Wednesday, April 11, 2007
mY 0wN w0RLd
as mani of u hav known.. i would sometimes b lost in my own world thinkin of stuffs tt makes me feel detached from reality.. it used 2 b a gdd retreat 4 my mind.. but recently.. i fould tt im so scared bein lost in my own world becoz wat i develop in my tots ar negative emotions..
its true tt i do develop negative emotions when im lost in my own world previously.. but as those negative emotions seep in.. its still within my control as i recognized them and yet they ar stuffs tt i believe i can overcome..
but recently.. the negative emotions overpowered me.. at times mayb i would feel realli realli sadd.. at times helpless.. as i tried not 2 tink.. it kept on comin back 2 me.. at times when im alone.. it would b worse.. some nites i scared of sleepin..
and sleepin is like a terrible thing 2 me..
i always wake up from my own world wif a hostile and regimental voice or sound.. it somewhat cuts thru the beautiful part of my hope and banishin my tots back 2 reality.. and when tt happens i noe the nxt thing is time 2 get out of bed.. at most daes i would still b in a daze didn't noe wat's goin on..
it makes me rather afraid 2 tink wat will happen nxt.. i jus take 1 step at a time everydae.. so far everythin goes well.. wat's nxt?? i DUNWAN 2 noe.. nv even tink abt it..
wEiwEi|1:20 AM
