Wednesday, April 04, 2007
rEaLiTy
another relaxed dae has jus passed.. i had learned quite a fair bit 2dae wif all the drugs and stuff..
after tt i went home and watched mr bean holidae on my com.. not a verii gd movie but i still watched it till the end..
and after the movie.. my mind was like in a blank.. the movie has a gdd endin but the endin was like a fantasy.. after the movie its all back 2 reality.. and reality is disappointin..
i told chee lun this afternoon tt how i wish everydae's like tt.. and time would jus stop jus 4 us 2 enjoy.. he said, "well.. i wouldn't wan tt.. tt means i'll nv get my salary.."
face it wEiwEi.. im too in my own world.. the real thing is now and the future..
in the back of my mind i could hear myself scoldin me, "y ar u like this?? get up and get on!! ar u realli a failure?? ar u realli tt lousy in life?? look at me!! u ar gd!! u can do it!! u wan 2 giv up like this?? ar u realli tt sure?? how can u gi up now?? i tell u.. dun giv up now!!" wif tt.. i could feel the inner part of me grabbin my soul and confronted face 2 face..
or perhaps i jus refused 2 get the 1001th time..
but i believe God would make things better.. at least i noe tt whenever i feel like givin up.. there's always somethin worth pressin on..
wEiwEi|8:31 PM
