Sunday, November 05, 2006
tHe ArMy DiArY - MeN aNd LeAdErS
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daryl called.. told me tt i got into deep trouble because i supposedly say, "God says tt we ar supposed 2 b 2gether" to a gal.. what nonsense!! i was so upset by this statement tt i could a crush a table 2 pieces.. it is absolutely wrong 2 sae tt.. i noe deep down it is veriii wrong from my memory of the bible study..
rite now ALL HELL BROKE LOOSE.. from now on.. i shall not tok 2 her and will perhaps (or rather 90% confirm) block her from my contact list in MSN.. since it is our main channel of communication..
i really could not get over the anger.. jus now i jus ran about 10 plus rounds in 30min.. i am still not feelin gddd..
i feel like shoutin out crazily.. or perhaps jus blast out at someone 2 let out my anger.. it's a verii bitter pill 2 swallow..
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tt's it.. tt's the end of the last thing i tot i could hold on.. rite now i realli need 2 focus on my SIT test and hopefully i can become an officer..
actualli bein a gdd soldier is quite tough yet attainable.. ttt's becoz i noe nothin abt the army yet if u show tt u ar willin 2 work hard.. ur reward is there.. the qn is: how hard is hard?? there is no standard benchmark of merit in the SAF as most of the time is the way we present ourselves 2 our fellow mates and our superiors..
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the 1st dae outside the field had jus gone.. 2 b honest.. 12km road march is nothinwhen ur field pack is much lighter than the last time and u noe tt God's strength is wif u.. after tt.. the dae is quite ok actualli..
when i reach the field site i found tt i actualli forgot 2 SMS teh bdae msgs 2 alan.. in my heart i was thinkin.. "ohh no.. i 4got again.. this time is her again.."
then i start 2 tink of her again.. perhaps i would realli make an effort and buy her a card and send her bdae greetings.. 2dae is my 2 gdd friendzz bdae.. heng yang and peter.. how i wish i hav a phone.. wishin them happi bdae..
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2dae book out liaoz.. well the 3 dae 2 nite SIT test has been ok.. i felt jus alrite.. hopefully can become officer lor.. and the time i book out 1930.. i'll b seein my mates again in 24 hrs time..
wEiwEi|7:12 AM
