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s0nGs oF tHe DeCaDe PaRt 2

2010-01-20T23:52:00.004+08:00

now from the 5th..

**DRUM ROLLS**

5: He Yao Shan Sun - Ni De Jian Bang （2006）
symbol: love
歌名：何耀珊 - 你的肩膀
专辑：收获

Many singers sing about love, talk about love, complain bout love, moan about love, but they couldnt bring out the love in the song and in them.. the closest any singer could get is their personal agenda and their own relationships tt they had... and it wasnt even close in my opinion.. i would suggest that they read 1 corinthians 13 in the bible b4 singin their own love songs again.. but the songs ar jus different for sun.. who had always brought love when she sings.. though the lyrics were pretty much the same from the rest... u can feel it has a generous, unselfish kinda love that is prepared to giv everyone who is hurt and in need of it... i dunno if she sang this songz for anyone else.. be it for Ps Kong.. or mayb God.. but this songz had truely touch my heart in a realli special way..

4: Zhou Jie Lun - Ye Qu (2005)
symbol: music
歌名：周杰伦 - 夜曲
专辑：十一月的萧邦

When it comes to music.. this man has it all.. be it rock, pop, R&B, rap, emotional, happy, he could write and compose them all.. every year when he releases his album he nv fails to make it to the MTV and radio charts.. but this songz is somethin i realli appreciate from jie lun.. it has the tune of R&B and rap in it.. and it has a very soothing and sentimental mix tt created a very blue feelin... in fact.. i can always feel blue when i listen to it.. and tt's my fav color and my fav feelin.. sorry jie lun fans.. u might hav 101 reasons to say tt i hav made a wronggg choice.. but blue is my soul and he sang right to it..

(jie lun's songs ar at a shocking 4th!!! who's the top 3 then??)

**DRUM ROLLS**

3: Tank - Quan Shi Jie Dou Ting Dian (2009)
symbol: Switzerland
歌名：TANK - 全世界都停电
专辑：第三回合/爱就宅一起 OST

one of the worst event tt i had in switzerland was the struggle of dreams.. bad dreams.. most of the time i dream abt singapore... and to wake up from a dream like tt in switzerland is realli awful and terrible.. knowin tt is too gdd to be true to happen in reality at tt time.. like wat the song said, "the fragments of memories made me bleed when i dream and flip around.. (on my bed)" most of the time i am actualli adaptin well and livin well in switz... but it was those dreams in the sub conscious mind tt is painful.. furthermore.. the MTV placed a sentence tt clearly reflects on my love ones while i was in switz.. "if i could onli see u in the dark, i'll rather hav the world to cut the lights.."

2: Liang Jing Ru - Lu
symbol: life/future
歌名：梁静茹 - 路
专辑：丝路 - 通往爱情的旅途

this songz doesnt realli describe abt my life of wat i hav been thru.. but it somehow describe abt my journey and my destination... and the varous important life decisions that i hav made.. i could almost here myself in prayer when the chorus was sang as jing ru sings wif all her emotions.. its like hopin for a better future in utmost desperation.. knowin tt the person itself had gone thru on bumpy and hard times.. and furthermore choosing a road tt is yet so bumpy and rough tt it was onli promised to be gdd but the light could yet be seen at the end of the tunnel.. wat realli touched me was this line, "BUT I DO NOT REGRET CHOOSING THIS ROAD.. ur love has made me understood... the deepest feelings in life.." '

indeed... there will be hope...

and now for the no 1 song of the decade!!!

1: Slamdunk - Kirameku Tonkinni Torawarate (2001)
symbol: decade
album: slamdunk OST

wat better songz could there be when this song actualli represented my decade? certainly not any cheesy love songs or emotional ones.. but BASKETBALL has been the sport and the activity that has been revolving my decade.. started the decade learnin to play as a novice and ended the decade winnin a basketball medal.. lolzz.. amazingly.. i would not feel sick of listenin to this songz as i will always be inspired on playin a gdd game even though i dunno wat the songz actualli means.. somewhere i saw the english translation in youtube where this songz actualli is a cheesy old traditional love expression to a gal.. but who cares.. its on slamdunk.. its wif basketball.. and its still my favorite song of the decade!!

s0nGs oF tHe DeCaDe PaRt 1

2010-01-19T00:10:00.004+08:00

so many great singers has risen from this decade as mandarin pop wrote a phenomenal book of history in the last decade.. songwriters and composers came into the spotlight and versatility is the essence to thrive in this ever competitive entertainment industry.. in the midst of this stiff compeitition better than ever songs were created.. would like to take this opportunity to thank all the ppl who had taken part to create better than ever music...

here are my 10 favourite songs of the past decade... starting from number 10...

**DRUM ROLLS**

10: Candy Lo and Lee Hom - Hao Xin Fen Shou (2003)
symbol: scar
歌名：卢巧音/王力宏 - 好心分手
专辑：赏味人间

i first heard this song is when i had my first ever working experience in singapore with Hewlett Packard.. that time i jus fell out of love.. i got rejected by a gal that i was hurt and miserable so deeply.. when i heard this song.. the melody was so sadd and it kept me so emotional and depressed for some time.. a yr later when i joined city harvest.. it doesnt seemed to have the power to do that anymore.. but instead it brought back memories of where i heard it from and how did i get over it.. it will be a valuable lesson and reflection in life indeed..

9: Shinhwa - Perfect Man (2003)
symbol: inspiration
album: shinhwa's #5/专辑：MVP情人原声带

before super junior is, shinhwa was. Taiwan boyband group energy just could not make a replica of the most established boyband in korea. However, the inspiration did not come from the establishment of the boyband but the MTV of this song itself. Perfect man was shown in many angles, from a romantic lover to a successful executive to the possession of havin a nice and beautiful car. What make them to perfection is that having all these, they still could perform and hav so many (female) fans that were dying to have a piece of them. Thats what all men want rite?

8: F.I.R - San Ge Xin Yuan (2007)
symbol: cell group
歌名：F.I.R - 三个心愿
专辑：爱。歌姬

why FIR and this song that represent cell group? we should be more holy rite? not so in this case.. the reason y it symobolize the cell is becoz i picked up this songz in KTV much to the influence of the cell group, especially erika, who can actualli sing this song when she actualli memorize the lyrics.. not forgettin when F.I.R is in town they ah qing and faye always sing it to "show off" the love they had for each other.. lolzz.. in fact most of the members noes how to sing.. especially when our members ar always too busyz to listen to chinese songz all the time..

7: Xin Yue Tuan - One Night In Beijing (2002)
symbol: personality
歌名：信乐团 - ONE NIGHT IN 北京
专辑：同名专辑

my personality is like a coin.. there are always two sides (and im not implying that im a double minded person..) and i tink most ppl do.. however.. most ppl would onli show their one side of a coin.. for me... i always show 2.. becoz i wanted my friendz 2 noe who i actualli am so that they can be themselves and do not need to adapt to the inflexibilities.. the lyrics ar actualli quite sentimental as sang by the original singer of the past.. but shin made it diff where he exaggerates the voice to make it humorous but at the same time singin abt the sentimental times the couple had in beijing in the lyrics.. and that's jus me.. bringin across a message that actualli tickled the senses of the ppl..

6: Fan Wei Qi - Shi Fei Ti (2007)
symbol: relationships
歌名：范玮琪 - 是非题
专辑：哲学家

whenever i love some gal out there.. i always keep quiet.. in fact... ever since being single again in 2004 i didnt had another gal friend since.. but although i like the person i nv always seem desperate or an urge for a merge wif her.. as such... the gal i like would nv noe wat ar my true feelings for her.. the chorus below has clearly illustrated my feelings:

"we never open up the question, 'i love you' seemed so silent in the absence of courage, nobody believed that between us, we are only concerned with each other, we'll never ask the 'yes' or 'no' question, as it would give us headaches, I WILL WAIT WHEN LOVE BLOSSOMS AT THE DAWN, IT'LL SURELY BE BEAUTIFUL."

stay tuned for the 2nd part of the entry, where the top 5 songz of the decade will be revealed!!

Go0d Lo0kInG oR n0t

2009-12-07T04:02:00.002+08:00

i had a mix opinion of my looks over the past years, some say im gd lookin, some say im not... it kinda bothered me for awhile.. but after some time.. i decided tt i shall see myself as an average person..

(ohhh btw... things in november ar jus too borin.. lolzz.. no lahz.. i'll bloggg abt it some other time..)

i had quite a few occasions when im hangin out wif different grps of friendz at the same time.. and suddenly one grp of friendz pulled me over and ask me y i hanggg out wif them... they look so different and so deviant from the society.. in short... they tink tt i should hanggg ard and stick to a certain kind of demographic..

wat i felt is tt i would like to hanggg ard wif ppl who had strong characters and strong personalities.. and instead of judging on their looks.. i like to hanggg ard wif them becoz they ar nice... they ar generous.. they ar loving etc etc... these ar the ppl who has bigg characters and biggg personalities..

on the other hand.. i've seen so mani pretti faces who ar so full of themselves and full of ego.. who tinks tt they ar the best amongg the grp and no one else seems better than them except for the top models and celebrities.. dun get me wrongg.. i had a few friendz who did modelling and all tt stuff and yet they still spend time wif their own grp of friendz and ppl who they ar realli close to for all these yrs.. but there's some ppl who jus wan 2 b seen and known..

even in a small sch like IMI... there ar ppl who ar like tt.. there ar some of them who ar even touchy.. and tink tt they ar realli pretty and wanted to go for these gorgeous guys.. but when it comes to work and a test of character... everythin jus fall to the ground... to call them "bimbotic" is already a discount.. let alone to describe them in a true meanin..

for me.. i would choose to receive the compliment of "u provide realli gd service to us as an hotelier" rather than "u ar realli gd lookin..." besides.. im already immune to the "gd-lookin" comment as there is absolutely no effects of anyone sayin tt to me.. in some cases.. i would treat it as a scheme to do them a favour.. lolzz..

good looks won't last 4eva.. character will.. some ppl jus gotta learn tt when they choose their partners.. they always say love is blind.. those ppl who always judge by looks should realli hav their eyes gorged out.. man..

wHaT hApPeNeD iN OcToBeR

2009-11-27T05:05:00.002+08:00

THREE MAJOR THINGS

firstly let me announce... i am officially going to Jamaica to work as a management trainee at sandals resorts.. initially i was thinkin abt goin to China or Hong Kong or even Taiwan to do my internship... but chances were bleak as wat i heard was tt the payyy is low and the working positions are not wat i desired... furthermore... most hotels in asia ar lookin for senior mgt positions to fill up the new htls tt ar openin.. esp in china...

as such... i tot of goin backkk to find a job.. mayb as a sales assistant or some back-end hotel job.. but mani htls hav management trainee programmes offered... i hav signed up for them and they did not get backkk to me... i am so worried if i could not find a job appropriately...

then i rem the career talk programme tt was held last mth where a placement company offered to place us at the carribean for a nominal fee.. i was rather curious abt it.. phone up and rang my folks and told me to go for it.. as i enquire abt the company's services... they told me it was a cross dept management training job for 5-24 mths.. wif tt.. i decided to go ahead wif the application.. also hav consulted my church leaders and friendz and they gave the support.. wif tt.. i will be officially headin to the country earli next yr...

the second thing is my participation of the school's honors society, Eta Sigma Delta.. unlike an alumni.. the honors society networks wif highhh performing students from a similar industry sch and industries leaders and they come to meet once in a yr for a conference appointed by the overall president.. commercially... its like a union membership..

dun get me wrongggg... im jus an average student.. but im gladdd to be accepted in this society.. its my honor.. lolzz

the criteria to get into the society is tt the student mus b hav an average grade of 62 for all subjects and mus b the top 20% of the cohort for undergraduates... thank God i got 63.. lolzz.. jus nice to get in.. to put it simply.. instead of a dean's list.. its like a dean's social networking association.. except the criteria is top 20% instead of top 5%... lolzz

so the chapter head... aka my lecturer told us tt the benefit of this society is the social networking uses it has and also on graduation each of us will receive a gold honor cord and a collar pin... wowww!!! cant wait hahahahhah

the next major thing... although its not does not impact me largely... it means a little something to me... but the process we gone thru was huge though..

it was the food and beverage concept and theme our group of 11 ppl proposed for our coursework.. as our sch has a mock restaurant set up for students.. we ran the whole operation of tt mock restaurant tt nite and it was simply awesome.. i was in charge of serving one longgg table and i flopped initially by spilling some drinks.. after tt the service was ok as the operations ran smoothly thereafter..

but wat realli made a difference tt nite was this..

"zw.. u ar realli a gddd server!! u provided us gddd service!!!"

i could not 4get how they filled up the feedback form heapin praises of the service tt i offered to them as a waiter.. i had no prior service experience at any food establishments.. not even in mcdonalds.. and yet to get such complements from my friends (so-called customers..) the greenhorn is absolutely flattered..

the final part of my adventure in IMI will come in the nxt entry..

ToMoRrOw

2009-11-25T04:08:00.002+08:00

(further updates of my switz life will be on my next entry... till then.. i guess u should read this.. lolzz)

and after tomolo.. i'll not b touchin any sort of text books.. at least for some yrs or so.. when i graduated from poly... i had text books in the army for my medic course.. and even though i did not become a medic.. the time span tt i did not study was onli abt 2-3 yrs... this time... it will be longer.. dependin on the level of my work...

who noes wat will happen?? alot of things i hav been ponderin upon.. abt life.. abt the future... abt work and so on... i noe everyone thinks abt tt.. and im already pretty accustomed wif the workin life in the industry.. but there's always unknown which is always overshadowing my thoughts...

ohhh... b4 i 4got.. let me announce wat exactly will happen tomolo..

MY FINAL EXAMINATION SUBJECT..

ok backkk to my thoughts...

i hav seriously thought about it.. i would go for my masters degree definitely... but not veriii soon.. mayb like the rest of the singaporeans... work for abt 5 yrs b4 enrollin into masters programme... and most likely i'll NOT take hospitality... probably business.. so tt i can bail myself out of this industry tt always fails to pay well in a longgg run...

well i guess tt's it for now... i've nv been so enthusiastic in studyin but since this will be my last paper.. i'll giv my best shot... giv it all tt i've got~!!!

BaCk t0 pUbLiC

2009-10-16T03:32:00.002+08:00

yes... the bloggg is finally backkkk 2 public.. all readers will not hav 2 log into their own acc anymore..

well somethin interestin hit me 2dae.. we were actualli told to select a country or state and find out the investment plans the local authorities had to offer.. after discussing for awhile.. the grp decided on choosing sichuan, one of the western provinces in china.. there's quite a few information on the economic devlopment and the investment plans they had for foreign companies to invest..

then i suddenly rem in class tt i had done a similar study on this b4 when i was in poly while i was takin the elective on biz mandarin and there hav been case studies and examples on the western development programme.. i started to rem some things tt i hav learnt and came across backk then to make the whole mini project make sense..

surprisingly.. jus now while i was in my room readin a little more abt sichuan.. my music randomly played sun's "bu diao ling de hua", a songz tt he sang for the kids and the ppl tt had suffered massively from the earthquake some time last yr.. and then my heart became soft.. not onli am i convinced on the development plans tt they hav.. i also felt quite abit for the ppl.. they hav been thru alot in this earthqualke..

most likely the earthquake has somehow affected the progress of china's western development programme.. however i do believe tt investors should take into account of the ppl who suffered from the earthquake and continue supportin these communities and pour in the investments..

AuTuMn

2009-10-02T05:38:00.004+08:00

first up.. i broke a record in my entire blogger life.. onli 1 entry for the month of september.. lolzz.. the least of all months since feb 2005 when this bloggg was born..

anyyywayyy here comes autumn!! i never experience autumn b4... even if genting highlands is as cold as it gets, it is still located in a tropical country with exceptions tt the temp is much lower as it is situated highhh up the mountains.. in other words... its not counted!!! but it is somehow like genting highlands tt kinda cold lor.. lolzz

some updates..

in case u guys dunno or haven noe yet.. im backk from Karditsa, Thessaly, Greece... unlike Athens or Santorini.. its veryy rural with a fake lake situated at the area where we reside.. although we went there for interviews and stuff, we still had a great time out havin fun and all wif my classmates... i bought a "glitsa", which is a shepherd stick.. hopefully i can beinggg it backk 2 sg 2 let u guys see the marvellous stick tt i had!!! lolzz

this is the last mth of all my projects and assignments tt i had (except for the dissertation..) at the end of the mth.. lessons will slowly fade away.. and revision week will arrive.. and then the exams!!! also.. hopefully keng moh is able 2 come 2 switz in nov!! how nice is it 2 meet ur cg mem in europe ehhh...

well tt's all from me.. ohhhh btw.. the bloggg is gonna b public once again... pls dun ask me y i privatised the bloggg previously and now i wan 2 reverse it.. thanks ahhhh~~

My m0sT ChAoTiC DrEaM... EvEr

2009-09-06T02:54:00.003+08:00

i dun realli rem dreams... but when i rem one.. it was drastic..

recently i kept havin bad dreams... vivid dreams abt me being backkk in singapore.. but last nite... it was super super ultimate.. it went so baddd tt i wish tt it would not happen again..

i ended up in jurong.. where i claimed i saw my classmates and one of them found a job in a kindergarden.. then i was like, "how did i ended up here??" i ran past into a few blocks hopin 2 get 2 the main road... then i tot 2 myself, "wait... if im able 2 get here.. i'll b able 2 get home!!"

then i try 2 search and search for the buses 2 go home.. but suddenly its late at nite i ended up in lavender... and then i tot 2 myself again... "wait.. i tot i was in switzerland.. wat happen?? y am i here??" i became rather confused.. i was happi tt im backk in singapore.. but at the same time i was worried becoz "im supposed 2 b in switzerland"...

then i started 2 panick.. i tot 2 myself again.. "WAIT!!! im supposed 2 b sleepin in switzerland.. im not supposed 2 b here?? how can i get backk again?? an air ticket backkk 2 switz its costly!! im onli in the middle of the semester!! i should not b here!!" and then i tink again, "WAIT!! I KNOW I'M SLEEPING~~!!!"

and then.. i woke up.. tried 2 look at my watch.. it was too dark and i cannot see anythin.. i heaved a huge sigh of relieve..

and i realized how much i had missed sg..

