Thursday, December 14, 2006
FaDiNg
after 3 months not bein exposed 2 the real world.. it seems tt im not operatin in the right way it was supposed 2 b..
the last time i rem myself as a nice guy.. slow 2 anger and bein patient in many things.. and bein out wif gals is like a norm.. nothin special..
suddenly there was this biggg twist..
my temper probs came back as quick as possible.. nowadays i wan everythin quick and chope chope and no nonsense and if there's delay or watsoeva.. i will screamin within my inner soul and hopefully the other party and hear it in his/her heart.. amd it seems weird goin out wif gals.. its unusual.. ehhh no wrong.. its uneasi..
but here comes the worse part..
like mani other guys do.. i find it weird tt gals hav 2 go thru emotions.. do all the silly things.. b4 they arrive the solution of their problems..
y cant they do it chop chope??
this is the part tt i refused 2 accept myself havin this kinda mentality..
coz im a person who USED TO understand their emotions.. noe wat they ar goin thru.. help them 2 oevrcome their emotions and pointin them 2 the right way..
im realli stuck in a chaotic and conflictin mindset in my life.. i seriously need 2 pray abt it.. do pray 4 me too..
wEiwEi|11:51 AM
Monday, December 11, 2006
p0sT POP eRa
it seems like a dream.. goin 2 BMT and then b4 u knew it.. u ar graduated from tekong..
everythin i did durin my tekong daes seems like a fantasy but yet true.. the ppl ard me and the things tt i do left a hauntin exp in my life..
was it true tt wat i hav been thru is real??
well i hav 2 find out when i touched my head.. the botak head..
indeed wat i hav been thru is real..
but yet everythin's so swift.. i did wat xin hong told me.. look 4ward 2 every lunch and dinner and ur dae is gone..
on some daes i dunno wat im doin.. jus literally lookin towards lunch and dinner 4 the nxt book out session..
now 4 a few more reflections.. my thinkin drastically changed.. im not tt emotional shutdown.. and also physically i hav grown..
it's confirm confirm true tt i hav been thru BMT..
and now im a man..
simply wonderful..
thank God im in singapore.. i hav no regrets bein enlisted as a soldier..
wEiwEi|1:52 PM
Sunday, December 10, 2006
tHe FiNaL DaYs iN tEk0nG
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2dae when i was abt 2 book in.. i felt a kind of sadness tt i nv feel b4..
usu when i book in i feel sad becoz im leavin my world behind and back 2 tekong.. but now i feel sad becoz im goin 2 see tekong 4 the last time..
when i reached the ferry terminal.. i saw the banners of the 7 core values.. and when i reached the tekong ferry terminal.. i saw the banner of BMT..
it will b the last time i will see these banners already.. there is no turnin back..
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tomolo is my POP.. however.. i shall not blogg wat i feel abt tekong or my BMT exp.. there mayb an entry 4 it..
quite a no of us were in holidae mood already.. same goes 2 me.. i am already lookin 4ward 2 my sentosa trip and the purchase of a new mp3 player verii verii soon..
im also in the midst of plannin my 1 week break.. most probably im goin 2 catch up wif friendz or the ladies tt i hav not seen in the last 3 months.. lolzz
well aniwae tomolo is goin 2 b an awesome dae..
wEiwEi|6:26 PM
Friday, December 08, 2006
a QuIcK EnTrY
well i hav changed then skin.. it looks quite nice.. i actualli tot of another skin tt has a army guy on it but the drawings dun seems gdd and it seems tt this is better..
ironically.. this happens 2 b a christian skin.. as i searched under the keyword "war".. i find tt actualli i realli wanted"peace" or "freedom" deep down..
ohh well aniwae.. the SAF army is realli abt "peace" and "freedom" and not "war"..
will blogg my final tekong daes tomolo.. stay tuned!!
wEiwEi|10:49 PM
Sunday, December 03, 2006
PaSsEd IPPT
its a dae 2 rejoice.. i passed my IPPT!!
things start 2 b brighter now..
but wat realli happened last nite is tt i prayed realli hard.. and i was reminded of the victory tt king jehoshophat had when he seek God 1st..
tt nite.. i put my focus on God and no one else.. even though there is IPPT.. i continue 2 trust in the LORD and lay down everythin 2 Him..
finally.. the moment came.. by the grace of God and the grace of sergeants i managed 2 pull 8 chin ups.. praise the LORD!!
and as a result.. i got a long weekend..
wEiwEi|7:39 AM
