Monday, November 28, 2005
DiReCtIoNs
so my dad sat me down 2dae durin lunch time and sae, "well.. ur attachment is ending this wk.. so after u go back 2 sch??"
"yes" i replied..
"so after tt u will graduate... and next u will go into the army.. for 2 yrs.. so when u come out do u wan 2 go 2 university??"
i did not reply him.. but instead i fed myself with another slice of fish...
"hmm.. so it all depends ehh?? when u get gd results u will go into uni.. is it??"
"erm.. well.." i shrugged.. and i fed myself again wif another slice of fish..
i rem some time back i tok 2 another sis in Christ and she told me tt after she graduate she hoped to go to singapore poly to take up the music diploma courses.. when i was on the way i tot to myself, it is a gd idea 4 her 2 hav a desire 2 get into the course.. but on the other hand she mus believe and hav the vision tt she will make it 2 the course itself..
and i'll preach to my sons and grandsons likewise 2 help them fulfil their visions and dreams.. but here i am.. bein offered by a gd idea and yet i jus let it passed my mind..
we ar jus bein too caught up in our everydae lives.. everyday when i tink.. i tink of wat should i do 4 the dae.. wat's goin 2 happen 2dae.. wat will i do tomolo.. the nxt few wks and so on.. everydae when i pray.. i onli had visions and thoughts tt is placed within me for the few daes.. nxt few weeks.. oiverall.. there ar no dreams and visions of wat should i do 4 the nxt few yrs.. nxt 20 yrs or even 30 yrs.. life jus go by wif me.. sometimes the visions ar jus empty in my mind.. i dunno where 2 go and where 2 start..
i rem some time back ago i kept dreamin and visualising of myslef bein a dynamic guy making impacts and changing lives in the world.. but so mani things had happened and i dunno wat would happen 2 me for the nxt few daes or wks.. im jus like a person livin in my yrs of war and captivity when i do not noe wat would happen tomolo in my life..
wEiwEi|11:46 PM