"To dream that you are lost, suggests that you have lost your direction in life or that you have lost sight of your goals. You may be feeling worried and insecure about the path you are taking in life..." adapted from http://www.dreammoods.com/

i aLwAyS 4gEt..

2009-08-26T05:25:00.002+08:00

when i had done all my stuff and gettin ready 2 slp.. somehow i will 4get somethin..

and everytime when i knew it, i thought, "well.. later i can do it.."

and i didnt..

the thing i always 4get is 2 blogggg.. lolzz

well the past few daes there's so mani things tt had happened.. somehow there's work 2 b done.. and goin 2 class is for "taking attendance and stone for the entire lesson jus to get by each day.." for some of u... u tink is saddd rite.. go switzerland.. such a nice country and pay alot of sch fees but jus stone in class doin nothin.. but wat 2 do.. everythin so exxx.. u wan 2 enjoy also no $$.. so jus get by everyday as per normal lor..

and my lecturers were right.. backkk in sg.. i rem.. almost every other dayyy got proj grp meetin.. discuss until we also pek check.. over here.. there's so much time 2 get things done.. not like in sg.. rush rush and rush.. burn midnite oil like no ppl business.. most of the time go sch got heavy eyebags and slp in class.. in IMI is not like tt wan.. hahahhaha

but over here.. when u hav nothin 2 do.. u tink alot also.. will try 2 bloggg abt some thoughts abt the things here.. hopefully the wait for the nxt entry wont b longggg...

Fo0d WaRs

2009-08-20T22:24:00.003+08:00

yes!!! finally i hav found gddd and cheap instant noodles!!

(oops, did not take photo, will try to take it at my nxt entry..)

but this biggg bowl of noodles realli helps me alot from the instant noodles i get at the conventional supermarkets.. its like those taiwan beef noodles styles except tt they dun hav the authentic beef inside.. mayb to put it simply.. its like korean instant noodles... hahahahahha...

and ooooohhhh.. not 2 4get.. my fav chocs.. my swiss chocolate bars wif mousse fillings..

WAHAHAHAHAHAHA

the perfect combination for my night snack..

however.. i still dun hav my sg food tt i so much crave for.. wif all those laksa, nasi lemak and kwey chap not by my side.. its quite an agony!! but urgggghhhh!! ENDURE!!

(i'll make sure i'll grab all the sg food when i get home.. eat as much while it LAST!!!!)

HoPeFuLLy n0t FoRg0ttEn

2009-08-09T04:15:00.003+08:00

apologies 2 all who had been faithfully readin my blogggg and found *ahem* no updates.. lolzz

well here am i backkk updatin my story in switzerland..

and so i hav been here for more than 1 mth already.. with tt.. it marks the longest period of time i been away from home since my trip to taiwan last yr.. and also of coz.. furthest destination travelled..

the ONLY thing tt makes me frustrated time and again in Luzern is the fact that SHOPS CLOSE EARLY HERE and NOTHING IS OPENED ON SUNDAYS!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHH

well anywayyy... besides that... i had other issues too..

recently many things happened at sch... 1st there was a hails storm damaging the trees and the flora and fauna of the suroundings 2 wks ago.. thank God the hail stone were not tt biggg when they hit me.. but it was realli scary.. to think tt the sky is pouring ice cubes hittin over ur head is not a gddd idea after all.. i've got hit a few times by the stones while i was dashing across the road.. but no worries.. i've bought an umbrella and it'll help me prevent those hail stones hittin on me in the future... i tink

then there is some "late nite action" goin on at sch.. firstly there was a fight and the sink and the sch's phone booth door were damaged.. the nxt nite there was someone throwin a smoke bomb resultin into the activation of the fire alarm.. some smart alec went 2 film some of our classmates tt went into the smoke area to ensure everyone's safety and complained tt there was a breach of safety violations towards our discipline master (well in the 1st place, he breached the safety rules too.. he should not b takin these videos NEAR THE SMOKE SCENE) and then the nxt day it was reported tt a fire extinguisher went missing and those guys hav 2 pay for it..

thankfully these incidents were forgotten quickly as most of the students went out de-stressing themselves by goin 2 the circus in town and visting the festivals in zurich and geneva..

well i'll bloggg abt more stuff tomolo!!

aLm0sT a MoNtH

2009-07-26T04:10:00.002+08:00

so the 3rd week of the mth will come 2 an end tomolo.. 1 more wk means tt im officially stayed in switzerland for a mth..

jus came back from my bball trainin jus now.. felt so much better..

anyyywayyy as some of u might heard.. i was caught in a hail storm few days backkk and thank God i onli got hit by those small hail stones.. my friendz told me tt backkk in the campus the hail stones were much bigger and if i was hit it'll b like a biggg "OUCH"

i received comments and emails abt the friendz i made here in sch.. actualli.. its true tt we ar communicable.. but we jus started out as mere acquaintances.. not even into the familiar stages.. 2 b honest.. pictures can be deceiving.. though i had some pics or 2 wif my friendz.. i was nv up close and personal wif them..

and i dun tink in this span of 6mth studies i will b able 2 connect wif them well.. mayb by the time we knew each other well.. we will b throwin our mortar boards already.. the lecturers encourage to form social networks here.. but i guess at the end of the day and we received our degree certs.. we will jus move on wif our lives..

nxt few wks there ar presentations 2 b done.. and work could jus get busier.. im so excited abt the PDP (Personal Development Program) workshops.. our lecturers will teach us 2 write resumes and sell ourselves out effectively 2 the employers.. "we ar not onli concerned abt ur studies.. but we ar also concerned abt ur employment.." tt's a verii strong statement tt was made and i for once, put my trust in them...

cHoCoLaTeS

2009-07-25T03:42:00.008+08:00

woooohoooo~!!!! my greattt collection of chocolates!! anyone wans them feel free to order from me ahhhh ehhh~~ price is $10 per box... i guarantee u sure gddd 2 eat wan.. coz its switzerland chocs.. ahahhahaah

well let me introduce 2 u some of the chocs tt i took..

the top 2 of the pic (chocolata and weiss/blanc) ar jus normal stuff.. nothin much.. i had eaten them before i took this pic but hav left the wrapper behind for all 2 see..

but over here.. i hav 2 special chocs..

there is the pack "Lindt Petits Desserts" which cost abt CHF4.20 (SGD$5.70) is a white chocolate with a milk chocolate filling... when u bite in between the bars tt its a filling-like taste then takes u 2 heaven.. oooooohhh la laaaaaa~~

and there's another choc call "Grappa" just beside it.. its a alcoholic chocolate and when u bite between the bars.. it contains real wine and u jus gulp it down jus like how u drink ur wine.. lolzz.. when i realized its alcoholic i immediately threw it away though.. but for me.. its quite horrible.. i dun realli drink.. and i hate chocolates bein mixed wif wine~~~

well hopefully i could get more of those.. lolzz.. anyone wans them??

but i tell u.. even their cheapest of chocs ar as gddd as cadbury.. or even better... lolzz.. no such thing as van houten chocs ard here.. i bought the "chocolata" for onli 1 franc (S$1.30) and its NOT those lousy quality u get at fairprice.. lolzz

tHe WeEk I ExPeRiEnCeD

2009-07-17T23:42:00.004+08:00

dedicated 2 all my friendz who loves chi music..

well.. finally.. i've changed my blogskin.. at times i cant stand my crappy layout of my previous skin.. (the reason y i put my pic is becoz the prev pic had exceeded its bandwidth and it's the most suitable pic 2 compliment 'bringing u the gd, the bad and the ugly of wEiwEi whenever, wherever he wants')

well actualli.. im already quite gettin used 2 life here.. mornin i go 2 classes.. afternoon i go 2 the supermarket.. evenings i play bball.. simple life ehhh.. on weekends i watch live telecasts from CHC.. and play bball.. and slp..

the churches here ar mainly catholics.. i would sayyy tt they hav a diff style of conductin their services and layin out their church.. but i felt a little uneasi when i went 2 the one at bahnhof.. prob its becoz of the mini graveyard beside it tt left a chill down my spine when i walked in.. nevertheless.. i do not hate catholics.. but goin a church like this is prob not 4 me..

on a more serious note.. i heard tt sg is experiencin a greater H1N1 outbreak after i had left.. i realli hope nothin would happen 2 my love ones backk there.. make sure u all take care!! (i'm seriously glad tt luzern has no cases of H1N1.. sounds like some femine getaway.. lolzz)

TeMpErAtUrE

2009-07-12T05:07:00.003+08:00

here in switzerland.. u cant wear a singlet or tank top and go shoppin and still carryin a fan complainin abt the heat..

heat?? wat heat?? u mean the heaters in our room for warmth in winter? tt's wat i will respond 2 u rite now in switz.. lolzz

the past few daes its been realli cold.. yesterdae's temp dropped till 11 degrees.. i still rem i wore t-shirt and jeans and jus a jacket on the way out 4 a walk... i didnt noe its tt cold until my roommate told me tt the temp is so.. ohhh well.. i tot.. i hav went out and came backkk without feelin anythin much..

when i was younger... i would always struggle wif the cold.. i rem i could not hanggg ard in the supermarket frozen depts or inside an aircon room w/o catchin a cold thereafter.. (ohhh btw.. i almost 4get how air con feels like liaoz.. lolzz)

jus yesterdae and 2dae... i jus wore my bball jersey (the singlet ones) and bball shorts 2 play my game outdoors.. period. that jus prove how much i had "progress".. lolzz

its so funni how mani jackets and long johns tt my parents had prepared 4 me fearing tt i might catch a cold here.. well.. i would sae.. i much more stronger and tougher than some of the students here..

but when winter comes.. well.. it'll b diff.. accordin 2 switz yearly weather forecast this yr we may expect a temp of 0 degrees.. anyway.. we ar supposed 2 hav our "winter season" in one way or another rite?? perhaps mine's colder.. HAHAHAH

DuTy

2009-07-07T22:34:00.002+08:00

hi all.. not been updating these few daes coz i need 2 settle some stuff ard and abt in luzern..

well not exactly settlingg.. but touringgg ard and abt in luzern.. lolzz

anyyywayyyy if u hav not seen my pics on facebook... do log in and take a look..

ohhh wat i am here for..

DUTY

alright..

i tot it was like army.. well im rite but not entirely... the duties we hav 2 do here is mainly for experience in service.. the sch hav 2 train us 2 serve the guests or rather, the lecturers and staff tt were down here.. i tot it was like a practice of our skills tt we had acquired durin our prep course... arghhhh... i hav thrown all those waiterin skills away..

but anywayyy... an hr later i will hav 2 report 2 the kitchen 2 do my duties... and i'll b like 1st 2 reach and last 2 leave.. hopefully my fellow students could enjoy a gddd meal lor..

as always.. wat pleases me is the satisfaction and smiles tt was replied on the receiving end..

perhaps the minus pt is tt it spoils my leisure life i had planeed 4 the wk... urggghhh... but nvm.. nxt wk there's more time 2 play and uhh.. roam ard and take more pics!!

so tt means.. u wont b seein much pics these few daes.. lolzz

PrIcEs

2009-07-05T01:42:00.002+08:00

in switzerland... std of livingggg is so highhhh.... highhhh until i so pek chek and bueh tahan ahz...

here's some costs of living in switzerland:

- a bus ticket cost 2Fr (S$2.60)
- student bus concession cost 46Fr (S$59.80)
- a fast food meal cost abt 12Fr (S$15.60), upsize 1.5Fr (S$1.95)
- btw, there isn't a food court ard in Switzerland
- a normal 5pc pack of chewing gum cost 2Fr (S$2.60)
- toilet fees: small business 1Fr, big business 2Fr (go figure out how mani times u all can visit the toilets in sg wif tt amt..)
- a cup of starbucks tall ice coffee costs 8Fr (S$10.40)
- cup noodles cost 2.30Fr (S$3) !!!!!! **ARGHHHHH***
- a PACKET of instant noodles cost 1.20Fr (S$1.56) !!!! **FAINTS**
........................

and the list goes on and on and on..

fortunately there ar some things tt ar still cheaper than sg

- a bottle of 1.5L of EVIAN water cost 1Fr (S$1.30)
- a mobile phone SIM card cost only 10Fr (S$13) and has 20Fr (S$26) of credits inside..
- calls backkk 2 sg ar onli 0.09Fr (S$0.12) !!! **CHEAPP** (ma-chiam local calls like tt...)
- speaking of local calls.. calls between the same phone network is FREE!!! (singtel should realli do somethin like this...)

to sum up... everythin is expensive except for water and uh.. telecommunications..

stay tuned for more switz stuff!!

sTaRt

2009-07-04T03:08:00.002+08:00

ok... here comes day 1

obviously we had abit of jetlag.. but nevertheless we ar still quite ok.. all excited in a new town of luzern..

when we reach the town.. or we could say was "wowwww... wowwww.. wowwww.."

for me... there ar some things tt i did not exp in my entire life... on the way 2 IMI.. there were majestic chapels.. houses.. finally we had reached our destination.. it was prob an hr or so from zurich airport to where we ar residing..

our room is larger than i tot... but the toilet is smaller i tot.. we still hav space 2 place and dump all our baggage ard.. but the toilet is onli the size of THE CUBICLE and the sink is jus right beside the door..

(once again.. pics will b uploaded 2 facebook for references..)

we toured ard the city of luzern and all of us were jetlagged and tired.. but wat realli got us awake was the beauty of the city.. all i can say is it was jus amazin... the goods and stuff were made of gddd and fine quality all ard the shops and even in the supermarkets..

but as the sayin goes... gdd stuffs dun come cheap..

tt will b my nxt bloggg entry..

JoUrNeY oF w0rDs

2009-07-03T15:04:00.002+08:00

this will b like my diary in switzerland.. all the pictures will be uploaded on facebook while all the notes will be directed here..

i realli dunno wat 2 sayyy on departure days... emotions ar mixed... family members and friends came and see me off to the period of time i am lookin 4ward too.. i tot i made a wrong choice of coming 2 switzerland.. i didnt realize tt how much loce and concern can my friendz and family gave me and perhaps its onli the past mth or so tt i realli started 2 appreciate more..

i told one of the younger cg mem tt we should cherish every moment we had wif our friendz.. we cannot jus take them for granted... someday they ar not by our side.. u will feel lost and remorseful..

but anyyywayy... all of them gave me a wonderful farewell at Day 0 in switzerland.. been receiving many SMS.. fb comments.. MSN texts.. etc etc.. those farewell dinners i had were realli great.. i tink i had dinner commitments since last tues until the day i flew off.. realli thank all of u so much..

see u all in a yr (or mayb even more... i dunno)

will blogggg abt things i did in day 1 of switzerland tomolo again..

GoNe t0 LuZeRn

2009-07-01T17:18:00.002+08:00

by now u all should noe.. im goin over 2 switz.. i couldnt thank enuff for all those who love and care and concerned abt me so much...

wat i can do is by appreciatin ur gifts and love towards me as i go 2 switz 2 fight for the veri best for my results.. i jus wanna do my best and leave the rest 2 God's hands..

i haven counted the pressies tt were given 2 me.. hopefully when i count all of them.. i will not miss out anyone lolzz..

i jus couldnt type out anymore...

我感到非常感动，心中只有这两句话：

“我怎敢不尽股肱之力，尽忠贞之节，继之与死乎！”

“夫难平者，事也。我鞠躬尽瘁，死而后已，至于成败利钝，唯神之明所能逆睹也。”

WaRcRaFt II

2009-06-17T23:26:00.003+08:00

hehh.. cant believe im still playin this SUPER OLD game..

i miss those CHEATS.. (and 2 b honest.. i dunno how 2 WIN w/o it.. noob rite lolzz..) and i rem the gddd old days where i jus hack and whack my way thru if a handful of armies 2 defeat a legion of my enemies.. lolzz.. its like a damn shiok feelin 2 quickly whack off those buildings in god mode and hav unlimited resources and all..

well.. i've 2 get backkk 2 studyin mode... sch starts at jul 6th and i cant b in a daze 4 too longggg!!! till then..

LaKeRs WiN!!

2009-06-15T21:09:00.002+08:00

last yr this time... the lakers lost to the celtics and they ar overwhelmed greatly... this yr.. they overwhelmed the orlando magic.. here ar some victorious scenes..

s0mE s0nGs..

2009-06-10T22:34:00.002+08:00

sorry guys.. me still lazy 2 bloggg abt stuffs.. here ar some songz 2 enjoy ahhh ehhh~~

Be BaCk s0oN..

2009-06-09T22:52:00.001+08:00

sorry guys..

been realli lackadastical 2 bloggg abt stuff lately..

anywayyy... will b backkk bloggin soon..

