the newstand..
and at tt time i was thinkin.. mayb i could be on an advertisement for a change..
commentator: hey, there ar mani ppl readin the latest champions league results!! but hey young man, y didnt u buy the papers 2 read too??
wEiwEi: well coz i knew the results already on ESPN soccernet!! u can get the latest critics and post match interviews and timely results on espn.soccernet.com!!
comentator: woww!!
wEiwEi: (grabs the mike) ESPN soccernet.. ur timely soccer news, everydae
haha.. so after doin the surveys i went home.. needed 2 draw some cash out and i knew tt i hav 2 thrifty this week coz the wages i received aint tt much for last week.. but when i check my acc bal.. it actualli remained more than i tot!! praise the LORD.. so i drew the xtra amt out and im thinkin wat im goin 2 spend on..
but when im on the train back home.. i tot 2 myself.. is there other sources tt i could get more $$$?? then suddenly it rang me tt i hav receipts not yet claimed tt amts 2 50 bucks!!! wowww.. soon i start 2 tink wat im goin 2 do wif it.. first thing i tot is 2 pay my tithes.. then later im thinkin who 2 bless.. mayb nigel miguel and jeanine.. mayb the sec 1s in cg.. mayb keith.. or mayb.. well 4get it.. after i claim then i decide.. i'll reach a faster decision this way.. i guess..
however i try 2 discipline myself not to spend too much for 2dae and tomolo.. so tt my options can b open..
wEiwEi|10:58 PM
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
s0 DiFFeReNt
now 4 all u biz students.. if u realli wan 2 work somewhere in raffles place/ tanjong pagar area.. u might wan 2 consider this again after the followin entry..
so u tink wearin a suit and formal office attire will b the ideal job of ur life?? tink again.. yesterdae i went down 2 shenton way areas and do my surveys.. to my surprise.. things aren't as gd as i expect...
the streets and buildings were rather old.. now on 1 side of robinson rd it's new.. but on the other side of shenton way u see places tt ar not upgraded and do not realli gd.. imagine earli in the mornin u pumped urself up and geared up all ur strength 4 work.. and when u see this old debris kinda buildin u will feel sianz 1/2.. no life~~!!
now its realli quiet before and after lunch time at the streets of shenton way.. now u may say those blokes were in their office cubicles doin their work.. how borin it is!! when u wan 2 take a look at the window outside ur office it's like a deserted city.. jus imagine in a place where there were onli ppl buzzling in the city areas were lunch time and evenin time where the ppl head down 2 the MRT 2 go home.. a city wif life should b a place where ppl can b seen along the streets.. work is stress i mus agree.. but im afraid life is too stress 4 them when they ar stuck in the offices all dae long~~!! all mayb the offices ar empty after all..
and after all u see ppl wearin office suits.. educated but their finger hangs a cigarette.. hmm.. tt sums up life at shenton way..
wEiwEi|1:10 PM
Sunday, May 14, 2006
iT iS n0t
yesterdae at tuition i tot tt it would once again b refreshed and geared up in my inner being.. and it did..
i arrived late for the meetin tt they were goin 2 discuss abt the plans and the different activities of academic enrichment.. i was late 4 half an hr but i realized the meetin did not go anywhere.. so i sat down and they continued discussin.. i jus raised up 2 pts.. firstly it was the difficulty of plannin.. then they discussed and discussed and they came to an agreement.. soon after teacher edwin came and sat down 4 the meetin.. at tt time i gave another pt: the possibility of negative replies.. edwin reinforced tt greatly and the discussion came 2 a conclusion soon after.. now then i deserved a thumbs up 4 bein a problem solver.. lolzz..
durin tuition 2dae i realized actualli tt 1 of my student, steven, is an EM3 student.. i always tot tt he's an EM2.. despite his inability wat realli encourages me is his spirit of believin (tt he can do the things he is able to) so there's once he asked me, "teacher, is this an EM2 qn??"
i quickly replied, "no it isn't.. look.. all u hav 2 do is this.. this.. this.. and so when u do this qn look at it properly.. now this is the 1st step.. 2nd step.. 3rd step.."
"oic.." steven replied.. "so it's jus actualli plus this.. find this.. and get the ans lahz.."
