Tuesday, November 25, 2008
iT's BaDdDdd
my weariness doesnt seemed 2 go away.. yesterdae i failed the test 2 slp b4 2359.. i woke up drastically devastated and reached office at 10am..
i almost protested 2 myself tt i did not wan 2 go 2 work 2dae.. after slping at abt 1am last nite.. i knew i was onli 60% mentally and physically rite and also down wif flu.. this make me onli abt 50% rite.. y cant i b 90% or even 100% rite?? i realli dunwan 2 operate at a sub-par lvl.. it makes me so inferior and so out of place.. those "ravenous beasts" wil try 2 hunt down this "wounded tiger" emotionally whenever they see the chance 2 do so..
at work i felt so un-focus.. for a moment i tot tt i hav lost myself.. i hav lost my soul.. nothin seems rite but i seemed 2 b doin rite.. and at the end of the dae i felt so overwhelmed wif my emotions and all.. i started 2 quarrel and argue.. and i hav been doin so frequently these daes..
i nv felt so low b4 after getting involved in the argument.. usu i would jus brood and 4get abt it.. but i jus felt tt im in total despair... wat could i hav done?? wat should i do? wats nxt??
yet deep down there's a small whisper from God tellin me tt this is jus the beginning of a greater me.. i noe i cant do this by myself.. i need Him.. becoz there's always a stronger force of opposition tt is 2 come when there is somethin great tt is happenin underway..
and jus now while i was bloggin halfway a couple of bees enter my room and i hav 2 break some glass b4 i can torment the bees and separate its corpse..
well lets look 2 tomolo.. 2dae's gone..
wEiwEi|11:08 PM
