Sunday, October 02, 2005
tHe h0rIz0nTaL LiNe
i told daryl tt i will miss fellowship as the horizontal line of the cross is wat i am lackin.. he assured me tt im gonna b alrite.. well he had certainly missed something..
if i am not wrong.. most of the cg members 2dae were happily fellowshippin and enjoyin themselves w/o askin, "where is wEiwEi??" well the bible sae to realli sow into someone's life.. we mus plant the seed.. water it consistently and God gave the increase..
now in the 3 parts.. which part actualli failed me??
izzit God did not giv the increase?? well God promises ar yes and amen.. surely it cant b God.. did i not plant the seed into their lives.. well i made the best i know how durin fellowship.. but i believed tt it was a shadow of inconsistency tt let me down.. on one dae i could b so jovial and talkin 2 u and expressin the best i know how and nxt thing u noe me i hardly talk when we were hanging out.. my soul is jus like a divided whole between the darkness and light.. indeed the relationship will die and live inconsistently.. jus like the soul is..
the attachment would realli b a tough 12 wks.. not physically but mentally.. jus the tot of burnin ur weekends make u feel uneasy.. u will not see the cg.. u will go 4 make up services.. u can even hardly meet up wif them durin bible studies.. and its almost impossible 2 fellowship wif long hrs of work tt u ar required 2 commit...
and wat will happen after the 12 wks?? i seriously do not noe.. but im sure tt the cg looks at me in a diff perspective and vice versa.. by tt time tt would mean it's time 4 a change.. the cg would prosper and multiply or members' life has been consistently updated tt i lose the edge of fellowshippin wif them.. things could even get worse when im bein transferred.. but anyways.. it would altogether b so different..
my journey of faith is indeed alone and myself.. yes though i've got Jesus.. but my legs and hands were the ones who carried me throughout this race of faith.. not the others..
wEiwEi|12:50 AM