(meanwhile... my broadband is so laggggg.. cant even upload 5 songz at 1 time!!! arggggghhhhhh...)

TeAm pLaY

2009-05-27T21:27:00.002+08:00

there is strength in unity.. how true..

2dae's NBA Eastern Conference Finals we saw how the Orlando Magic won the Cleveland Cavaliers and now they lead the series by winning 3 games to 1..in NBA history onli a few teams managed to climb back from a trailing 1-3 to win the series..

now how come, the impregnable team led by Lebron James, will lose to a team who does not have a great player like him??

it is all due to the team effort..

the scoring burden does not fall on one player alone, but it is the team effort to score and win... besides Howard and Gortat, who were centers of the team, the entire Magic team knew how 2 shoot from the 3-pt range... thus they create matchup problems for the cavaliers.. who could not make use of their tall players 2 defend their tall players becoz their tall players can shoot 3-pt shots.. and even if they guard them from the outside, the big center Dwight Howard will pounce and dominate the pain jus like Shaquille O'Neal in his younger days..

Lebron worked hard in this game.. scorin 44 pts for the team, in fact, he had worked hard for all the games.. scorin at least 30 plus pts each game.. but his team mates didnt help him alot.. most of the time he had 2 make use of his exceptional individual talent.. and when the Magic defense collapsed on him, he trusted his teammates 2 shoot.. but most of the time his teammates fail 2 deliver..

likewise i believe... whether its a grp project... or a bball team... or even the cg... its not by one person alone tt can generate success.. sure, individual talents ar great.. but it can onli overcome small obstacles and it will eventually run into a wall when biggg obstacles ar met.. a gd example would b the cavaliers ar able 2 beat the Detroit Pistons and the Atlanta Hawks.. but against the Orlando Magic, who shared the ball ard and play team defense, their backs ar against the wall...

one person is nv enuff, a team mus go thru everythin 2gether as one, everyone mus b enthusiastic, everyone mus b able, everyone mus rise up, then the team will b able 2 see the power..

g0oD DaY

2009-05-21T23:28:00.002+08:00

wat a great dayyyy 2 proclaim!!!!

i seldom bloggg abt my daily stuff since my army days.. but 2dae everythin gddd jus fall in place... it might not interest some of u.. so if u find it bored... y dun u get out of here and do somethin else??

firstly... the orlando magic beat the cleveland cavaliers... though i support the cavaliers.. im happi 4 this loss... why?? this will actualli help lebron james and co. realize tt they should play their game 2 an even better lvl.. the previos rounds where they beat their opponents by a wide margin didnt realli test their "greatness".. but this loss will set b4 them a tough challenge 2 overcome.. and i believe they can do it!!

of coz... after the bball match went out 2 meet my lovely michelle mei mie.. lolzz.. she still the same.. busyz.. tired.. always complianin her work probs and her ahem ahem stuffs.. but anyway we had a gddd time (i tink??) and after tt my MP4 player is finally BACK!!!! after more than 45 days of hiatus it is finally backkk by my side and not onli fix my main hardware probs... they also fix my softwares and i get better music.. woohoooo!!!! its like a new player 2 me again!! well anyways in the future i would not buy this anymore... its so unreliable.. but then again.. the ipod is exxxx... dun wanna spend so much $$$$ 4 a sleek brand and design wif so little storage space... i need a gddd brand besides creative and apple!! any suggestions??

i went home after tt and quickly get changed 2 shoot some hoops.. my leg has finally recovered from a bad cramp on sunday and it felt gddd.. and i broke my own record 2dae by knockin down 13 CONSECUTIVE JUMPERS~~ whooohoooo!!!! its no wonder tt the sec sch ginnas sittin by the side can onli stare in disbelief as they were not bold 4 a challenge.. (mayb they wan 2 peace off wif me by not challengin.. lolzz) i jus love my shootin touch.. hopefully it can maintain.. so tt i can settle 4 jump shots instead of slashin into the basket and gettin banged up most of the time... lolzz

well mayb the onli deflation 2dae was the meet up wif my besties bein postponed.. ohhh well.. the dae is goin 2 pass...

SuCcEsS aNd TaLeNt

2009-05-20T22:48:00.003+08:00

jus finish readin my chinese book abt "the critics of zhu-ge liang".. felt tt there ar alot of things tt blown my mind wide open..

here is a verse tt describes abt him..

有立功之志，而无成功之量；有合众之仁，而无用众之智

(Translation: Having a drive to succeed, but do not have the ability for success; have the ability to lead, but unable to bring the best out of the people)

i tink not onli him... but i noe most ppl in this organization hav this common trait.. dun tink so?? jus ask all of them 2 list down all the achievements and accomplishments.. u will find tt there is hardly a winner in the midst..

as christians... God promises us 2 b "the head and not the tail, above and not beneath," and yet while we kept on confessing and prayin abt it.. WE NEED 2 NOE WHERE WE STAND!!! it is not enuff 2 believe.. but its all abt ACHIEVING the goal we dream.. talk is cheap.. doing it cost time, money and even reputation.. everyone's scared... but i wish if u ar reading this u aren't afraid.. tt's y we overcome the devil by our word of testimony.. it is simply 3 words and 1 fact: I DID IT!!

i noe of mani leaders tt knew how 2 lead... in fact.. they hav a talent 4 leadin.. BUT.. they do not noe how 2 TEACH PPL TO LEAD.. which is i felt... a veriii veriii saddd case.. there is a chinese saying:

不孝有三，无后为大

(Translation: There are 3 ways of being unfillial, and the biggest of all is not naming a successor)

in other words.. succession planning is somethin tt is lacking in most organizations and most leaders... and those tt do not do succession planning ar the most selfish.. cruel and unworthy ppl ard.. a great leader motivates and brings up the ppl 2 their level and even better.. Jesus, the Son of God, the greatest Man on earth, said to us that we will do greater works than He has ever done.. the greatest apostle Paul wrote letters 2 the churches, believin tt they will do greater works 2 build up the foundations of the future.. Pastor Zhuang said in the emerge meeting earlier this yr, "when pastor kong steps down, 1 of u will lead this entire church, i will not lead, im already goin 2 retire jus like ps kong... but 1 of u will do even greater things than these in the future.."

talented and charismatic leaders means nothin.. when their achievements ar few and their development efforts ar mediocre.. leaders will become valuable and precious when they can teach their apprentices 2 become better than who they ar.. now tt's a GREATTT teacher indeed..

Fr0m mY EyEs

2009-05-18T22:51:00.002+08:00

i told joyce b4 tt looks can b deceivin.. she agreed and she insists tt she did judge character based on wat is expressed..

i admired her 4 tt..

came across a facebook quiz tt asked, "wat do ur eyes say??" and the result was "innocent" and it says tt i "possess a passion of light which shines forth 2 mani ppl.." i rem i received comments from my friendz sayin tt "i am always like a kai xin guo...", "there's always fire in my eyes.." which i felt tt its quite true.. i looked into the mirror.. and there was those round and biggg windows of the soul.. tellin me 2 gear up 4 my best and gave me a sense of hope and life...

but then... somehow it didnt reflect my soul..

inasmuch i wanted 2 portray myself 2 b positive cheerful and bubbly so tt i could b a blessing 2 those ard me... there were mani things tt were shoved deep down and the groanings tt couldnt b muttered... the fact is... some things ar jus not gdd enuff... some things were jus negative.. bad.. foul.. i felt tt there were so mani probs and if i jus opened my mouth and bragged every single one of them... even those who ar patient would eventually faint..

wat then.. do i do 2 keep myself cheerful when ppl see me?? meditation?? No.. (though i need 2 meditate on the gddd things... somehow when i do it.. i'll tink of the bad ones too..) keep my mind suppressed? No. (coz if i do, not onli i would not tink of the bad things... but the gdd things and well.. in other words.. a retard..)

wat i did was jus to look at the person whom i am ard with..

i tink one (duh) fact is tt the ppl whom i hanggg out wif ar my gddd friends.. kakis.. cliques.. best pals.. buddies etc etc.. and when i look at them.. i immediately could tink of somethin gddd.. a quick one would b their pleasant personalities... outfits or even their looks... and tt's how i smiled.. becoz they, unknowingly, made me do it..

im so happi 2 hav these friendz ard me.. u cleared my soul and rejuvenated the windows.. awesome!!!

MaKiN FuN

2009-05-16T23:51:00.002+08:00

i realize tt i should stop all these nonsense abt pokin fun upon others... thank God i am trained 2 do so at my BIHTM semester..

it all started when kesh asked me, "hey... can take jokes anot??" and from tt on i made a decision tt i'll take all the jokes tt they sayyy.. soon later barry got emo over things tt some of the guys sayyy.. and he shown his "despair" when he hangin out2gether.. finally... the whole lot of us decided tt we should sayyy gddd things.. and tt's where the whole class came into place where everybody say smart things and heap praises..

wat then... is my capacity of takin jokes??

like alcohol... i can take a little... but not too much..

jus becoz of 1 simple fact.. i wanted 2 become better... i take critics seriously.. evry crook and cranny and imperfectness means alot 2 me.. in other words... i value alot of wat comes out of a person's mouth.. if its gddd.. it shall b maintained tt way.. if its baddd.. it should b improve tt way...

but NEVER NEVER NEVER mix fun and true critics 2gether... this is somethin tt i cant accept..

tt i call.. its bein MANIPULATIVE..

example... "Hey!! Wat's wrong wif u?? y cant u get ur food??"

do u tink tt the above statement is a joke??

i always tot tt i hav been deeply brainwashed.. and i always tryin 2 get things on the objective side... little did i noe tt some of the ppl i knew had been utterly brainwashed... wat an utter disappointment!!

iT's aLL HiSt0rY

2009-05-15T23:52:00.003+08:00

gone were the days where i hav 2 travel all the wayyyy from sengkang 2 clementi 2 attend lectures and project grp meetings..

gone were the days where i hav 2 watch my time and do my assignments..

gone were the days i hav 2 attend makeup cgs 2 go 4 my sat classes..

gone were the days where i hav 2 find research and frustrations kicked in when there isnt any..

gone were the days where i do not noe wat weekends is all abt... wif classes 6 days a week and svc on sunday... this marathon nv seemed 2 b ending..

gone were the days where i had 2 stay up late at nite 2 do my assignements.. project assignments.. presentations etc etc..

gone were the days where i am so tensed up.. stressed.. and always tink abt workk... workkk and MORE WORKKKKK..

gone were the days where i tink abt my workkk even in my dreams.. (this is true... but i dun tink it'll go away tt soon... hopefully it will..)

and now i declare..

THE START OF MY FREEDOM!!!! EXAMS AR OVER!!! AND SO IS THE SEMESTER!!!!

lookin backkk its realli fasttt... i wish i could hav done more or done better.. but at least i exp it and went thru it... i always told my close friendz tt its realli badd... its realli tough.. veriii few of them even believed tt it is tougher than my army life... but i felt tt it is.. in the army when u hav nothin 2 do.. u slp.. until ur commanders or superiors tell u 2 do somethin then u do.. even when in outfield.. u slack and slp most of the time... 4 the past few mths.. how 2 slp?? there isnt enuff time 2 complete the assignments already.. let alone rest time?? my classmates sayyy tt in the army is physical stress.. this course is mentally stress.. since when physical stress is realli "true stress"??

after the exams yesterdae.. i raise both of my hands in victory... its jus sums up everythin tt i exp 4 the past few mths.. period

uNdErWeIgHt

2009-05-10T18:29:00.002+08:00

yes.. 4 all of u who seen me b4.. ur 1st impression of me is "TOO SKINNY!!!"

(unlike miss m... who tinks im a ah bengz..)

(and unlike huimin... who tinks im an indian.. RACIST!!!!!!!)

well now i've got shockin news 4 u...

im realli facin a weight crisis.. (worse than erika i supposed.. she DOESN'T realli hav 1 anyways.. she's jus tryin 2 psycho all of us tt she has!!!)

my latest parameters: 181cm (height) and 54kg (weight)
BMI: 16.48

well.. i mus clarify this.. i DO NOT purpose myself 2 lose weight... IN FACT.. i ate alot in sch and at home.. ask my parents.. ask my sch mates.. they all hate it when i can eat alot and dun grow fat.. but i guess... my food is lesser than my work.. and when food < work.. there's more likely 2 lose weight lor..

ARGGHHHH!!!! and this wk i haven been eatin alot... my weight finally "gave way" and dropped.. now my ideal weight for my height is 63KG AT LEAST... how 2 reach tt??

well my mum commented tt when i go 2 swiss i mus eat more.. whack their buffet like there's no tomolo.. well i supposed i could if its true tt their chicken its from cordon bleu and dishes were catered from gordon ramsay's skills...

well there's a chi sayin "its a blessing 2 eat" （能吃是福） and whenever someone gain weight.. we would say "u ar blessed" （你发福啦！）i guess the blessing here means the outcome from eating rather than the process or the capacity 2 eat.. lolzz

someone bless me!!!

FoR a ReD BeAn

2009-05-08T22:40:00.002+08:00

me: “我可以用整个宇宙，换一个红豆。。”
"I would use the entire universe (my everything) and xchange 4 a red bean (heart)"

miss m: "是吗？（现在）不见得有这种痴情的男人。。”
"izzit?? i dunno if there's guys tt still could love passionately.."

me: “我还会啊！我很久没有女朋友了。。”
"i will!! after all.. it's been a longgg time since i hav a gf.."

miss m: “你最后一次是几时？”
"when is the last time u had one??"

me: "有。。大概五年了！！”
"about.. 5 years~!!!"

most of my friendz tink tt im still not ready 2 find a gf yet.. or rather.. im still not ready 2 fall in love.. some of my friendz criticize me 4 bein flirty and all and they tink tt i hav no chance of realli hav a romantic and long lastin relationship..

in fact.. im still waitin 4 the special her..

she mus:
- b able 2 make me xchange my universe (my everything) for her red bean (heart)
- tt means... is ok if she dun love bball.. or even dun like watchin..
- in short.. when i fall in love wif her.. she mus b the ctr of my attention one rank lower than God..

(other details 2 b confirmed.. geez.. cant tink of em rite now...)

back 2 muggin..

iT's BeEn s0 LoNg

2009-05-07T14:53:00.002+08:00

yup... its been 12 days since i last blogged.. and exams ar on the 11th-14th of may... so u would not see mi bloggin at tt period of time too.. (mayb i would.. who noes? lolzz)

am currently also readin this in the midst of my study wk:

i was blown away by so mani insights.. though i do not agree wif some arguments he had.. the author had helped me into seein things wif a new dimension..

i had loads of stuff 2 bloggg abt this book.. will b backk soon.. hopefully..

OnE LaSt TiMe

2009-04-25T15:46:00.002+08:00

and so.. yesterday i ended my nomad life of goin 2 makeup cg every fri.. it lasted for abt 4 mths.. keith was sayinggg tt i could not do this as i might as well change a cg.. hahahah.. but i tink willy and sally hav diff opinions..

the reason is tsraightforward and simple.. i cant go 4 my usual sat cg due 2 classes these 4 mths on a sat.. and 2dae i prouldly announce... 2dae is my final sat lesson!!! huzzah... i will not hear of any saturday finance classes anymore!!!

well it ended wif pastor yock kiang cg near holland V.. it started wif kelvin cg.. alonggg the wayy went 2 chew yan's and jingxuan.. but mostly my makeup cgs were anchored on kel's cg but yesterdae it is the 1st time i hear pastor preach in cg.. he is jus as good as wat i perceived.. lolzz

the end of the sat finance lessons means the start of a great battle: the final exams.. it is comin soon in 3 weeks time.. i bet none of my classmates ar revisin their stuff yet as they were all rushin 4 deadlines 2 complete their project.. hahahah.. and for sure.. the sat classes were tough.. we werent gdd in finance.. but we didnt pay much attention to it either.. lolzz.. anyway history has proved tt as longgg as we study.. passing this subject shouldnt b a prob after all..

now wat it would b like when i "go backkk home to N435"?? i hope tt there will b a warm welcome on my return.. everyone will b happi.. and expectant.. and they were grateful tt im backkk!!! (If only... i wish...) guess everyone will still go on wif their lives whether im ard anot.. but anyways like wat yesterdae sermon says.. i mus commit myself 2 walk in the light wif God and His ppl, aka fellowship, to build up the spiritual lives of the younger members.. and it will all start at the nxt cg meeting!!!

LeArN t0 ReLaX

2009-04-16T23:04:00.002+08:00

i realized tt my com hasnt been restarted or shut down for more than 3 wks.. it onli went 2 hibernate or sleep mode and then everythin resumed from there and then..

and then i realized tt my com is verriii "stress" by the wayyy it operates.. its laginess and all.. and i decided 2 let it restart.. and the com seems 2 suffer from a "mental breakdown" when it took its time 2 slowly close all appplications b4 shuttin down and rebootin again..

wahhh.. i can sense wat it is goin thru.. lolzz

i always tot tt i enjoy working.. whether im on a job workin or its sch workk.. i like wat im doin.. even in the army when conditions were badd.. my superiors were nasty.. i still take pride in wat i do.. as a result.. i always communicate wif my workk 2 other ppl.. of coz.. most of them use it 2 relate 2 me.. but 4 those who is actualli goin thru the same thingg as me they would actualli avoid talkin abt our workkk stuff and chat abt somethin else..

and i always wonder.. arent they proud of their workk?? these ppl showed more focus and interest than i do in workk and yet when they ar outside they prefer not 2 tok abt it.. ar they escapin reality? face it!! the world's cruel..

and i realized im rite in my latter sentence but i was wrongg in my former judgment..

the world's cruel.. tt's a fact.. period. but inasmuch they gave full commitment 2 workk.. they wanted 2 relax and enjoy and workk is certainly not their entertainment nor their pleasure.. all they wanted was somethin fun and excitin besides workk.. and the various types of hot topics such as fashion and entrtainment provided jus tt for them 2 relax..

me?? the onli wayy i relax is 2 play bball lor.. but bball is more like a competitive sport.. nowadays the more i play.. the more i tell myself tt im not there yet and i need 2 train harder.. i tink i need 2 find another type of leisure.. tt would realli allow me 2 relax and enjoy.. and jus hav fun..

