Sunday, July 13, 2008
GeTTiN BaCk tHeRe
so after ops basicnet i tried 2 resume 2 normal lifestyle: work from mon-fri.. enjoy from sat-sun..
and i realized it isn't as easi as b4..
im quite amazed how the surroundings had changed ard me.. there were korean friends who were joinin us.. some of the gals and the guys got a new look.. euquin had graduated.. keng moh joined usher.. michael brought friendz.. melvin was trasferred 2 our connect grp.. and the list jus goes on.. in short.. ppl ar actualli moving on..
i actualli still remained as where i was.. same old me.. doin the same thing everydae.. yes although we ar preparin for our 4NTM mobilisation and movin onto the nxt phrase on our unit life i jus felt tt its onli within the camp tt had changed.. wats outside at the fences of the camp had actualli changed quite abit.. and its gonna affect me.. esp when im goin 2 ORD in 2 mths time..
perhaps its my "life clock" has stopped.. durin ops basicnet work was mundane and i jus go thru the motions everydae.. jus 2 live dae by dae.. i didnt live wif purpose and passion 4 the past 1 mh.. and as a result i fall way behind..
i tried 2 gain back my passion and purpose.. and now im still trailin way way back.. i could feel tt i huff and puff wif my spirit and soul tryin 2 catch up.. but some things jus couldn't b done in a short while.. and nxt wk the weekend is burn due 2 urban ops trainin..
then i felt like givin up the chase.. but its so stupid coz its jus less than 2 mths to ORD.. im so caught in the middle.. and when im stuck i started 2 worry abt things.. abt my future.. my uni studies.. findin a job and so on.. and also frustrated abt this weekend coz its burnt becoz of the urban ops trainin..
and i officially declare tt im goin thru a hard time rite now..
perhaps my present situation is like the bball game i played few daes ago.. my opponents were fit and strong and it took me a 3pt shot and a few acrobatic layups 2 get the game goin and win them and at the end of it feelin tired and breathless.. therefore it'll probably require my willpower and the Holy Spirit 2 overcome this.. and at the end of the dae knowin tt i got thru this its becoz of Him..
wEiwEi|8:12 PM
