Life's Like This... in Luzern

Saturday, September 24, 2005
i LiVeD.. i DiEd.. i r0sE aGaIn wIf JeSuS

onli 5 hrs of slp previous nite i woke up earli on fri mornin for army checkup 2gether wif zhen cong.. but somethin disastrous happened there..

after 2 blood tests results.. they couldn't verify me and my freindzz ar hav a blood deficiency.. so they decided 2 giv a bigger shot on us.. they used a syringe and took some of our blood.. but after they did.. i feel so nauseated and i vommitted.. then the officers came ard and help me 2 the restin bed.. so after i rested a while.. i felt a little better and went on 4 other stations 2 proceed wif my checkup.. but they told us 2 strip 2 our shorts later on.. and 2gether wif other guys we were bare chested.. but im there shiverin and feelin extremely cold.. finally after the mani tests in tt station everythin is over.. and i literally shivered out 2 the canteen and had a hot milo.. then i headed towards the bus stop 2 rush 4 work..

but when i reached the bus stop.. i realized tt i was so dizzy and nauseous tt i could hardly work.. so i decided 2 take MC and take a cab back 2 sengkang polyclinic.. at the polyclinic.. i felt so miserable.. i feel like im between death and life.. anytime my world would go black and tt's it.. i would not able 2 see anythin.. i kept cryin out 4 God in my heart.. and when it's my turn the doc argued wif me tt im scared of blood and tt's y i had this effect.. but nevertheless she prescribe me wif medicine and gave me MC and assured me im goin 2 b alrite.. so after tt i went home.. took the medicine and blackout on my bed..

until my mum came home and realized tt i was sick then i woke up.. i feel much much better though.. but still havin a little headache and was hungry... so she cooked porridge 4 me 2 eat and i felt a little better.. and then went back 2 slp again..

this mornin i feel so revitalized once more.. hurrah!! praise the LORD!! i live 2 fight another dae..

wEiwEi|9:26 AM

Thursday, September 22, 2005
i HaD 0vErCaMe tHiS..

the day had arrived when i finally attached to a company 4 internship.. 4 those of u who still dunno where i am.. i am at five stars tours travel agency.. and when i first heard of my schedules of the job and all tt stuff.. i had already prepared my heart fully..

firstly, my liason officer told me tt im expected 2 commit on my weekends for this job.. and im so depressed at first.. so i decided 2 seek help from sis esther and daryl.. so i called them up and told them my problems.. esther told me not 2 worry.. as she encouraged me 2 fast and pray 4 favor tt God would open up doors 4 me 2 b released on 1 of my weekends.. and then i called daryl.. he told me not to worry.. as previously 1 of our cg mem had also performed her internship duties on weekends and she's still quite alrite now.. so there u hav it.. 2 common statements and yet diff perspectives 2 the solution.. lolzz..

but i decided im not goin 2 sit back and see how it goes.. then God's word dawned upon me sayin, "rem the widow in the book of kings?? i did not onli use elijah 2 bless and provide 4 their household.. but i also did a miracle in their lives.. tt they may noe tt i am the God Almighty.." tt word realli strengthened my faith greatly and i kept meditatin and meditatin on the Word God had given..

so finally i stepped into the office of five stars.. and also to giv a gd impression.. i decided 2 dress formally.. but when i saw tt the others were also doin the same.. my heart sank.. but i still kept on believin.. finally in the midst of the briefin.. we were handled our working rosters and to my surprise.. i've got an alternate dae off on the weekends each week!! when i saw tt my jaw dropped.. it wasn't exactly the way i wanted.. but im totally speechless.. oh well.. better than nothin.. God had a plan 4 me tt i would not miss the fellowship of my service and cell grp.. haha i guess so..

oh well.. and so the 1st dae was quite uneventful.. i couldn't blogg my daily workin experience here.. it'll b a real long entry by then.. haha

wEiwEi|11:04 AM

Sunday, September 18, 2005
RaCiSt bL0gS

i saw the news the other dae tt 3 bloggers were arrested havin racist remarks on their blog sites.. as a result they were fined and jailed..

actualli i visited one of the bloggg sites myself and saw those entries bein posted.. they were so terrible tt it was an abuse towards the certain race itself.. theer were entries tt were also posted regardin condemnin remarks 2 my church too..

but when i read those entires.. somethin strucked my mind.. it made me tot of the person they ar in real life.. and the reason y they ar like tt is becoz of mani possible events they came in contact wif..

what could b the possible events??