红尘 SuNsEt

2009-04-14T22:12:00.014+08:00

ok.. b4 i introduce my poem.. here's a new songz from BY2.. their new album had jus released!!

here it is..

题：红尘
举目观夕阳
如画过不忘
思那赤血汗
皆成金岸沙
今时剩余光
照那寂心房

translation:
title: sunset
i lift my eyes and behold the evenin sun
its like a painting i'll always regard
the sweat that came from these red hot blood
had turned into sand of the golden shores
herein lies the light of dusk
shimmer through that lonely heart

it's a translation... for those who dunno chinese... arggghhh.. the translation was realli bad though..

DiE HaRd FaN

2009-04-11T14:25:00.003+08:00

michelle says tt this songz is a sleepin songz.. hmfffff... she dunno how 2 appreciate.. this is a gdddd songz.. its sentimental.. slow.. and has nice vocals courtesy by fish leong..

anywayyy while everyone in my class and ppl out there tt i knew ar talkin abt the premier leagu.. im the onli guy tt talks abt the NBA.. in fact.. i support my fav lakers team as much as u guys supported ur fav arsenal, liverppol, chelsea and man u teams.. lolzz..

here's my evidence..

yesterdae i was at home and i closely monitored the internet play-by-play between the lakers and the nuggets game on my computer.. when the scores ar realli close i was so tense.. but i heaved a huge sigh of relief and joy when they finally won.. after which i watch the report... the videos and their plays to relieve the victory tt they had got... but i knew tt they hav another game the nxt dayyy.. and in my heart i realli hope tt they'll win..

and then i had a dream.. dream tt they were losing by a 20pt margin by halftime.. and they try 2 cut the deficit and get backkkk 2 the game.. and in the end they still lost 2 this jinx team.. urrrrgggghhhh.. it sounds horrible.. and wif tt i woke up 2 reality..

went 2 sch the nxt dayyy 4 project meetin.. and i allow the play-by-play analysis 2 flow in my com while im doin my home.... time and again i checked.. not too bad.. at least the scores were close.. they hav a chance 2 win... then suddenly.. they were losing when the game is comun 2 an end.. and they lost in the end.. urggghhh.. i tot.. how disgustin.. and i didnt even bother 2 look at the reports and videos..

but anyways.. they were the top in the western conference.. i cant wait 4 the playoffs 2 come!!

aNd aNoThEr PaSsEd..

2009-04-10T23:20:00.002+08:00

and if i go on like this.. i'll prob see myself bloggin once a wk.. jus like my army days..

i hope not.. anyway... life jus cant go on like this..

i hav been thinkin harddd abt my life 4 the last few daes.. which wan should i commit myself more?? the church or work?? and i realize i knew the answer.. the main thing is.. i cant forsee myself as a cell grp leader.. prob not one in the near futue.. becoz im more interested in buildin relationships and befriendin wif ordinary ppl rather than church affairs.. often durin conversations.. i'll b proned 2 hear abt ppl talkin abt the ppl out there rather than the ppl in church.. i'll b more interested in events tt happen in the marketplace rather than the events tt ar happenin in the church..

perhaps a connect grp leader or a ministry member will i reach at the most.. there's no doubt im able 2 provide discipleship and counselling.. but i hav doubts over the ability to reach a targetted goal.. take 4 example.. a cg wanted a large amount of ppl by the end of june.. rite now the attendance did not even reach half tt amount.. if i were the cgl.. i'll surely harbor the intention 2 step down..

for many yrs when bigg days arrive.. i pledged friendz but brought none.. this easter i was told tt i've got a quite alot of names here.. but i try 2 convince them not 2 believe in those numbers.. and i was told tt i jus do wat i can.. and these few daes im so horrified of myself.. i jus couldnt open my mouth and ask.. i could onli set goals tt i hav complete control or at least 50% of them.. in short.. church growth is still not for me..

sometimes i wonder if im created w/o the ability to bring friendz 2 church or to evangelise to the masses.. perhaps i hav.. perhaps i hav not.. i've yet 2 discover tt within me.. but i would b utterly disappointed of myself if i happen 2 set a target so high tt i couldnt even sniff at it.. makin promises in a hyped up moment.. tt's not wEiwEi at all..

tHaT WeEk-Ch HaS PaSsEd

2009-04-05T22:47:00.002+08:00

ok.. its been 1 week since my last entry..

i was rocked on monday.. someone whom im veriii closed to msn me sayin she was angry wif me and hated me 4 not bein able 2 fulfil my words.. i was so crushed.. but nevertheless i kept my focus on the projects tt i had 2 do.. and once i again found myself sleepin on tues mornin 3am..

after a few hrs of slp.. i rushed 2 sch 4 the proj presentation.. it all went well.. thank God 4 the plans b4 hand.. however... i knew somethin was wrong yesterdae.. went down 2 orchard and tried 2 get a gift despite of a heavy flu.. and i did not buy anythin and i sms sayin tt im sorry 2 disappoint.. and i realize tt it is not an object tt she wants.. it is my bad habit of delayin promises..

i was rather remorseful.. wed came and i rose up earli 2 go 4 prayer meetin in the mornin.. so mani things 2 pray 4.. so short the prayer meetin.. lolzz.. but it was gddd anyways.. on wed nite i knew somethin was verii wrongg.. i lost my appetite.. not onli i hav cough and flu.. but also a verii badd headache.. it would not go away.. at midnite i wasnt able 2 slp.. and i suspect i had a fever.. true enuff the temp is 39 deg.. i was so shocked tt i almost informed my parents tt im goin 2 the hospital.. but on 2nd tots i tink tt its not wise 2 wake up my parents at 4am in the mornin and try 2 settle myself.. i took a few panadols and a cold bath.. and the temp dropped drastically..

the nxt mornin.. there wsnt any sign of fever.. thank God.. went 2 the polyclinic.. it was thurs already.. doctor did not tink tt it was dengue... but she advised me 2 go 4 blood test aniwaes.. i told her i see how.. then i took some med and most imptly.. a day of MC.. lolzz.. and slowly but surely.. i recovered bit by bit... tt antibiotics is realli damn stronggg.. it can exaggerate my hunger by makin my stomach growl where the body onli needs the portion of a small size of noodles.. as such.. i always end up eatin more than i could..

on fri went backk 2 sch and we got backk our proj results... woohoooo!! ROM presentation was an A!!!! there were onli 2 grps who achieved it in class.. praise God!!! and our MICE mgt result was a B.. not too badd.. esp when we copied and paste most of our content and most parts we ar not quite sure wat he wans.. lolzz..

and the weekends came and now they ar gone... whew.. wat an adventure ahhh~~

a VeRsE s0 FaMiLiAr

2009-03-30T22:35:00.002+08:00

sometimes we realli deserve our ill gotten gains when we do not rem somethin tt is so basic 2 us..

Matthew 6:33 - But seek 1st the kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to u..

2dae i listened 2 the free sermon from attributes online.. its a sermon preached by Dr A.R Bernard backkk in 2002.. and it was realli unbelievable to hear from him speakin so well at tt yr.. in fact.. i realized tt he had actualli imparted the foundation of his wisdom 2 the church at tt yr~!!!! my goodness.. i should hav received Christ much earlier..

aniwaes.. he preached somethin tt is oh so familiar and it realli hit me harddd..

he says, "in Matt 6:33, it says tt spiritual renewal is more impt than economic revitalization.." this is so true in our curent economic situation.. tt when all of us hope and pray for economic revitalization.. it is a time where we should renew our spirit man b4 God does a miracle in our economic situation..

and i realized.. it doesnt stop there.. more than jus economic situation.. it talks abt our everyday life.. our family.. our relationship.. our work.. and for me.. most imptly.. my studies

i realized i hav been seekin God now and then 4 my breakthru in my studies.. but my spirit man wasnt realli renewed.. and i kept askin.. seekin.. knockin.. and the breakthru jus didnt come.. and i realiazed tt its my spirit man.. and my thinkin.. tt needs 2 b changed..

i hav 2 seek God even more... startin from tomolo.. i'll make sure i'll go 4 all the mornin prayer meetings..

bLoGgIn LiFe CyCLe

2009-03-25T18:41:00.002+08:00

bloggin life cycle is almost the same as any life cycle of a product.. it goes thru: (1)-Infancy (2)-Growth (3)-Maturity

however unlike most products.. bloggin comes thru 2 maturity stage realli quick..

one of the reason is due 2 internet marketing.. which is an effective tool for "selling" the webpage.. bloggers may use any form of communication channels 2 advertise their blogggg (word of mouth, msn, email, spam email.. lolzz) and soon enuff.. u get ur "readers" 2 see ur blogggg..

however... the no. of bloggers will slow down when it reaches its maturity stage.. mayb like 6 mths or so.. and the no. of readers will start 2 slow down and soon after the no. of readers will eventually decline.. while many bloggers (like me) like to write wat they like and write wat they wan ignorin the public comments.. they still face a decline in readership due 2 the lack of interestin stories happenin in their lives..

now the fact is life can b mundane at times at it can b realli borin.. it is not gdd 2 bloggg everythin interestin abt ur life.. furthermore... bloggers themselves will soon find themselves losing the urge 2 bloggg abt their lives.. when they realli dun feel like it..

so wat ar some blogggs tt could sustain readership??

1. Informative blogggs (Lee Xin Hong - fintel.blogspot.com)
Xinhong's bloggg may hav a combination of both financial and spiritual messages and teachings but the entries tt were posted ar verii deep.. it is hardd 2 jus glance thru everythin and noe wat is he sayin.. but it needs 2 b read thoroughly 2 enjoy the entire entry.. if u dun like writing and typing.. it is not wise 2 do this.. however.. it's all abt informative resources which is the original intention of the existence of the internet world..

2. Audio blogggs (Willy Joe - willyjoe.blogspot.com)
Although willy blogggs also has some of his thoughts and some other misc entries.. it is one of the "marketable blogggs" ard in blogger.. his "core activity" is 2 share music wif the readers.. while sometimes he share somethin abt his life 2 let the ppl ard him noe him better.. however.. unlike xinhong.. he doesnt blog long and his english is short, simple and sweet.. as he expresses everythin thru a short paragraph.. at least 90% of his readers love music or had their surrounded wif it.. and wif a xtra efforts on its design.. it is not too diff to market this "google-listed" bloggg..

3. Visual Blogs (Erika Liana - scribblinx.livejournal.com)
Visual blogggs is the easiest wayyy 2 attract masses of readers.. accordin 2 studies.. most ppl tend 2 capture learnin from visual teachings.. (like wat ur teachers used in classrooms.. such as objects.. tools etc etc) and erika's bloggg is full of pictures.. videos.. more pictures.. and more videos.. lolzz.. therefore the retaining rate of readers is rather highhh as ppl ar more interested 2 see new pictures and new videos abt a person rather than jus words of description.. many blogggs did tt.. and it is one of the proven method of possessin highhh readership..

mine?? ohhh well.. dun even tink abt it.. im not even "google-listed".. and my entries ar rather wordy.. sometimes u may find some informative stuff and a little bit of visual and audio entries but most of the time u would find words.. tt's y its my bloggg u see.. i bloggg wat i like.. wat i wan..

m0rE MuSiC To ReLaX

2009-03-24T23:30:00.003+08:00

ok... here's a couple of songz... 1st up is a chinese one.. quite smoothing and relaxin tempo.. listen liaoz also will happi.. lolzz

alrite nxt up is one of my friendz.. he was doin a live performance (somewhere in singapore lahz.. nv bother 2 ask also..) ehhhh.. but his singin quite tok gong wan horrr.. dun pray pray ahhhh.. here it is.. PRRREASE do support...

tHe PpL i KnEw

2009-03-17T22:44:00.003+08:00

when im out there in sch or in my workplace previously.. i jus casually spoke 2 my colleagues and friendz abt the ppl i knew and some of the achievements tt they had.. and they do not believe of wat i hav said.. sometimes i jus told them plainly abt the things tt they hav done.. they tot im exaggeratin..

i guess the main reason of their disbelief is tt they nv knew tt this could happen in front of their eyes.. and its veriii saddd tt they do not believe them as those words did not realli serve an inspiration 2 them.. while they might believe tt they should work honestly wif their hands.. i tink tt one has 2 b COURAGEOUS 2 believe tt they could achieve somethin greater than themselves..

take 4 example.. i told them i noe a friendz who is the dean of SMU sch of accountancy for 3 yrs in a row and he's been givin talks in his university abt investing and in RI.. from this sentence alone.. they tink its a whole lot of crap.. if i were 2 break down.. they do not believe 4 things from here:

- the dean of SMU: its not easy being one.. this person tt im referrin too mus b a great scholar.. how can this great scholar noe this type of chao kuan ah beng??

- for 3 yrs: this guy mus b havin some superb status.. i mus see 2 believe it.. now i'm jus a blue collar worker.. if i did not see such success happenin b4.. how can this ah beng see this kinda thing in his life??

- investing talks in the university: how can a mere student giv investment talks 2 his fellow uni classmates?? this ah beng is blabberin utter nonsense.. he doesnt noe wat is he talkin abt!!

- talks in RI: now he mus b some superman 2 do alot of things.. if onli pigs can fly (except 4 airpork..) ar u sure this ah beng is sayin the right thing??

therefore from the above sentence.. they would jus ignore it... (i didnt wan 2 demean THAT GUY THAT IM TALKIN ABT.. ) but i felt tt sometimes i wouldn't wan to make such a statement like this anymore.. all i wan 2 do is 2 sing praises.. but i guess life is like american idol and ppl ar like simon cowell..

b4 i end.. i would like 2 make another statement tt seems so fake but its so real..

"the former OC of eagle coy, now OC of 5SIR 'B' Coy is my friendz, CPT Tang Wai Tat.. during BMT i called him twice, once 2 inform him of my enlistment and 2nd to jus talk 2 him.. i told him tt i saw him talkin 2 the other OCs at the parade square while we were observing a parade by the CO.. he told me 2 get out of the file and join him for coffee and the canteen and i jus told him 'u siao ahz, wan me 2 die izzit' and then we both laughed.."

a mEnTaL iSsUe

2009-03-13T17:59:00.002+08:00

i am so inspired by this article written by NBA.com.. it is a write up on the analysis between kobe bryant of the LA lakers and joe johnson of the Atlanta Hawks..

They both have a versatile offensive game that's built on the ability to score in a multitude of ways -- from deep, off the dribble, catch-and-shoot -- while possessing the court sense and passing ability to get others involved. They score in a similar fashion.

"I've always been a big Joe Johnson fan, he's extremely versatile," Bryant said. "Go left. Go right. Shoot it. He's a very good player."

"I still like to watch him as a player, I'm still a fan," Johnson said. "It's a little different when you're in the NBA playing against him, but most definitely, I watch him and try to take little things that he used to do and try to put it into my game."

With one exception:
"I just think Kobe is head and shoulders above everybody in terms of his tenacity and will to compete, that killer attitude and instinct that he has," according to Lakers assistant coach Brian Shaw, who is responsible for scouting the Hawks.

Everything that seemed so similar before starts to bear no resemblance. Bryant's success starts in his head and the body follows. Johnson is still the other way around.

Maurice Evans, Bryant's former backcourt mate in L.A. and Johnson's current backup in Atlanta, agrees. "I think you see a little bit of the mental edge [with Bryant] as far as the confidence level, as far as winning championships and having a greater level of success," Evans said. "When [the Hawks] played Boston last year and they went to Game 7, Kobe's been in situations where he's actually won that game and had that type of success. Once Joe gets that under his belt, I think he can start playing on that level."

wow... it realli blew my mind away.. it is not jus skills and talent.. it is the mental edge and the killer insticts.. and its not jus bball.. whenever in work.. play or watever we do.. the skills equipped and the knowledge acquired is not enuff 2 prove to the world tt we ar gdd.. it is the mental edge and the instincts tt we hav giv us an adv over the rest..

i totally agree wif the article tt kobe's success comes from the head and then to the body.. most of the times our body would b jus plain flat.. un-energize and not feel like doin anythin.. but if we hav the mentality 2 win.. we mus command our body 2 move into the plan we had in the mind and not let the body do the decisions..

im so determined 2 train my mental toughness.. somewhere in the army days... in my bball hyperactive days i was able 2 activate it but now im gettin a little complacent becoz my body tells me tt i hav done it all.. but somehwere at the back of my head somethin tells me tt there is more..

i realli gotta believe tt there is more..

MaKiN u HaPpY

2009-03-12T22:51:00.008+08:00

this songz is 4 the broken hearted..

4 those who ar saddd..

4 those who had loads of projects 2 do.. (like me..)

