Monday, October 29, 2007
wEekeNd RoLLeR c0aStEr
the last 2 daes were realli bumpy.. gd things and bad things whacked my life on these 2 daes.. and its kinda.. overwhelmin..
on sat i actualli went 2 church ALONE.. damn pathetic sia.. its the 1st time out of my entire christian life i sat ALONE wif other ppl in a service.. the tots of gettin spotted from my church friendz is like relatively high.. so i sat near the exit area and after service i left in a rush..
true enuff i met one.. but its joseph.. my BMT platoon mate.. man im realli proud of him.. initially he came from another church servin in his youth ministry.. but as he is in the army rite now he could not find time attendin church and as such i invited him 2 CHC.. after a while due 2 the intense trainin prog in the army he did not attend svc when i invited him.. but tt dae i saw him i was realli shocked.. he told me tt he is in a cg now and the cg uses his hse 4 meetings.. amazin!! we talk along the way at the MRT and i thank God tt he finally found a home in CHC.. he told me tt he's still tryin 2 integrate in the cg but i believe he can wif all my heart..
tt nite i booked in late and OC was disappointed wif my lateness.. 2 b honest.. i wasn't quite sure of the time 2 report back 2 camp and tt's y im late.. but on the other hand i rem sgt goh sae tt OC is a guy who demanded his commanders 2 take more initiative 2 do things and not hav a laid back attitude towards matters..
now 2 make things worse.. i received more bad news from my friendz.. after a lengthy conversation over the phone i knew tt i could not slp well again.. and it tallied 2 a total of 4 nites where i couldn't hav a gddd sleep 4 myself..
the nxt dae where i was out wif the coy.. i cried out 2 God.. so mani weekends burned.. so mani things happened.. and by lookin at our trainin schedule it had a gloomy outlook coz it involves on mani weekends.. i couldn't find my route 2 take.. it seems tt my options were covered by a dark cloud where im stuck in nowhere..
i rem the sermon.. if onli i can see it.. believe it.. confess it.. and i'll hav it.. i begin 2 stand in faith 4 the things tt's abt 2 come.. God gave me a vision on the situation i had outside.. tt dae is the dae i felt close 2 God again.. despite the trainin tt was ongoin ard me..
this mornin i woke up and felt a bit better in my mind.. i saw erika's blogg which says, "ur mercies ar new every mornin.." this is perhaps God's promise 2 us everydae.. reached home at 9am and went 2 slp after tt.. after sleepin for abt 5 hrs my body felt restored.. felt tt it was a morale boost 4 the challenges tt were ahead.. at least this time i had a strong mindset 2 fight once again..
wEiwEi|3:34 PM
