Sunday, July 27, 2008
GoIn BaCk t0 a CiViLiAn
1st thing tt i did 4 my civilian conversion course - get back 2 my tuition ministry..
i wanted 2 do so mani things.. apply 4 a job.. a uni.. perhaps gettin my driving license and etc etc.. but i felt tt the 1st thing i had 2 do is get back 2 the work of God.. get my balance back.. i've been so into army and i felt tt these 1mth b4 i ORD could get me back on track 2 teachin the kids once again.. seein them nurturin and growin in knowledge is the best way 2 make me feel accomplished as a teacher and a person.. and b4 i ORD i wan 2 get back 2 the track on focusin on the children's education again..
and i jus felt within my mind.. tt there is a shift of a realm.. wat happened 2 me previously was perhaps like a dream.. an exp... its like a fantasy reality.. it realli had happened 2 me.. after all tt i had been thru these 1 yr 10 mths.. finally will come 2 an end in abt 5 wks time.. finally there's the light at the end of the tunnel..
did i realli did this?? becomin a full fledged medic spec?? did i realli get a silver 4 IPPT?? hav i realli pass my SOC?? how did i managed 2 go thru so much sufferin and in the end im still standin??
i believe all these qns had onli a 1 word ans: GOD.. hav it not been Him.. i do not noe where i am 2dae.. i cant believe i went thru all these and yet.. im still pretti ok wif the route i had.. it was diff.. it was impossible.. but it seems tt i made it..
durin fellowship this wk i actualli had the mindset of a civilian.. im actualli able 2 tok like gentleman instead of the rugged sergeant i noe best.. lolzz.. the best times will come.. and it will eventually arrive when SEPTEMBER starts.. hahahahah..
im bookin in later already.. i feel blue as usual.. but there's somethin within me tt's so diff.. instead of thinkin, "how long will this goin 2 last??" i keep tellin myself, "it's gonna b over!! its gonna b over!! endure!! endure!!" its like seein the end pt at the end of a longgg route march.. or enterin into the enemies terrain ready 4 a last battle..
wEiwEi|6:50 PM
