Thursday, August 31, 2006
0n tHe r0aD
for the past few daes not been bloggin.. ohh btw i changed the skin.. i dun wanna play punk actualli.. but then graffiti is a way of life.. and its the onli kinda art tt i can appreciate.. lolzz..
actualli for the past few daes i composed a chi poem myself everydae.. deep down in the heart its so cold and blue.. it felt like an agent freezin all the events and thoughts tt i possess within me..
and wat i realli wan 2 do is 2 break all these frozen items apart and start everythin again..
sometimes i jus wish tt im not exactly wat i am.. time and again i told myself tt i chose the road and there's no turnin back.. time and again i wan 2 run 2 my future but i kept fallin down.. i fell so mani times tt i hav been cryin.. bleedin.. and i kept on goin.. but the more i press on the more i bled.. i cried.. and most times i moved by my will power and courage 2 go on..
time and again i was told 2 look back but i didnt.. i onli stood there.. bleedin.. cryin.. and God was there.. but there aint no "miracles" tt realli happen 2 me.. all i knew was the moment i decide 2 stop cryin i tried 2 walk.. and eventually run again.. and then i fall.. sometimes the way i fall open old wounds..
i tried 2 die.. probably tt would b the best way.. and suicidal tots comes from repeated negative responses and outcomes in ur big brain.. wat's the pt of walkin so farr and then suddenly an angel came by u and sae, "chope!! wrong way dude.." and u find urself hearin the same msg again and again when u chose a path..
i am so discontent.. i seriously wan more.. more than this life..
wEiwEi|9:18 PM