4 those who ar realli stress..

4 those who tink tt workk can realli make them go crazy..

4 those who had lost faith and in despair..

4 those who ar realli depressed..

anyways.. this songz is 4 u~!!! 4 everyone!!!

OnCe aGaIn..

2009-03-10T03:48:00.001+08:00

sorry readers..

im jus once again.. too tired 2 blogggg...

btw u look at the time tt i signed off and bloggg.. its ridiculous..

projects ar just killin me~~

arRRRRRRGggggHHHHHH!!!!!!

off to catch a 2 hr slp.. b4 i chiong backkk 2 sch..

mY w0rK sTyLe

2009-03-06T23:39:00.003+08:00

took it from the quiz link of facebook.. but instead of doin the quiz tt i was told.. i took somethin else.. lolzz.. here's the somethin else..

Your Working Style
You are an ingenious innovator who always sees new possibilities and new ways of doing things. You have a lot of imagination and initiative for starting projects and a lot of impulsive energy for carrying them out. You are sure of the worth of your inspirations and tireless with the problems involved. You are stimulated by difficulties and most ingenious in solving them. You enjoy feeling competent in a variety of areas and value this in other as well.

You are extremely perceptive about the attitudes of other people, and can use this knowledge to win support for your projects. You aim to understand rather than to judge people. Your energy comes from a succession of new interests and your world is full of possible projects. You may be interested in so many different things that you have difficulty focusing. Your thinking can then help you select projects by supplying some analysis and constructive criticism of your inspirations, and thus add depth to the insights supplied by your intuition. Your use of thinking also makes you rather objective in your approach to your current project and to the people in your lives.
You are not likely to stay in any occupation that does not provide many new challenges. With talent, you can be inventor, scientist, journalist, troubleshooter, marketer, promoter, computer analysts, or almost anything that it interests you to be.

A difficulty for you is that you hate uninspired routine and find it remarkably hard to apply yourself to sometimes necessary detail unconnected with any major interest. Worse yet, you may get bored with your own projects as soon as the major problems have been solved or the initial challenge has been met. You need to learn to follow through, but are happiest and most effective in jobs that permit one project after another, with somebody else taking over as soon as the situation is well in hand.

Because you are always being drawn to the exciting challenges of new possibilities, it is essential that you develop your judgment. If your judgment is undeveloped, you may commit yourself to ill-chosen projects, fail to finish anything, and squander your inspirations on incompleted tasks.

WeIgHt oPiNi0nS

2009-02-28T11:07:00.002+08:00

i mus admit it.. i cannot hide my slim stature in the midst of all my friendz.. and when i ask the rest wat they tink abt THEIR weight.. i've got several interestin feedbacks..

Gal 1: i am not fat.. im jus short and therefore i look fat.. at home they call me chubby..

Gal 2: yeah im wanted to lose 10kg this yr... but my fav food is chocolate..

Gal 3: do u tink im fat?? i tink i've grown fatter.. wat do u tink?? (if i sayyy yes.. i'll hurt her.. if i say no.. she'll not belive herself... HOW??)

Gal 4: wahhh u ar almost the same weight as me lor.. im goin 2 do some exercise later!!

Guy 1: i used 2 b veriii fat.. and when i eat alot i'll become fat... I HATE U WHEN IT COMES TO EATING!!

(for those of u who noe who they ar... PLS DUN MENTION NAMES.. this is 2 protect the integrity of my friendz... and in the midst of the above mentioned ar some of my blogggg readers...)

let me share wif u a short testimony of 1 of my friendz who can lose weight successfully..

cong (aka zhen cong) my all time friendz and gddd friendz.. used 2 b slightly overweight in all his yrs in sec sch.. durin sec sch he barely made it in his 2.4km runs.. when he is in the army he struggled to pass his IPPT.. but somethin changed when he decides 2 take on an interestin sport..

that is.. to participate in marathons..

tt changed his course and his lifestyle.. he ate healthily.. he had little or no change in his diet.. and slowly but surely over a few mths he slimmed down so much tt it is to the obvious tt he's so fit.. rite now he's still actively participatin in the marathons.. and when i tink tt backkk in those daes when i laugh at his weight... it seems so irrelevant rite now..

and thus a well tonned body deserves a gddd gf.. lolzz.. so its abt exercisin and workin out dilligently.. goin on diet do not realli help much...

tHe sLeEp IsSuE

2009-02-26T23:22:00.006+08:00

so as the daes goes by in SIM.. i became increasingly frustrated wif all the work pile tt i hav..

the prob is NOT the difficulty and the depth of the subject.. its all the repetitive and strenous stuff tt u hav 2 go thru tt makes u feel stupid and u realize tt after fulfilling all those criteria u felt like a fool.. realli..

like.. y ar u doin all this??

i noe i hav been grumblin and rumblin recently.. perhaps im jus too stressed out..

or perhaps.. its the body adjustments..

i do not stay awake at late nites till midnite.. backkk in my sch days my body KO-ed at 10pm.. in the army the body Ko-ed at 1030pm or 11pm.. but after i ORD.. i realize tt i hav 2 stay up late at nite till 11 plus and 12 midnite was jus the earliest time 2 KO.. so usu i will slp at ard 1am or so.. and wake up at 7 plus in a daze.. not takin any breakfast and rush 2 sch..

if i were 2 go backkk 2 my old slp time.. means i hav to: sacrifice facebook-ing (see its all becoz of facebook!! man!! its worse than smokin and drugs.. got me addicted sooo muchhhh tt i felt tt i couldnt live w/o it somehow or rather late in the nites..) and msn-ing.. (now this is also a huddle.. though not as jialat as facebook.. but yahzz.. it realli helps me 2 stay connected wif the ppl.. and i cannot sayyyy who they ARE.. this is a public blogggg... u noe...)

or izzit perhaps its my great and mighty ASUS laptop.. which is jus onli a little lower than the angels and greater than myself??

rEaLiSeD

2009-02-25T23:37:00.002+08:00

4 all these while.. i was wonderin.. y the class is so diff from the rest of the poly classmates tt i knew of.. and 2dae.. i jus found out the answer..

our tutor was askin us 2 write down our life purpose.. which is required of our portfolio submission.. i realised tt most of them haven realli tot abt it.. and when each grp were told 2 reveal their ans.. i got a shock tt most of them wanted 2 "live life 2 the fullest.. live for 2dae and live wif no regrets.."

now when i was in poly.. i saw big egos.. the students wanted somethin biggg in their lives.. they wanted 2 hav an establish career in the future and they hav been demandin themselves in their coursework and their exams... they jus wanted 2 put each other down so tt they can look gddd and b at the top.. it was intense competition and rivalry.. at the end of the dae.. they jus wanted 2 b elites in the corporate ladder and becomin successful in their area of specialization..

not so 4 this course..

i hav been hearin statements like, "we hav onli 1 life 2 live.. we mus try everythin. we mus b adventurous.." this is an attitude of NOT knowin wat u wan.. there ar so mani things in the world?? question.. when is enough enough?? izzit when nothin realli amazes u anymore??? izzit when u hav seen everythin?? tink abt it.. those of u who ar extremely adventurous.. and thinkin of fun all dayyy longgg.. so wat if u tried everythin and could not decide wat is gddd 4 u??

i noe it sounds a bit harshhh.. but face it.. we ar staringgg hard into a cruel reality.. by not addressin issues of our soul... we can lose ourselves and lose our identity.. i'll rather the class hav biggg egos.. biggg dreams.. but i noe they jus wouldnt step out into this real world and confront their challenges face 2 face.. but if they dun.. they jus b devoured by those who do.. and they'll find themselves becomin victims of those who make use of others 2 succeed..

lastly.. 4 the rest of my friendz.. those of u who ar still in fantasy lalaland livin like u dunno wat u ar livin for.. snap backkk 2 reality and feel the gravity pullin u down from ur toes.. u jus dunno wat u ar doin.. success is always 99% of hardd workk.. and fantasies and success do not exist in the same dimension..

DuLL TuEsDaY

2009-02-24T09:44:00.003+08:00

im findin waysss 2 entertain myself rite now..

becoz my class is too borin liaoz!!!

ohhh ohhh ohh.. i 4got...

i jus came back from batam!! it's my 1st time there!!

alrite.. i noe u guys will tink im suaku or somethin.. but yahzz.. its my 1st time there and it was a gddd exp.. it'll b great if i hav the finances so tt i can go there 2 rest and relax..

the pace of life in batam is verii slow.. emily mentioned tt even the mosquitoes fly slowly becoz of the laid backk culture tt was set in batam.. and food there was cheap.. O food o Glorious food.. lolzz.. gddd 4 some one who can eat alot and doesnt grow fattt!!!! (who ahz??)

but goin there for 1 dae feels like we hav already enjoyed ourselves for a few daes already.. its a diff kind of feelin and 4 the 1st time.. i feel quite satisfied in an overseas trip.. usu i dun... lolzz

i do not hav photos wif me.. didnt realli bringgg a camera alonggg and snap shots.. but if u wan.. jus stay tuned 4 my pics in facebook.. if got chance and time i'll prob post them here.. lolzz

sooryyyy 4 all those who dun like lengthy descriptions!!!! :P

WaY t00 LaTe??

2009-02-18T21:17:00.003+08:00

its been 7 weeks since the course started in SIM.. recently.. a tot kept frustratin me abt the course.. WHY AM I IN THIS??

man.. i should b in RMIT 4 God's sake.. after some time i came 2 realize tt in business u can enter into hospitality but in hospitality.. its rather diff 2 enter into business.. by choosing this course i realized tt i am choosin 2 specialize in this field and close some doors in my options of workk..

man.. means the onli wayyy 4 me rite now is 2 move forward.. and NOT look backkk..

how 2 NOT look backkk?? almost every module relates 2 business.. and time and again i hav 2 rely on my previous knowledge 2 backk me up on certain facts and assignments tt the lecturers requires of us.. the past few daes of lessons jus brought me backk 2the poly days where i hav learnt all these facts and knowledge from somewhere but i cant rem when and where.. ohh well..

and i come 2 realize tt i can potentially exempt myself from 5 modules: resorts ops, entrepreneurship, HR, finance and MICE mgt.. all these were a metaphor of wat i hav learnt in poly: Clubs & Resorts, Business Entrepreneurship, Human resource Admin and Devt, Business finance and Event Mgt... if onli i speak 2 this matter 2 veron, my prog coordinator.. perhaps.. i do not need 2 do all THOSE PROJECTS?? OR EVEN EXAMS?? MAYBE JUST ONLY THE F&B MODULES?? i seriously dunno.. perhaps the 17k of sch fees consists of the whole package.. where there ar no exemptions watsoever?? (But tink abt it.. 5 modules exempted.. jus like tt.. and go 2 switz.. wow!! means i could use this time and find some work ehhh??)

nevertheless.. i jus take it tt im some repeat student in this course.. goin thru all the motions once again.. but this time i'll engage myself 2 a "do or die" mode.. as if tt "if i dun pass, i cant progress.. no way.." tt kinda mentality.. hope tt helps.. ahhhh well..

HaPpY 4 aNd 23

2009-02-15T22:12:00.002+08:00

my bloggg is 4 yrs old already!! and 2dae is my blogg's bdae!!

happi bdae 2 u~~
happi bdae 2 u~~
happi bdae 2 my bloggie~~
happi bdae 2 u~~!!!

i had a greattt bdae week!! Here's the recap..

Day 0
met up wif my sentosa lovelyyys~!! i was rather surprised tt they could all turn up.. becoz usu they will say tt they ar busyz and so on.. but i was realli happi tt they could come.. we jus spent a couple of hrs eatin.. talkin.. takin pics.. the gals realli enjoyed them selves.. the food.. the company and all.. edwin was there.. he was happi.. seein them all so happi.. i 4got all abt my projects already.. (oops..) i realli miss all of u so much~!!!!!

after dinner michelle went home 1st!!! so shockin.. we had other ideas though.. went 2 suntec starbucks.. renqi joyce edwin and me were jus talkin and enjoyin each other company.. i jus wish there was more time though.. when i go 2 switz.. i can onli take these memories away..

gals and guy.. we should meet up again..

Day 1
i spent the whole day online.. lolzz.. becoz lessons were jus plain borin.. i log in to facebook 2 reply all my happi bdae msgs.. its so funni.. fengmei even complained tt i onlined too often.. lolzz.. i realli thank all those who had msged me.. i tink abt 1am jiayan and erika msg me and wif my ever loud ringtone i kinda felt frustrated initially.. but when i saw its a bdae greetin my heart melt.. and i jus went back 2 slp wif smiles..

in the evenin.. i went 2 kushin-bo and celebrated wif my parents.. my bro ORD-ed on this day too!! so tt's a call 4 a double celebration in the family.. lolzz.. and kushin-bo was realli realli realllllii gddd.. it was perhaps the best buffet dinner i ever had.. i ate so much sashimi.. so much fondue.. so much high exquisite taste dishes until my stomach became super bloated.. if i had the finances i would come backk 2 this place again though.. and mum also enjoyed the dinner too.. coz usu when she's not happi she will yank and bragg abt the food and all.. but 2dae she sang so much priases and jus happily..

Day 2
i was realli lookin 4ward 2 this one..

classes ended at ard 4 plus.. i waited 4 cherlyn 2 end her classes in sch and we can go 2 my birthday KTV celeb.. but i wanted 2 go 2 a restaurant at upp thomson 2 borrow a menu 4 my proj purposes.. we got lost.. we walked 4 quite awhile.. and yet we couldn't get it!!!! argghhhhhhhh~~ i was so pissed..

but when i step into the ktv room.. wooooo~~!! i felt everythin had jus stopped as the 6 of us once again united 2 singggg like we left the world behind.. we sang.. jumpeed.. rocked.. did watever possible except jumpin on the sofas and tables.. lolzz..

our friendship had lasted for ard 5 yrs already... though we knew each other for 9yrs.. apart from my sentosa lovelyyyyss.. this grp of friendz is da BEST!! i jus couldnt bearrr leave all of them.. (now once again.. y the heck do i choose 2 go 2 switz?? haizzz..) 4gettin all of u?? OVER MY DEAD BODY!!!

Day 3
i suffered the post after effects of a wonderful celeb for the past few daes.. esp when we sang KTV 2gether till 2am.. went 2 sch stoned..

SIM classmates were nice.. celeb my bdae 4 me.. but too bad no cameras ar available.. but anyway it was a great bdae celeb wif them.. i told all of them, "we'll all go SWITZERLAND 2gether!!" and they all roared.. 4 a moment i sounded like barack obama.. lolzz..

in the evenin its a combination of daryl yuka and mine bdae.. xue liang 4 some reason felt tt i was shortchanged but i told him it was ok.. i had great celebs wif my friendz already.. this wan doesnt bother me much.. after which went 2 watch a movie till late nite.. some of the ppl went 4 supper after tt.. i've got classes.. i had 2 retire 4 the dae..

once again.. thanks 4 all those gifts.. and make the celebs a memorable one..

n0t WaT I'vE eXpEcTeD

2009-02-12T00:14:00.002+08:00

1st of all.. a veriii BIG THANK U 4 those who rem my birthday.. well 4 those who 4get.. i dun wish 2 say anythin further.. period

so far i've received bdae greetings from..
- sec 1 pei dao friendz ronghua
- sec sch SRS friendz
- poly friendz
- my fav angieeee~!!!
- willy (he wished me in every area of communications.. phone + facebook + blogg)
- my sentosa lovelyyyyys
- the special lovelyyyyy (awarded the longest bdae wish prize)
- BMT friendz
- UOB colleague MK
- N435
- S25 Michelle
- CCH Ministry friendz
- current classmates in SIM

However, in the midst of it, i realize tt there's one particular grp of friendz tt hav been wif me IN CHURCH 4 so at least a few yrs already.. and yet i've heard no news abt them (pardon me if im bitter.. but the closer ur friendz.. the bigger the disappointment when they fail 2 deliver..)

could it b tt when im wif them, our relationship is jus a mere work relationship?? so everythin was so UNREAL.. i need sincere friendz.. i dunwan "plastics" in my life (Right sentosa lovelyyss??) btw if u ar a plastic.. let me tell u tt u will b so disappointed.. u cant gain anythin from me and u cant benefit urself.. u'll end up miserable..

kudos 2 all who rem.. some of u not met 4 a longgg time.. some of u i known u 4 less than 1 yr.. my classmates!! only 1 mth plus!! thanks!! and my sentosa lovelyyyysss!! once again thank u verii verii the much~!!!

i had a great bdae.. life could b better w/o them..

To0 BuSyZ

2009-02-10T18:42:00.001+08:00

im so busyzz..

and icant tell u how busyz i am..

mayb i'll use abit of analogies..

its like im busyz until im so jialat
its like im busyz until i no time 2 bloggg
its like im busyz until i no time 2 flirt ard
its like im busyz until i hav 2 stop here..

alrite..

tt's the end..

bBaLL p0LiTiCiAnS

2009-02-03T23:20:00.003+08:00

i believe u guys had heard of barrack obama playin basketball.. but how gddd of a player is he?? i hav actualli found an article on Hoopedia.. a bball website which is affliated to NBA.COM.. so here's the analysis..

Obama began playing as a child. He had a Dr. J poster on his bedroom wall. His nickname was "Barry O'Bomber." He played for for his high school, the Punahou School, which won the 1979 Hawaii state championship. Though a good ballplayer, the team was loaded with talent, and Obama contributed only two points in the state championship game.

