Thursday, November 24, 2005
HeArTLeSs
i realized yesterdae tt i actualli 4gotten my friendz bdae.. she was one of my closest friendz in sch.. and durin work i tok 2 her on msn.. and she sae she had her bdae celebration the day b4.. and blamed me for not wishing her "happy bdae" and as a result.. she labelled me as "heartless"
well i dun miss ppl's bdae now and then.. but i missed hers.. well wat can i sae.. she's all out rightly 2 point the fault on my forgetfulness.. i knew it would b rather useless 2 giv excuses and explain my situation and environment rite now.. coz when u realli 4get all abt it means tt u ar not even aware of it and u ar jus unfaithful in those little things..
i rem last yr when i was a young christian.. i 4get this and 4get tt.. almost 4gettin everythin tt i should do.. i tried 2 explain it's becoz of tt circumstance and it's becoz of tt reason.. but somehow my cgl and my other cg members simply disagreed.. they jus spoke flatly 2 me, "u ar unfaithful.."
even until now.. i tend 2 4get this and tt.. these and those.. daryl told me tt i should get an organiser so tt i could noe wat's my stuff for the dae so tt i do not hav 2 rely on my brain now and then.. however.. i dun hav the habit of keeping an organiser and bring it everywhere..
so it realli boils down 2 being organised in all ur stuff.. sometimes i felt tt it could b real troublesome.. but i'll rather focus on the few things rather than overseeing many things and overlooking most of them.. well aniwae i'll make a decision.. to b organised in my stuff.. wat's supposed 2 b this way will not go tt way and wat's tt way will not go this way..
speaking abt heartless.. i may hav 2 forego my grandma's bdae this sat.. wat would the relatives tink of me?? but i had no choice coz i hav 2 work till 9pm.. i noe my relatives could b understandin and forgiv my absence.. but it seems tt i hav 2 speak 2 myself 2 b able 2 forgiv myself of this..
wEiwEi|12:06 AM