(1) they were abused by the certain race when they were young
adolf hitler was badly treated by the jews and as a result they hated them so badly at a verii young age.. and when he rose into power.. he gave an order 2 kill the jews.. it was probably due 2 certain times when this certain race of ppl laughed at them, mocked them and sae somethin nasty abt them and as a result it became fiery anger and hatred..

(2) cultural tension between one another
when a person is raised in a certain environment or culture.. they may get a culture shock when they stepped into a diff environment.. as a result tt person may not agree into wat the other party is doin and the way they handle things.. one remedy 2 cure is probably thru communication where things could b analysed and solved in a diplomatic manner..

(3) the diff activities conducted by diff races
we all noe tt each race hav their own practices and their way of life.. but some activites could b the expense of the other.. and when tt occurs a conflict is inevitable.. therefore whenever we practice the way of livin we mus b sensitive 2 other races as well.. conductin activities at our own will could portray the wrong kind of msg towards the other races..

shaquille o neal once wrote in his biography sayin tt, "in my life i dun judge ppl on whether they ar black or white.. i judge them on whether they ar gd or bad.."

wEiwEi|11:00 PM

Monday, September 12, 2005
LeTTeRs t0 tHe 4 DeViCeS

to this discman i wrote:

i noe ur works.. and how lousy u ar.. becoz u ar a cheap stuff.. i forgiv u for all those track skippin u hav done.. now thank God tt my dad favours u and wans u 2 b wif him.. so u better serve him wif ur best 4 all of his daes all i'll jus sell u off 2 somebody tt may even whack u and break u up..

to this headphone i wrote:

i noe ur works.. and how effective u ar in producin music.. u gave me a great time of steppin into a noise-free surround.. but one thing u nv do well.. tt is u ar too battery consuming.. every 2-3 wks i hav 2 change u and it costs me quite alot.. therefore i tink u need a new master who is a hardcore fan of music.. at least he will take gd care of u and won't find u troublesome 2 change ur batteries all the time..

to this ear piece i wrote:

i noe ur works.. and how i hav acquainted u.. becoz u ar a complimentary package and also matches wif my zen micro.. i will use u 2gether wif it.. though ur quality of sound may not match the service tt my prev headphones produce.. u hav a better mobility.. so do not b discouraged when u serve my ears wif music..

to my zen micro i wrote:

u will b my best music device ever.. u ar so small and light as it makes me verii convenient 2 bring u everywhere.. but there ar 2 things concerning u.. firstly.. ur functions and organisation buttons ar so messy and u do not hav proper sorting of the files.. secondly.. u will not replace the love of my heart.. tt is God Himself.. u will jus b a normal mp3 player who serves me faithfully wif ur database of songs.. but do continue 2 serve me faithfully 4 ur reward is great.. but if u dun i'll trade u off for a creative zen neeon or an ipod.. lolzz..

he who has ears 2 hear.. let him hear!!

wEiwEi|11:42 AM

Wednesday, September 07, 2005
tt SIT pApEr

im supposed 2 study 4 my PCM test tomolo.. but i tink its gonna b alrite.. i'll mugg until late at nite later..