"yes.." i replied..
who will realli take pity on them when they ar inferior to the majority in the academic system?? i noe many do.. they show compassion.. show pity.. but im diff.. i will empower and equip them 2 step out of their poverty mindset 2 go into a realm of faith and great abundance.. without faith it is impossible 2 pls God and when God is pleased.. He will show us and giv us the abundance and the provision tt we need..
well a fruitful dae of tuition?? indeed..
wEiwEi|9:47 PM
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
BuGGeRs BuGGiN mE
when i need time 2 b alone and quiet.. i realli need time 2 b alone and quiet..
and when i need 2 shut everythin from me.. i realli do need it..
this is wat the others dun understand.. and they claim tt they noe me well..
firstly.. when i sae "no" to a thing.. i realli mean it.. no matter wat u sae or wat u do to influence my decisions.. i will still stand firm on my decision.. ok it doesn't mean it tt it applies 2 everythin.. but it onli applies to preferences and free willed decisions.. let me giv u an example:
person: hey u wan 2 try this?? it's realli gd 4 ur health. it will surely help ur body 2 develop greatly..
wEiwEi: no
person: y not?? look.. it is realli nice.. i got this from uncommon places and it will surely help u....
wEiwEi: NO!!
see.. u ppl realli make me mad like this.. this is NOT an order.. it is jus a choice.. i dunwan 2 hav it!! so be it!! after all it's not ur stupid business if i dun get it.. and furthermore wat will it benefit u?? ur reputation?? fame?? wat u received is onli scoldings and piss off by me!! so u can wake up ur idea and STOP ALL THESE "HARD SELLINGS"!!!
second thing.. when i dunwan ppl 2 tok 2 me.. i realli mean it..
verii simple reason.. i dun need all ur hullabaloos and theories 2 help me unless i ask for it.. in fact i got more hullabaloos and and theories wif analysis wif a revelation.. i jus need time 2 tink abt it.. digest it and absorb it.. and when im in the process pls dun disturb it or tok 2 me coz i will jus burn ur heart down wif my breath of fire..
thank u for readin and i hope by now u will understand wEiwEi better.. i wish tt u all would not 4get wat i hav typed 2dae and go back 2 ur old ways and disturb me again..
wEiwEi|11:50 PM
Monday, May 01, 2006
tHe iR0nY
i happened 2 come across the bible study book in front of my com table in the midst of all those games.. and when i looked at it i dun mind readin it 4 a while.. now few daes later im goin 2 hav lesson 2 of the bible study.. so i jus previewed it wat was goin 2 b taught..
so i happened 2 read tt God did not use the wise verii much as they tend 2 pass by them but God chose those who ar open 2 the Holy Spirit and He will call them and sent them out for His purpose..
now it is verified in the bible.. paul says tt not mani wise were called.. not mani noble.. but God chose the foolish things of the world to put to shame to the wise.. for God's wisdom is higher than our human wisdom..
so a few daes ago i rem when i was talkin 2 my friendzz.. my friendzz sae tt i had used my human wisdom too much.. and i depended on my human wisdom to solve things..
well come to tink of it.. it was the greatest joke ever..
y do i sae so?? look.. if those of u who were wif me durin my sec sch daes.. u will realize tt im actualli the simple person who always kenna plot.. betrayed.. and teased all the time.. now thank God 4 deliverance.. but still my history had proven tt im not the wise.. nor the noble.. coz if im either of them i'll in RI or those top schs.. furthermore i'll b in JC.. and probably i will ORD by the end of the yr.. lolzz.. but aniwae im not humanly wise?? y do they sae i am??
now come 2 tink of it again.. indeed the projects tt i hav did in TP gave me realli gd grades.. at a pt of time the whole grp had 2 depend on me becoz no one knew how 2 do.. wat 2 do and where 2 start.. mayb its jus courage or faith.. not afraid of makin mistakes and also steppin out boldly into a realm of creativity..
well bring the tot further.. could there b a possibility tt im a jack of all trades.. masters of none?? well come 2 tink of it.. it seems rather true.. i will see someone who is better than me in every area of aspect tt i excelled.. so tt's it.. case closed..
now wat would God do wif a jack of all trades.. masters of none???
wEiwEi|11:04 PM