As a law student at Harvard University he learned to play under pressure. He played on a team of law students who took on a team of prisoners. The cons who lined the prison yard court loudly reminded the Harvard boys that they had cigarettes riding on the outcome.

If you ever get the chance to go up against him, here's the book on The President:

He's a natural leftie, who likes to fake right and go left.
Quick, self-confident, good wind, nice left-handed jumper.
On defense, he is not shy about tugging on a shirt or using his elbows.

The Times interviewed former NBA All-Star Rickey Green, who has played with Obama. His assessment: "He’s above average, he’s got a nice little left-hand shot and some knowledge of the game."

Source: http://hoopedia.nba.com/index.php?title=Barack_Obama

Another well known US politician, Sarah Palin, is also a gd bball player.. here's the report:

At Wasilla High School in Wasilla, Alaska, Palin was the head of the school Fellowship of Christian Athletes. She was the point guard and captain for the basketball team. She helped the Wasilla Warriors win the Alaska Class 4A (the smallest schools) Girls state championship in 1982, beating Anchorage's Service High School, 58-53. Sarah Heath hit a critical free throw in the last seconds, despite a stress fracture in her ankle. She earned the nickname "Sarah Barracuda" because of her intense play, and was the leader of team prayer before games.

Source: http://hoopedia.nba.com/index.php?title=Sarah_Palin

P.S She had the same birthday as me!! mayb i'll b a politican someday tt noes how 2 play bball?? lolzz..

LeSs0n DiSaStEr

2009-01-31T22:54:00.002+08:00

finance lesson is a disaster 2dae.. classes is gettin from badd 2 worse.. from an hyped up anthony poh 2 some one who jus tok and teach and lose its passion 4 students.. its definitely a decline of interest to the class.. well aniwae the class werent helpin tt much either.. our eyes ar glued 2 our laptops for facebook and msn and other websites while our ears seems 2 listenin and occasionally.. our eyes is on him and our mind is outside of the classroom and our soul is on the bed..

Xinhong would prob kill me.. or prob all the students in the class when he sees the finance lessons in such a state.. he'll prob start his mentoring 101 stuff or tell the students 2 read his bloggg... lolzz

anyway i was arrowed 2 ans 1 of the review qns..

lecturer (AP): "Zheng Wei!!"

me: (didnt hear anythin.. continue 2 glue my eyes on polly's game)

classmate (wenbin) : "hey Zheng Wei!!"

me: "Ahhh yes??" (lookin around, puzzled..)

AP: "is there a zheng wei ard?? ohh there u ar.. so wats the ans??"

me: "ermm.. for wat qn.."

AP: "wat is 'fanni mae' and what type of market is it??"

me: "ermm.. fannie mae.. lets see.. mortgage mkt?? got involved in financial troubles last yr...."

AP: "i hav actualli given u all notes abt Fannie Mae..."

i shook my head.. these finance lessons ar indeed borin and i jus couldnt absorb properly.. i felt tt i would b well off jus readin the txt bk and doin the tutorial qns.. but then again.. i couldnt answer the qn properly.. i stare into despair by watchin polly's game on my laptop.. y am i here 2dae?? on a sat afternoon somemore~~

now xinhong would realli kill me for the wayy i ans the qn durin the lesson..

Fr0m LaSt Wk.. TiLL n0w

2009-01-28T20:18:00.002+08:00

ok jus some quick updates wat i did from last wk till now (ok mayb some of u dun care anyways, but this is my bloggg.. i'll bloggg em anyways..)

wed: reached sch and realize tt i didnt bring my phone.. quickly rush home after class 2 get it.. this is the 1st time i took a cab from SIM 2 home.. its realli exx (i wont do it again.. jus a few more $$ i could hav used it 4 the trip 2 Jurong West..) reached home.. found my phone.. relieved.. then i realize tt i 4got 2 bring my external hard disk home.. quickly call wenbin 2 help me find in the class and thank God he found.. it was disastrous..

thurs: the classmates ar all havin SUBWAY 4 lunch.. i jus dun get the idea where ppl would willingly spend more $$ for more VEGETABLES and BREAD?? anyways they ar buyin backk and eatin in class so i grabbed a packet of nasi lemak and the SUBWAY cookies (man they ar realli gddd.. this is the onli stuff tt is worth the buy...) and wat i've bought had attracted alot of attention due 2 the fact where they measure my appetite vs. my size and they felt disgusted.. in simple terms.. how come i wouldn't grow FATTT despite eatin the whole lot of themm i wouldnt tink so much abt it anyways, i'll jus eat!!! hahahah

fri: went down 2 orchard 4 dinner wif some of the cg ppl.. zen was wif me as he was also headin 2 orchard 2 meet his mum.. we had a gddd tok in starbucks and i realli felt tt he is a great pal.. lolzz.. thank God 4 zen.. met up wif a couple of familiar faces.. 1st is qinwei.. who was shoppin on the way.. and then danial the thunthigh.. he is actualli a sales person in the FILA outlet in takashimaya.. had a gddd dinner at crystal jade la mian.. after which we went 4 some coffee at spinelli @ HMV and we went home thereafter..

sat: wooo!! CNY service!! this yr's a little diff.. we sing more chi new yr songz wif abit of Godly creativity.. hahaha.. met wayne choong (the ultimate hunk of CHC, who's attached 2 my CGL!!!) and we greeted one another.. pastor preached chinese words this session and it was terrific!!! super terrific!! sermon of the yr wif those chinese history!! (of coz, by this time u do not noe tt chi literature is my fav, u can go bangg urself against a wall...) and after i went home.. i added wayne on facebook.. which he accepted thereafter!! (angie mus b thrilled when she sees this..)

sun: stayed at home.. spring cleanningggg... thank God i could clear everythin in a twink of an eye.. at 3pm we hav our reunion lunch-dinner.. dad prepared so much foodd until i was absolutely bloated.. i hav nv eaten so many abalones b4... haahah.. and declare a facebook msg wif a strong meaning, "i'll bet a wager wif all my friendz out there, i would not grow FATTTT this CNY!!!! hahahahahahahahahaha!!!!"

mon: ang pao collec.. no no sorry sorry.. its CNY!!! lolzz.. this yr i couldnt believe the amt i had!! its my all-time record for the past 23 yrs of my life!! well perhaps it onli indictaes 1 thing.. tt this yr i reap a greattt "harvest".. i wouldnt b able 2 do tt nxt yr unless i do visitation in switzerland.. but of coz.. i hope tt the europeans would celebrate this festive occasion by sendin out ang pows.. of coz.. it doesnt matter if its CNY anot.. i'll b a happi man who can receive ang pows from many manyyyyy generous givers!!! lolzz.. this yr the cousins had their own agendas.. esp those who ar attached already..

yesterday: hav a greattt evenin wif cherlyn and friendz.. (tt UB bloke mus b cursing and swearin behind my backkk..) brought them 2 an esplanade restaurant named 7atenine.. the atmosphere and food was not baddd.. but cherlyn kept complainin abt the service tt's not gddd there.. i felt abit odd though comin 2 a somewhat-fine-dining-setting-with-a-stinky-face-waiter restaurant.. we actualli stayed there for almost 2 hrs and the bill was 150 for the 4 of us.. we tot it was cheap though.. i tot it was ok.. but since cherlyn had a baddd impression.. so it was jus fine after all.. went 2 take some photos at the river hongbao b4 we head down 2 esplanade again 4 some desserts at chocz.. spent another $44 on those and then we went home.. and then we realize tt we were actualli quite loaded durin this period of time..

2dae: went out wif my family 2 sit on the singapore flyer.. we were so busyzz takin pics on the flyer and when we reached the end pt.. we found tt it was actualli nothin muchh.. lolzz.. had porridge buffet at suntec and then movie "love matters" at marina.. it was ok.. not as impressive as "money no enough 2" and after the movie i decided 2 rush home and do my workk.. still abit unmotivated 2 do.. therefore i blogg!! hahaha.. but i couldnt bloggg anymore liaoz.. else i hav no time 2 do my work!!!

tHe MiLeSt0nE

2009-01-20T21:55:00.002+08:00

on jan 18, 2004.. i gave my heart 2 Jesus.. and the rest is history..

time flies.. after my poly and my army it has been 5 yrs already.. now in 2009.. im studyin in SIM university..

i always tot tt i could handle everythin tt the wrold throws on me.. i always imagine and tink 4 the best tt i noe how.. i used 2 believe for the radical and wildest success i could get from this world.. knowin God is for me.. nothin is impossible..

ahhh.. how this thinkin changes rapidly but gradually..

now im still stuck in my sea of projects..clearly knowin tt excellence takes harddd work.. deep research and a resourceful thinkin and mindset.. i wish tt i had all those when i was younger.. so tt i would not hav 2 walk this route tt always lead me 2 frustration.. confusion and even anger..

yet in all these turmoil tt im facin.. i jus wan 2 thank and appreciate God tt He had actually set His grace upon me.. and gave me all His love so tt i could move on.. everyday im jus so grateful.. i once tot tt i couldnt move on and face life.. but God jus love me as i am and strengthen the work of my hands.. and so i've tasted the ups and downs all these yrs.. and when im down im nv depressed.. coz i noe tt tomolo is always diff from 2dae..

this yr shall b diff.. gone were the daes where i fool ard enjoyin myself knowin all the facts and doctrines of a gddd personality.. now my mind is already set on the future career tt i wan 2 b.. i shall set upon it and work towards it.. motivation shan't b a prob 4 me.. its the depth and knowledge abt how far and how deep i wan 2 achieve.. i realized tt i could not set a goal and prepare everythin tt i need and yield the results tt's shortcomin.. therefore my biggest challenge is to set the goal, get wat i need and yield the RIGHT results..

Happy 5th christian birthday to me!!! hahaha..

tHiS cHiNeSe NeW yR

2009-01-18T22:12:00.002+08:00

i felt kinda saddd when chinese new yr is comin.. (dun get me wrong... im still expectin a huge amt of my ang pao $$$.. lolzz) but the CNY spirit or atmosphere is jus not there in me.. despite all the decorations and CNY songz tt were broadcasted.. im not interested in 1 bit..

y izzit realli so??

could it be the mountain load of sch work i hav 2 handle?? 8 modules and countless assignments.. i could not take them lightly.. there's so much work 2 do.. even though tomolo there ar no classes.. i still hav 2 rush down 2 bugis earli in the mornin 2 discuss on our projects.. this means tt the hectic life goes on after goin thru a crazy 36 hr study wk last wk..]

could it b a loss of the CNY spirit?? for the past yrs CNY has not been verii effective.. my cousins my bro and me goes somewhere else every yr instead of stickin wif our parents and relatives.. this yr most likely it'll b the same.. last yr we went 2 play LAN at parklane and as i dun DOTA or play strategic war gamin i ended up playin arcade by myself.. lolzz..

or could it b i jus wan my life 2 b occupied by things?? i dun wish 2 tink anythin else.. i dun wish 2 b jus settin myself 2 relax.. once i noe there's work 2 do.. my mind cant rest.. there ar so mani things 2 tink of.. but all those tt ar not impt.. all those tt hav no meanings or i feel tt "it is not constructive" then i'll jus throw away 1 side.. but anyway it's jus subconsciously bein uneasy.. despite the fact tt i bragged abt the work i hav earlier on..

watever it is.. i hope tt this yr CNY will turn out 2 b gdddd..

MeEtInGs

2009-01-14T23:22:00.003+08:00

now b4 i go on.. i would like 2 define the term "meetings"

according to the merriam-webster dictionary.. the definition of a meeting is an act or process of coming together as an assembly for common purpose (as worship)

usually.. the sequence goes like this in a meeting in a corporate sector:

- members of the meeting arrives punctually, seated down and started

- appointed members of the meeting will speak and give presentations and reports. At any point of time, members of the meeting were not allowed to speak except those who had higher authority than the appointed speakers

- the leader of the meeting will then address the issues pertaining, thus giving feedback 2 the members in the meeting.. minutes ar actualli taken from the secretary..

- the members will then raise concerns and questions over the words from the leader.. after which the meeting is over..

therefore the members of the meeting would not noe wats the purpose of the meeting till it was revealed at the words of the leader or worse still, at the end of the meeting..

however.. cell grp meetings ar conducted like this..

- members of the cell grp arrives, be it late or punctual, seated down and started. so there's praise and worship..

- members ar allowed 2 share their lives testimonies.. whenever they hav somethin tt's worth 2 share 2 glorify God.. however.. some may argue tt the the sharing is actualli appointed by God Himself.. as it was God tt bless us on the work of our hands..

- the leader of the cell grp will then share the word of God.. a metaphor 2 the issues pertaining.. however.. no secretary was present (or even appointed) to take down the minutes but rather.. it was the members tt were takin down minutes, or rather notes of the sermon.. lolzz

- the members would rarely raise concerns and issues abt the sermon, and the cell grp leader ensures tt the whole cell grp understands the sermon.. not 2 4get there's the offering.. and after which is fellowship..

members of a cell grp will not noe the purpose of a cell grp meeting and would not noe until they hav a revelation from God as it was not preached.. (note: it was onli preached of the purpose and the existence of a cell group.. not a cell group meeting.. i hope u guys can see the difference..)

now which is wrong in the usage of the word "meeting"?? izzit the corporate sector or the cell groups? if so, what word should be replaced?

i do not noe abt this matter.. will hav 2 seek clarification from my beloved readers..

cUrReNtLy LiStEnInG aNd rEaDiNg

2009-01-13T23:52:00.003+08:00

am currently listenin 2 this.. the lyrics ar realli touchin and meaningful..

am currently readin this:

there are realli some gddd statements writeen by CS lewis.. i need 2 take a longgg time 2 reflect on his words and digest them.. some of the words and terms he used were too atas liaoz.. Mr lewis words were realli deep and had more than 1 meanin.. its not easi 2 read finish 1 chapter of his book..

some of the sentences tt he wrote in the book tt realli captured me..

"Life has never been normal."

"If men had postponed the search for knowledge and beauty until they were secure, the search would never have begun"

I WaNt..

2009-01-10T23:09:00.002+08:00

its funni 2 see most ppl react to these 2 words differently wif the diff combinations of the words tt comes after..

now in the possession of perishable items or new items.. ppl ar certainly ok wif them.. examples like, "I want a new car," "i want a new watch," "I want a new handphone," ppl ar pretti ok wif the wants and desires tt their friendz hav requested.. after all.. at the end of the day.. it does not affect them verii much as they ar gettin new things.. new posessions tt would not directly affect their lives.. furthermore.. they need not oblige 2 help them get or even get it 4 them.. as somewhow deep down they knew tt they hav the means 2 get those things tt they wan.. if there ar other friendz or connections tt they knew, they would even gladly help out their friendz who wanted 2 possess the items tt they wan..

now think about the following wants that are mention below:

"I want to get straight As for my exams,"
"I want to lose 5 kg at the end of the year,"
"I want to pick up a new hobby,"

responses will be like,

"U sure anot?? gettin straight As?? U cant even get Bs for all ur subjects!!"
"U sure anot, lose 5 kg?? But u dun like to exercise!!"
"U sure anot, ar u sure u can do this??"

Now when things tt ppl wan ar without form or without shape.. ppl would jus criticize.. y would they not criticize ppl wanting to have more possessions?? After all these possessions would not nurture them but its all these dreams and visions tt they desire would develop them into a better person..

the correct way is to encourage the ppl 2 do and believe wat they believe.. and also help them whenever possible.. i believe u ppl knew tt all along.. but mayb u would jus wan 2 reflect: y do ppl criticize ideas, thoughts and dreams instead of criticizin possessions and things?

DeFiNiNg m0mEnTs 0f 2008

2009-01-07T23:40:00.003+08:00

jus 2 shelf it on the blogger archives and moving on with life..

10 positive moments i hav enjoyed in 2008, thank God 4 all these..

10: New handphone (November) - after using the old lao kok kok samsung hp and the nokia 2626 for a total of 2 yrs 2 mths.. i hav finally returned possessing a camera hp~~ and i so miss the cam function.. i hav been w/o knowledge on the best cam phone in the mkt but i thank God for my V9.. i do not expect much quality of a pic so longg as the major details can b seen..

9: Baptism (March) - finally i can declare my faith 2 the world.. daryl gave my baptism name as mark.. sayin tt i hav the looks of one.. thanks nigel for the photos and he's still usin THAT PIC of mine 4 his "ill-gotten gains" lolzz.. my parents were not surprised at all as they tot tt i hav actualli baptized longg time ago

8: EX Lancer (February) - they say tt after u hav been 2 brunei, u will become a true man. Once you have conquered it, there's nothing too difficult for you. The challenge was too climb up a steep Mount Biang with a super duper heavy field pack and to walk and climb the 7 mountains with that too. I almost gave up, but i thank God i didn't. Else i would not have become an overcomer..

7. EX High noon (April) - It's not as mentally and geographically tougher than LANCER, but its certainly a bigger challenge.. the total dist covered exceeded much and the cold weather makes it difficult.. at the final point.. i actualli fell 2 the grd relieved tt we hav reached.. and after the mission i felt tt i hav yet made another physical achievement.. not forgettin the great leisures tt the country hav 2 offer..

6: Willy's conference call prayer (the yr throughout) - this is the center of all great things ar birthed.. be it our ministry, cg or work.. at times where i was tired.. and i tot tt i couldn't get enuff slp.. or jus sacrificin my free time.. through it all its worthwhile.. hav we not prayed.. i doubt tt many greater things tt we do will b successful..