last nite it was a realli hard pressed time 4 me.. coz it was last nite then i started revisin my notes.. i studied and studied.. and up till 4.30am.. i could not take it anymore.. i ask myself, "y am i doin all these?? y i wan 2 work so hard 4 wat..aniwae.. ppl dun care if i get A or jus passed.. might as well flunk the paper!!" but i rem wat ps tan preached abt stayin on course and finishin strong in God.. and immediately i turned back and continued muggin until 6am.. slept for abt 2 hrs and rushed down 2 sch..

and when i reached sch.. i met tt low nguan kiang along the walkway.. i was like.. ohhh no.. not a gd start.. see him earli in the mornin and it was b4 the commencement of my paper!! sylvia claimed tt it is a "curse" when i saw him jus now.. but i dun realli believe in curses lahz.. aniwae i came in.. read the papers.. already confident 2 ans.. then there came in low nguan kiang again!! immediately i was so depressed 2 the max.. at tt pt i felt like cryin and wished tt he would jus disappear out of the exam room..

and he stood there wif arms folded.. lookin sternly at us and expressin his veteran tourist lecturer charisma.. i feel like puking.. and i tink its becoz of him tt i took almost 1 hr to complete my section A.. man thank God i can finish everythin in time..

i tink 4 tt paper i will lose abt 14 marks or also.. but my expectant range of marks is between A- B+.. quite a big range i mus sae.. i wasn't too expectant either.. coz i dunwan 2 meet up wif disappointment and then develop bitterness wif the veteran lecturer.. lolzz..

wEiwEi|8:19 PM

Saturday, September 03, 2005
tHe WoRd tt WaS Sp0kEn

i was supposed 2 wake up at 730 but i realized i woke up at 830.. so after quick preparations.. im ready 2 rush out of the hse 2 do and print the song sheets.. but i realized tt i dun hav my note bk.. i looked up and down 4 it but cant find.. in the end i gave up and grabbed a new note bk and rushed off..

reached sch at 1030 and started doin the song sheets.. i tot tt wat i did was realli nice and appealin.. but when the printer printed the song sheets out.. my heart sank.. it was not as gd as i expected as it was way beyond my minimum expectations.. but i realized tt i hav no time liaoz so i jus rushed off 2 church 4 tuition.. and the bus did not come quickly so i took a cab 2 lavendar and take MRT 2 church.. and there goes my $$$.. (earli in the mornin everythin seems wrong.. im realli getting frustrated at tt pt..)

so after tuition i hav 2 rush down 4 cg.. and at this time i verii tired already becoz last nite i onli slept for a few hrs.. and i tot i could not make it.. but when cg praise started i tot i was alrite.. so after the sharing of testimonies (which is written at the s25 blog) it is time 2 worship God..

its realli been a long time since i felt such wonderful presence.. and in the midst of worshippin God.. i had a vision..

i saw myself in the desert worshippin God and lookin up 2 heaven seekin God.. and God spoke, "no one is goin 2 fight wif u ur battle.. onli Me and u ar goin 2 go thru all these 2gether.." and in my heart i cried.. coz the road is lonely.. the journey is perilous.. but i believe.. everythin's gonna work out wif God..

xin hong, willy, evelyn, daryl and sis esther took turns 2 giv a word in the cg.. and the word context were mainly similar.. it mainly saes tt God is always wif us.. encouragin us.. strengthening us.. all we need is 2 worship Him.. lift up our burdens and cast our cares upon Him.. and subsequently the worship ended and sis esther began 2 preach the word abt steppin out in faith.. and after tt the sermon ended and we were told 2 pray 4 each other.. so i prayed wif keith.. after i blessed and ended my prayer wif keith.. keith then prophesied and prayed 4 me.. and when he prophesied he spoke,

"u already had the aniontin.. but God wans u 2 step out in faith this time round.. coz previously u tot u dun hav the power and grace of God.. but in actual fact u hav.. so step out in faith and speak!!"

and it was so true.. all these while i hav been deceived.. but rite now im gonna believe who God is and believe tt when i speak.. the atmosphere would always b significantly diff..

wEiwEi|11:24 PM