Tuesday, July 03, 2007
n0 m0rE
how i wished tt im some up great artist.. all some anime or comic artist.. so tt i could draw myself of who i am..
times had indeed changed.. i hav grown wiser.. hav a bit more knowledge and im a person holdin a small amt of authority.. also i hav become a person who had 2 take more responsibility of my own life and my own well bein..
before i officially became an adult.. i used 2 dye my hair.. visit terence hairdressin salon every other mth for a unique and fashionable haircut.. everytime i try 2 look gd and diff so tt the ppl will always receive tt surprise element i hav in my looks.. but nowadays weird hairdos and popular haircuts ar out of the qn..
the worse part was presentin myself.. now wearin those clothes of yesterdae doesn't seemed 2 help anymore.. i looked at wat i wear.. nothin changed much.. but when i look at the person who's wearin it.. it seems tt the countenance isn't there anymore..
and when i mingle ard wif ppl.. its a total disaster.. wats previously in my mind is knowledge of the diff jobs and occupations tt ppl do where i could simply click wif them and hav a meaningful conversation.. nowadays wats in my mind is the knowledge of war, army lifestyles and in-camp jokes and life saving skills.. apparently it doesn't click when it comes to chattin wif gals.. adults and ORDed personnels..
nowadays i will attempt 2 "siam" fellowship becoz i will b totally out of place and out of touch.. i tried but it seems tt i could onli do so much due 2 the brain where it's filled wif military stuff.. tt's y i would rather choose 2 do my duties on sun so tt i could skip fellowship..
but how mani sunday duties do i hav?? how long can i do tt??
tt's y somehow im inspired 2 draw myself.. 2 wat i might hav been.. (not my own portrait lahz.. coz i hav pics of my prev self mahz..)
wEiwEi|9:58 PM