5: Back to tuition (July) - Ruth was so happy when she saw me back serving once more. I really thank God 4 her, though she's abit stern at times and critical.. i always hav somethin 2 learn and she'll always effectively correct my speakin bad habits.. new faces were everywhere as the old faces fade away.. the team of tutors got younger.. and i pray tt this yr they will lead the classes 2 an even greater academic excellence..

4: New Laptop (September) - My old computer had been serving me for 3 yrs and guess wat.. the motherboard was at a 478 series and it runs wif pentium 4.. its so old tt i tot it was obselete.. while i was braggin 2 my dad tt i need a new laptop 4 my uni.. he actualli agreed 2 get me one.. i jus love this ASUS.. let's hope it'll last me 2-3yrs from now..

3: Sentosa (November) - i was a temp job mercenary.. hoppin from company to company jus 2 earn some more $$$ 4 myself.. little did i noe i've got entangled wif a great social grp of friends/colleagues tt were gdd.. i couldn't recall a bad day tt i hav in Sentosa.. even if there was.. ppl like aunt jito and of coz michelle mei mei would brighten things up.. so its not so baddd after all.. its perhaps my most enjoyable job so farr..

2: Prep Course (September) - Initially it requires the student to be in a related diploma or possessing a business diploma but working in a hospitality industry for 2 yrs.. however.. everythin changed by the grace of God.. those wif business diplomas w/o work exp and those wif other tech diplomas were allowed 2 undergo the hospitality-tourism course with the criteria of undergoin a prep course.. realli thank God 4 a change of system.. now a new destiny awaits..

1: ORD!! (08 September 2008) - 2 years ago i stupidly surrendered my pink IC 2 this bloke and i've finally reunited with it!!! (i could hav feign mental sickness when they ask 4 it..) but its the end of the military regimental dumb system and culture as it was quickly forgotten.. the air i breathe in the civilian world is much better.. its simply the start of new and greater things tt is to come.. as i embark on a new journey of my life..

DuN b p0wErLeSs

2009-01-06T22:03:00.003+08:00

im quite inspired by the actions tt Mr Nathan illustrated 2 us durin 2dae's lecture.. as singaporeans.. we mus noe our rights.. once we knew what we hav.. we could do things our way..

here's a couple tt he shared wif us..

Mr Nathan had a phone call from an unknown caller.. knowin tt it was a scam or rather timesharing.. he actualli agreed wif the caller 2 go down 2 the office "to collect a pair of tickets 2 perth from a lucky draw tt he had won," when he reached there.. he saw many housewives watching a video on the company products jus as he expected.. so he approached the lady-in-charge and the conversation goes like this accordin 2 him:

Nathan: "Hi, i was told tt i could collect my tickets 2 perth,"

Lady: "oh no, sir, u hav 2 watch our video first,"

Nathan: "no, i was told 2 come here and receive the tickets, i wasn't told tt i will be watching a video,"

lady, "oh no sir, watch the video 1st, then the tickets will be given,"

Nathan, "don't u understand wat i say? i did not come here 2 watch the video!! i was told by the caller tt i could come here and claim the tickets! now where are my tickets? Give it to me or u all will b in trouble!"

the lady freaked out.. went to call her mgr.. the mgr came and he somewhat look like a bouncer accordin 2 Mr Nathan

Nathan (at the top of his voice) : "look, the caller rang me up and say tt i could redeem my TICKETS 2 PERTH in a lucky draw.. now u guys wan me 2 watch the video..i didn't come here 2 watch the video.. im only here 2 get my tickets 2 perth.."

mgr aka bouncer: "oh no sir, there mus b a mistake.."

Nathan: "no how can this b a mistake? the caller called my handphone twice, she said clearly tt i would jus hav 2 come down and redeem my tickets.."

at this time the housewives ar already lookin at the whole lot of them.. so the mgr brought Mr Nathan 2 a secluded place 2 tok..

Nathan: "look, i can charge you with 2 things - firstly, u got my handphone through an unauthorized manner where my no. is supposed 2 b confidential.. secondly ur caller told me CLEARLY tt i hav 2 come here onli 2 redeem the tickets.. so i suggest u better giv me the tickets or i'll bring this matter up 2 my lawyers.."

the mgr freaked out.. thus he gave the tickets as was told..

on another occasion.. he was proposing tt the hotel staffs of a certain htl ar to hav training sessions and thus they need 2 hav an xtra 3 days off for thje selected staffs.. the mgrs all agreed.. but they would hav 2 obtain permission from the head mgr.. it was told tt the head mgr was a fearsome person as she was not a person 2 tok to..

Mr Nathan decided tt he should speak tactfully 2 her and so he started by givin her a call..

the phone did not pick up.. he tried again and it was in vain.. at the 3rd time he left a msg on her voice call and still she did not call back..

frustrated.. he managed 2 get contacts from the lower lvl staffs 2 ask abt her whereabouts.. and the secretary replied tt she was actualli in her room.. so Mr Nathan told the secretary this,

Nathan: "ask her 2 call me regardin the trainin proposal by tomolo, if she doesn't, i will contact wif the papers and tell them tt this certain htl would not grant their staff an xtra 3 days leave for trainin.."

within 10min the head mgr called.. she apologizes profusely and gave excuses tt they were coordinatin some talks and sales from clients and she went on and approved the training prog..

pastor was right saying tt "knowledge is power", when u ar resourceful and u noe wat 2 do.. u wont b helpless in situation such as these..

SeRvAnTh0oD

2009-01-04T19:39:00.003+08:00

im so stuck 2 this songz..

2dae as we hav a combined thanksgivin cg.. am quite disappointed when i dun receive any prize for recognition of my hard work.. but jus now God remind me tt "do i serve for the clock (which is the gift of appreciation) or eternity??"

tt realli struck me harddd in my mind.. i could hav done even better..

and i realli do.. coz 4 the past few daes in m'sia.. a sentence from the book "romance of the 3 kingdoms" tt's always lingering in my mind..

"臣安敢不竭股肱之力，尽忠贞之节，继之以死乎!"

(i could never do otherwise than wear myself to the bone in the service of your son, whom i will serve to death.)

this statement was made when zhu-ge liang was at the deathbed of Liu Bei, the first emperor of the empire of Shu. Zhu-ge liang, the legendary military tactician, continued 2 place himself at the foot of the emperor's throne even though the emperor was onli 15 years old.. all these he did was becoz of his affection and kindness tt Liu Bei had shown me all these yrs..

how much more we should b committed 2wards God when He love us so much tt He sent his only begotten Son to die for us on the cross..

from this sentence.. i realized there ar 3 lessons 2 learn..

1.serve wif all ur heart and all ur strength - zhu-ge liang served the young emperor all the days of his life even though the emperor do not noe much abt political affairs and governing its state.. Jesus says tt we should love God wif all our heart and all our soul.. and when we love God.. we love His people.. so when we serve the people wif all our heart and all our strength.. we ar actualli doin unto God..

2.serve wif loyalty - zhu-ge liang did not serve 4 power and riches, even though he had all rights to do so. When the first emperor of Shu died, he told zhu-ge liang tt he could take the throne for himself if his heir is a fool. Apparently, the heir is indeed a fool when he does not care anythin abt the state matters. However, zhu-ge liang did not claim the throne 4 himself but instead he served the best he can.. Jesus says tt we cannot serve God and riches at the same time.. wat gd is there when a man gained the whole world and loses his own soul??

3.serve wif all ur life - most ppl did the 2 points tt was above but they didnt do this one. As promotion and prestige kicks in, they tend to be lose their original humility tt was demonstrated 2 others and they start actin as if they ar someone impt.. even thoughzhu-ge liang was the prime minister... he still continued 2 serve the wishes of the late Emperor of conquering the late emperor and he died in his own army camp where he could hav stayed at his own office and work.. if i grew old.. i do not wan 2 die at home.. it would b glorious 2 giv the best 2 God in the mission fields and then die somewhere out there returnin home in a coffin.. like Jesus.. i do wan 2 serve God no matter wat status am i holdin..

i do not hav a proper lesson on servanthood.. but i realize tt the 3 things ar the essence of successful servanthood... i always admire my connect grp leader willy as he is a model faithful servant of God in my life.. he gave his best.. he doesnt complains.. he expects nothin.. and wat realli makes me satisfied is tt the person is satisfied wif the service.. i do not need any compliments.. neither would i complain at my weariness.. but i'll serve.. for eternity..

MiSSiN SeNt0sA

2008-12-31T22:39:00.004+08:00

attn: to sales & cashier office

finally.. i hav time 2 bloggg~!!!

time waits no man.. suddenly its 31st of dec already..

working in sentosa could b history after the 8th of jan.. watever the decision is i put it in God's hands.. but i noe tt im no more the one tt the sales ppl look to for the tickets tt's required 4 printin.. it'll b handed back 2 master edwin..

and i'll miss the printin sounds from the machines.. the interfaces of the ticket reps.. the features of the tickets.. the enjoyable conversations of auntie jito and the blabbering of uncle tan..

and of coz the sales gals.. the one who pops out of nowhere like a phantom and sit in front of the cashier office quietly writing her book.. and the one who always got screwed and haywired becoz of her malaysia tours and the ONLY ONE who barge in rudely into the cashier office and make a mockery out of herself before stomping out (and i'll nv 4get tt DAY when she carried those biggg empty cartons out of the office like a garang guni women to dispose.. come 2 tink of it.. tt's so shockin and hilarious.. its hilariously shocking~~~)

as its the last dae of my part time work on a regular basis.. some things had actualli happened in the mornin 2dae.. i actualli talk 2 gerard for the 1st time.. one of the most respectable sales mgr in sentosa.. i've heard abt him but i nv had a chance 2 talk 2 him.. so 2dae when i went 2 enquire some matters of his ticket reps.. i found tt he is actualli quite a cool and easi goin guy.. he's not as fearsome and scary as he seems 2 b.. (joyce mus b overjoyed when she see this.. lolzz)

and uncle tan was as his usual self blaming others of the errors he made except himself.. the offline credit card machine had actualli some probs and he blamed the customers credit card 4 not bein valid.. and so mr gerard went 2 the cashier office 2 see wat's goin on.. after much explanation.. gerard then told uncle tan 2 try authorizin his OWN credit card.. so after keyin in the credit card no AS SHOWN TO HIM usin the offline charge machine.. he realized tt the machine was at fault as the statements of yesterdae was not cleared and therefore it could not process further.. upon this i jus shook my head in despair.. like wat aunt jito said.. he's like the "gundu-sami" of the cashier office..

and we were so busyzz and i worked till 7 plus jus like other normal daes.. ahhhhh.. i will miss comin 2 sentosa..

aS PeR n0rMaL

2008-12-25T23:42:00.003+08:00

this is the songz tt i dedicated 2 someone some yrs back.. but she's already out of sight.. out of mind.. but i still find the songz nice somehow.. so its 4 ur 2 enjoy lor..

this yr christmas i find it normal.. usual.. no surprises.. or rather.. flat.. been to 2 services in expo and im still bookin seats.. talkin 2 the new friendz.. all the same routine.. there were a few interesting incidents though.. nothin too fascinating or realli impressive..

and ohhh btw thanks 2 all tt had given me pressies.. i haven bought 4 u all yet hahahaha.. i'll buy them soon aniwaes..

i tot tt perhaps tt the subsequent christmas would b the same.. after all.. the tourism industry is evergreen.. public holidaes means gdd businesses or peak periods.. while normal workin daes means work too.. all the same.. but i felt tt its durin christmas season.. when everybody who appreciate the tourism services offered is realli happi.. then i felt tt its a gdd job well done indeed..

mayb wif a grp of gdddd friendz partyin 2gether.. tt would b even better.. or rather i'll b realli satisfied by then.. am so lookin 4ward 2 sundays christmas dinner at willy's hse.. pray tt it'll b fun.. fun.. REALLI fun~!!!

i hav jus passed the nite where i chose 2 stay at home and write the christmas cardds (im utterly lateee 4 them!!!!) rather than a nite out wif eve and co.. i miss all of u realli.. i so wanted 2 come.. but there's stuff 2 b done.. meet u all at the genting trip..

b4 i end.. hav a blessed christmas 2 one and all..

s0nGs 0f oLd aNd NeW

2008-12-21T21:37:00.004+08:00

Here's a new songz from fish leong (liang jing ru).. album jus released a few daes ago..

alrite.. dun expect me 2 post some old songz like jacky cheung or feng fei fei.. its somethin even older..

wahh... so u may tink wEiwEi is some retro freak.. or some lao gu ban..

hmm well yes and no.. the old songz ar actualli............ my CHEENA POEMS~!!!

haiya... i noe some of u sianz liaoz.. keep on seein wEiwEi write 5-chi-word-a-sentence or 7-chi-word-a-sentence which u cant figure out wat it means.. but this is my blogggg wat.. and i like 2 write chi poems.. its already stated in my profile.. u guys dun seemed 2 get it, do u??

but seriously.. if any of u noe wat this poem means.. taggg me!! so tt i can write 4 u.. or ur gf.. lolzz.. dun worry.. i wont potong jalan ur gf.. i jus write 4 her.. but u read it 2 her!! if ur gf cheena lousy then dun bother liaoz..

题：孤寂

街灯暗淡则不灭，
沸滚赤血却冻结。
日间幸得浴日艳，
未知明日可得见？

题：囚

光中立竿必见影，
摇晃摆动随其意。
虚拟黑片倚之形，
叹曰生狱未能离。

this 1 i wrote 4 a gal...
NOTE: i was happenin 2 b chattin wif her and suddenly im inspired 2 write.. then i ask her 4 her chi initials and she gave me.. so pls dismiss any stupid talk..

人皆言其贤
多赞其容颜
但愿情能延
智慧随情绵

NOTE: im dun always write chi poems 4 a gal.. its onli upon inspiration from above or upon request.. no inspiration.. no poem.. upon request also might not get.. lolzz

but if u all noe any of these poems feel free 2 taggg me lahz hahaah..

HaViNg FuN

2008-12-15T23:32:00.003+08:00

yes!! this week im free free freeeeeee~~!!! hopefully i can play more bball.. and pray tt the weather will b gdddd..

so farrr life in sentosa has been gddd 2 me.. i thank God 4 all the nice friendz and colleagues tt were ard me.. i hav nv entangled myself wif so mani ppl i called "friends" in the company b4.. the last time i realli had so mani ppl hangin out 4 lunch or any other outin in a workplace was when im workin in SIAEC.. but tt was credit due 2 willy as he realli helped me out alot in tt place at tt time.. in army the bondin was gddd wif my fellow medics but once the food is baddd (and u got no choice) it jus spoils everythin... rite??

here in sentosa.. wif no pre-known friendz or watsoever.. im actualli appreciatin and cherishin every moment i am here.. coz im onli here 4 a short while.. and then i'll b gone studyin.. despite unevitable hostility from certain superiors.. seniors or colleagues.. im still somehow enjoyin it.. since life in a organization or a biggg corp hav their certain politics tt cant b avoided..

2dae we had a christmas party 4 our dept.. and we were divided into groups 2 play some team buildin games and im thankful tt i could contribute.. i suggested a short and sharp cheer 4 our team and amazingly we won the best cheer of the grp.. it was not supposed 2 b in the programme but the judges felt tt we collaborated well 2 present the cheer and they jus created an award 4 it jus 2 encourage our enthusiasm and efforts..

i felt rather shocked and touched.. i was reminded tt someone had sae b4 tt when u ar gdd at somethin.. somehow the award would jus b created 4 u so tt u can win it.. sure the competition and judgin criterias mayb fair 4 all wif no favors involved.. but "God is not mocked, watever we sow we reap.." the talents of an individual will not go unnoticed.. it'll somehow surface out 2 bring contribution 2 the ppl ard us..

老爸的生日

2008-12-14T23:01:00.002+08:00

alrite 4 my non cheena-pai friendz like erika and willy.. im sorry 2 disappoint u coz in this post is gonna b in chi.. unless u get ppl like eve 2 help u out wif it.. lolzz

今天过了祷告会后和刘组长一伙一起逛街。。

组长回头一转问了我，“最近你老是跟随我们，这是为何？”

我连忙回答，“组长你有所不知，我其实是 N435 的间谍，就像无间道一样。。”

我们忍俊不禁一起 LOL-ed..

逛街过后，去了天天火锅和家人共进晚餐。。

实不相瞒，那里食物赞，汤头赞，饮料烂。都不知道所供给的柠檬茶是否可饮。我喝了一杯就不敢再喝了。令我感到惊讶的是我自己竟然能够和老妈唠叨，一直听我批评某人，因为通常都是老妈唠叨，我受罪地听。买了老爸一个名片夹，老妈就告诉老弟为老爸买生日蛋糕。。

由于老弟赶时间回营报告，我就代他买，他也慷慨出了三十块。。

回家后，我们就当场开蛋糕，点蜡烛，为他庆生，一点惊喜也没有。老爸也无所谓，只要大家高兴就好了。我老爸就是如此伟大，总是为我们这些孩子着想。看来改次换我老时，看到我的孩子能够这样为我庆生我也心满意足了。

PeRs0nALiTy AgAiN

2008-12-11T21:23:00.004+08:00

i hav actualli done a personality test from a friendz friendz blogggg.. lolzz

Zhengwei values close, personal relationships, and he will often put the needs and desires of those who are loyal friends ahead of his own needs. He is an even-paced individual who thrives in a peaceful, harmonious environment. Zhengwei will work to avoid conflict and sudden changes in his lifestyle and finds joy in keeping tradition.

