Friday, April 28, 2006
DrEaM 0vEr??
u noe the prev time.. i actualli typed in my bloggg tt i dun like those who change the course of their dreams sayin tt they wan 2 b this and suddenly some time down the road.. they actualli wan 2 b tt..
how i actualli stuck tt gun up my butt.. the word is actualli on me...
a mth ago when i went 4 my haircut.. my hairdresser actualli asked me where i wan 2 go after i completed NS.. i answered, "well mayb this is my plan A.. but if it fails i may go 4 plan B.." upon hearin tt he gave advice and told me 2 go 4 plan B instead..
when i heard tt.. i was not influenced by his words in my decisions.. but somehow later i began 2 tink otherwise..
mesmerized by fav idol zhuge liang from the book romance of the three kingdoms.. i began 2 act like him.. tink like him and even devised plans like him.. soon i felt tt i became so much like him tt watever i tink or talked abt.. it is almost as equal as him..
i realli felt tt i wan 2 b a CEO or the top management of an MNC.. if not a SME tt excels.. 2 b plannin for the best and success soon became my ultimate goal for life.. soon later i almost 4get tt i wan 2 b wat i wan earlier on..
then when i was chattin wif 1 of my friendzz.. i told him tt i actualli wat 2 b this and how i do it.. then he suddenly turned 2 me and sae, "ehh?? i tot u wan 2 b tt earlier on??"
immediately i kept my quiet.. realizin tt i actualli stabbed myself when i bloggg an entry abt dreams somewhat earlier on..
but izzit a God given dream?? i do not noe.. but when i noe when im walkin rite wif God i keep on dreamin 2 b this somebody until recently i hav second thoughts when i hav not been sensitive 2 the Holy Spirit.. now come 2 tink of it.. the earlier dream doesn't rekindle the passion in life i had previously.. i pray tt it will come back 2 me once again as God show me His way 4 my purpose in His kingdom..
wEiwEi|11:30 PM