Systematic and detailed, Zhengwei focuses on the process. Others see him as practical and logical. He tends to be sensitive to criticism, but prefers to internalize his emotions rather than expose them. Zhengwei likes to clarify expectations before undertaking new projects, because he works hard to meet the standards that are set for him.

A warm, outgoing person, Zhengwei enjoys having a high level of interaction with others. He usually finds the "silver lining" in a difficult situation, and typically enjoys the thrill of trying new things. He has a gift for influencing those around him and is viewed as an instinctive communicator. Others find Zhengwei easy to approach and enjoy his easy, open rapport.

Because he cares about how others feel, Zhengwei may feel uncomfortable making decisions that strongly affect others. He typically encourages others to be involved in the decision making process and prefers to work in a team role. Others tend to see Zhengwei as agreeable and humble.

i would not comment abt this report.. i had some reservations 4 myself regardin this style.. i do not noe if its a gddd or a badd thing.. but i felt uneasy wif wat they hav sae.. but its somewhat accurate..

WeEkEnD DeEp tHoUgHtS

2008-12-08T23:19:00.003+08:00

man i dun feel like goin 2 work tomolo.. after a longgg weekend its so diff 4 me 2 work again.. lolzz.. argghhhh~!!!

mani thoughts ran across my mind this week.. i share a couiple wif u all..

i hav been thinking of pickin up a new sport or a hobby.. many ppl ard me had actualli moved on wif their lives 2gether wif their fav sport or hobby.. ie they leave behind wat they used 2 like when they ar young.. im still playin bball after all these yrs.. and im still readin the same novel "romance of the 3 kingdoms" after all these yrs.. i could find somethin like "the warring states in china （春秋战国）", "sun tzu manual art of war （孙子兵法）" or "the historical record - the beginnings of china (史记)" to read but i do not noe if the books ar available in the bookstores and if i hav the time 2 do so.. (i hav read sun tzu manual art of war b4.. but i did not read it in depth..) and bball?? there's no substitute for it.. or a sport tts related 2 it.. i cant tink of any sport tt i can do.. it tooks me a few yrs 2 develop myself in bball.. do i hav tt time and energy 2 develop myself in another sport?? i couldnt see myself doin so..

i hav been so frustrated wif our weather.. firstly it can make one sick easily.. but wat realli frustrate me the most is tt i could not play bball in such a weather as this.. it mayb weird 2 possess a zeal and passion such as this at my age but someone told me b4 tt "though im in church 4 quite some time already.. my zeal and fire 4 God had NOT CHANGED at all.. (on the positive side)" and i believe tt this zeal and fire is the same 4 my bball game.. im always so eager 2 improve and advance in my game.. i wan 2 see myself so skillfully equipped 2 take on the bigg boys of bball.. but wif the weather bein continuously opposing against my idea.. i realli cant see myself makin any improvements in this period of time.. i thank God 4 the sentosa gym.. at least there's still a place 4 me 2 workout in this bad weather season..

ok so another week awaits.. lets hope it'll b a gddd one ehhh??

LaTeLy

2008-12-02T22:10:00.002+08:00

as life progressed 2 december.. i hav so mani events comin up my wayyy and i couldnt rem when's the last time i am so occupied wif all these events listed on the left... arrgggghhhh~~!!!

and i realized tt i do not hav time 4 my fav hobby: basketball.. thank God 4 a gym at my workplace so tt i can go and use it whenever im free b4 or after work.. (of coz.. the dear staffs of the sales dept tinks tt im a skinny fit freak wif all my gym talks and all.. they wouldnt hesitate 2 hate me whenever i seemed 2 lose weight or even worse.. declare it out loud...) but bball IS THE SPORT.. and i onli hav 1 time slot 2 play: sat mornin.. if it rains it'll b tt's-it.com 4 wEiwEi..

and recently i saw a pic of 1 of my friendz bloggg tt they were actualli celebratin my friendz bdae and some mass gathering and they did not call me.. i hav not seen or contacted them 4 a longgg time already and i guess they had jus prob 4gotten abt me..

perhaps the impression i gave was tt i am jus too busyzz.. mon-fri work.. sat-sun church.. and as time passes by those bunch of friendz will jus b a memory and exp i had yrs ago.. and all those exp were gddd exp.. its jus a pity when my life moves on.. it realli moves on.. i cant bring everythin and everyone wif me as i advance in life.. its jus a pity 2 see them go..

1 of my friendz actualli chatted and asked me abt my ex and i told the things my friendz need 2 noe.. and at tt pt i realized i hav been single for a verii veriii long period of time.. like the bible says, "its not gddd 4 a man 2 b alone.." and will this comin 2009 b the yr where i meet the special her?? i do not noe.. i could onli see myself gettin attached in 2010 after i complete my degree and gettin a prospective career.. after all it may not b a gddd idea 2 hav a longgg dist relationship when i go switzerland nxt yr.. the onli person i noe succeeded its my beloved ex cgl daryl liu..

SeLLiNg & SaLeS

2008-11-29T23:41:00.004+08:00

Source: Resort World Canteen, Sentosa

now who in the rite mind will pay? lolzz.. they could hav claim tt they did not take the drink..

one of my ministry friendz drove me home from work and he told me somethin tt i nv realli tink b4.. he said tt the sales ar always the best ppl ard in any organization.. while the engineers were always drawin out salaries and were expenses and liabilities 2 the companies..

now i felt 4 him.. coz he was an engineer.. i told him tt sales were as impt as engineerin as though they may generate profits 4 the company.. engineers provides the support and the backbone.. as it is always more costlier 2 seek a new customer than 2 retain old ones..

an organization or a company is like a body.. sales is prob like the hands and legs of the company where it causes the company 2 advance and move on wif profits from deals clinched.. however.. engineering ar like the muscles and the bones.. where they work as supporting roles 2 the company so tt it enables the hands and legs and the body 2 move on.. the hands and legs could not tell the muscles and bones tt they do not need them or rather condemn them 4 their lack of contribution 2 the company.. likewise those who ar doin sales do not hav the rite 2 condemn engineers 4 wat they hav not done..

however.. credit mus go 2 sales when a company is doin well coz they ar the ones who laboured effectively for the profits of the company.. the engineers should not boast of their achievements and claim credit 4 themselves.. since they ar the supportin role of the company but they should b proud of themselves coz they ar a part of the success in the company too..

pRiMaRy oBjEcTiVe CoMpLeTeD

2008-11-27T21:39:00.004+08:00

yes!! 2dae i shall sleep at 10.15p.m.!!! it's the earliest time tt i could slp since i cant rem when.. hahah..

after surviving on last wk asia conference.. i still managed 2 survive on monday and tues.. on wed im still able 2 hang on wif my flu and all.. but 2dae was realli baddd.. i step into the office feelin a headache spell over me.. i tried 2 sit up straight and focus on work but most of the time i was actualli lyin on the chair attemptin 2 slp.. the headaches spells kept goin on and off..

on the mrt back home i actualli doze off.. and i actualli dreamt tt i was goin 2 slp peacefully on my bed wif my laptop wif me.. the atmosphere was so gddd when suddenly i woke up and realize tt the ppl were still standin in front of me tryin 2 get off the train..

still.. im still pretti impressed wif myself tt im able 2 do wat i like 2 do in the midst of my flu.. tt is 2 compose chi poems..

题：别

君剑挥其影

御虎带恨离

短怒忘情谊

威猛暗流涕！

alrite i had actualli changed 1 sentence.. but i feel tt this is better than the prev one i wrote.. so dear colleagues and comrades.. u all can go figure it out wat it means.. lolzz..

iT's BaDdDdd

2008-11-25T23:08:00.002+08:00

my weariness doesnt seemed 2 go away.. yesterdae i failed the test 2 slp b4 2359.. i woke up drastically devastated and reached office at 10am..

i almost protested 2 myself tt i did not wan 2 go 2 work 2dae.. after slping at abt 1am last nite.. i knew i was onli 60% mentally and physically rite and also down wif flu.. this make me onli abt 50% rite.. y cant i b 90% or even 100% rite?? i realli dunwan 2 operate at a sub-par lvl.. it makes me so inferior and so out of place.. those "ravenous beasts" wil try 2 hunt down this "wounded tiger" emotionally whenever they see the chance 2 do so..

at work i felt so un-focus.. for a moment i tot tt i hav lost myself.. i hav lost my soul.. nothin seems rite but i seemed 2 b doin rite.. and at the end of the dae i felt so overwhelmed wif my emotions and all.. i started 2 quarrel and argue.. and i hav been doin so frequently these daes..

i nv felt so low b4 after getting involved in the argument.. usu i would jus brood and 4get abt it.. but i jus felt tt im in total despair... wat could i hav done?? wat should i do? wats nxt??

yet deep down there's a small whisper from God tellin me tt this is jus the beginning of a greater me.. i noe i cant do this by myself.. i need Him.. becoz there's always a stronger force of opposition tt is 2 come when there is somethin great tt is happenin underway..

and jus now while i was bloggin halfway a couple of bees enter my room and i hav 2 break some glass b4 i can torment the bees and separate its corpse..

well lets look 2 tomolo.. 2dae's gone..

sLeEp aT 2359

2008-11-24T22:52:00.002+08:00

pimples has arosed from my face.. i feel myself weak.. at times restless.. and most of the time lethargic.. i wasnt calm handlin diff situations.. at times i would jus flare up like the tiger huntin its prey.. i lose the strength 2 control and remain calm.. sometimes i can feel tt my energy level is bleedin out from my veins..

yes asia conference is gddd.. mind blowin.. overwhelmed by wat was bein taught.. it costs me almost 1.5 wks of my pocket $$$ 4 a period of 5 days.. for all the nites tt i hav attended (except 4 the last nite) i did not leave expo till it was 11pm when the service hav finally ended and all were dismissed..

and i tot it was a biggg mistake 2 fellowship and hav dinner at bishan after sun nite service as it was wayyy too late 4 the last bus 2 take me home.. but then more than a decade ago.. rev yock kiang was actualli fellowshippin wif rev dr. kong hee back then when he spent the entire wk of his pocket $$ jus 2 dine into the same restaurant as dr. kong hee.. and mine is jus a portion of it.. i believe when i sacrifice 4 fellowship.. tt's much more 2 gain out of it..

so monday comes and as the sun rises 2 the sky this mornin our lives return backkk 2 normal.. the foreign delegates go backkk 2 their countries and they face their same old situations but this time a renewed mind and a spirit.. but 1 thing tt i believed is still lingering in their minds.. and our minds.. is the exp tt they had received in the conf and they would jus loved 2 turn back the clock 2 relinquish the exp once again..

but 4 now i would wan 2 recuperate.. its time 2 hit the gym and play bball actively again.. lolzz.. after which is to eat more and sleep more!!! my colleagues were furious by the fact tt im even LIGHTER than them.. esp 1 of them who always nv stop complainin abt thin i am.. and my respond 2 u all is - pls dun worry too much.. u all will slim down 1 day.. slimmin down is hardwork and dilligence.. period.

i would love 2 bloggg abt the asia conference.. but then i do not wish 2 do so liaoz as star bloggers like willy joe and investor lee had gave their full accounts.. but there's an entry 4 the songs of the sea.. and i'll publish it in due time..

CoLLeAgUeS

2008-11-22T14:29:00.003+08:00

these ar my colleagues from sentosa and 2 b honest.. im actualli pretti comfortable wif them after onli knowin each other for abt 1 week or so.. in fact.. its realli fun 2 b wif them lahz..

from the left of the pic:
Jazreel - nv fails 2 tok abt somethin interestin tt amazes me..

Michelle - ah ha.. i dun wish 2 sae much abt this gal muahahaha.. always ji siao me on facebook.. and always seen MSN-ing!!!

xue shi - possessed a strong willed character.. events is a killer job in the tourism sector and yet she can overcome all her challenges..

joyce - at FICUS (name of the sentosa area tt we worked in) she can FOCUS.. on her m'sia tours lolzz

edwin - hail the senior ticketing officer in the sentosa cashier office.. all the machines and the computers bow down 2 him..

renqi - she jus turned 20 (yayyy!!!) and possesses a large mickey mouse hand which michelle uses it 4 her glory lolzz..

needless 2 sae the guy on the extreme right is the author of this gddd old blogggg..

DiNnEr aNd ToWeR

2008-11-15T23:12:00.002+08:00

yesterdae our dept invited us 4 a dinner at this sentosa restaurant call the "taste of singapore"

4 some of u who dunno.. this restaurant is located beside the image of singapore and there's another near the beach station.. heard the set is quite costly as its abt 7-8 dollars per pax but as staff we onli get it at 5!! oh and furthermore this dinner is on the dept itself!!

so after dinner my colleague edwin and me went 2 sit the sky tower.. i figured it'll b quite stupid if i take the pics from the bottom of the tower as there isnt much 2 prove tt i hav actualli been there.. done tt.. so i actualli took the pics from high above..

this is the images of singapore from high above..

the sentosa IR in construction.. it'll b ready by 2010 and the project is done by genting.. the hotel would be named resort world.. i guess..

the interiors of the tower.. since its nite time.. there ar diff colors tt shines within the tower..

so after the tower.. we went somewhere else since the nite is still young.. till then.. there'll b another entry..

400 JoY

2008-11-14T23:01:00.002+08:00

wheee!! i hav finally reached my 400th blogger post.. another milestone!!

and in the midst of this joy.. in case u dunno.. im officially workin at sentosa!!

here's the evidence:

im NOT workin as an attraction host where im a door usher in attractions and events or ticketin personnels and the luge or sky tower.. but im in the office.. sentosa office.. workin as a temp finance asst from 9-6.. mon-fri.. unlike attraction hosts where u get 2 interact wif ppl and all.. i tend 2 interact wif the machines and the office more.. lolzz..

realli thank God 4 this job.. and oh!!! the nxt few posts ar goin 2 b excitin so stay tuned!!

a DaY t0 ReLaX

2008-11-10T13:27:00.002+08:00

as i take a breather 2dae from last wk.. i would like onli... music gym and sushi!!!

her songz ar realli gddd lahz.. the intro kinda remind me of sally's ten cents (我的一毛钱怎么不见了) game.. its actualli the kiddy game songz tt we played, "as it walk 2 the left.. as we walk 2 the right.. as we walk.. as we walk.." and 5566 took tt concept to singz 4 the beijing olympic soundtrack..

so after last wk.. my hair had grown quite abit.. here's the picture:

one of the platoon sgts in my coy had told me b4.. tt the reason he grew his hair fast is becoz he sleep less and work alot.. whereas i always slp alot in camp and work onli a little.. lolzz.. last wk was work 2 the max and slp 2 the min.. and perhaps he was rite.. the hair at the bottom 45 deg of the head has grown alot.. it seems tt i do not look so bald rite now.. but i can create a wild hairstyle again.. yippee!!

alrite.. i've gotta hit the gym real soon.. and after tt i'll hav my fav sushi~~!!!!

tHe GeNiE

2008-11-08T23:42:00.003+08:00

alrite peeps.. her name is zhuo wen xuan (卓文萱)

she is so sweeeettttttt and sexyyy.. hahahah.. tt's y she's called the sexy sweety 性感甜心

her songz ar not baddd lahz.. though she dun hav veriii gddd vocals.. but she sure noes how 2 brighten up a saddd dae.. and her nickname is "the genie.." sounds cool ehhhh??

and how nice would it b if i can get a gf like this.. sooo sexy and sweetttttt.. the best of both worlds..

"genie!!!! come out of ur lamp and grant me my wish!!! i am aladdin and i wan a gf like u!! i promise 2 let her ride on my magic carpet ahahahahahaha~~~"

alrite enuff of fantasies.. get back 2 work wEiwEi.. no work no wife.. like pastor always sae..

tHe HaNds tHaT ToUcH

2008-11-06T22:59:00.003+08:00

she sat there and hold my hand.. grateful tt im there 2 see her.. i looked at her intently and i wish her well..

she pointed 2 me her injured scar on her lips.. fell down yesterdae and the lips on the inner and the outer side were badly injured and she lost 1 artificial tooth.. once again i looked at her.. and i believe tt the injury was a small matter.. the most impt thing is tt she gets well.. and recover from her severe migrane and get discharged..

after she consumed the hot beverage and some biscuits.. the migrane took off.. it was her 1st attack since 2 daes ago and my relatives were quite shocked.. my uncle quickly gave her some medicated oil for the head.. aunt pointed out tt she saw some blood clots on the head.. as doctors suspected tt she might hav a little bit of stroke.. i touched her forehead and confirmed my fears.. the blood stream is runnin heavily in the area of her forehead.. i mus stop the run..

i was a little hesistant at 1st.. but as i stood up and walk out from the bed.. allowin my uncles 2 tok 2 her.. i saw her countenance changed so badly.. the smile and the radiance has gone from her and she looked so fluttered lyin on the bed and she had depreciated so much.. my heart hurts when i see tt.. at the moment i felt like excusin myself and go 2 one corner and cry it out.. but i tot tt i'll do wat i can 2 help her..

i got some towels from the nurses and dipped them under some tap water.. i lifted her head and slowly sponged the forehead areas.. slowly and gently i rub the forehead wif the towels.. as i navigate my hands ard her head.. i ask her softly, "does it feel comfortable??" and the ans was, "yes.." i kept quiet and continued my spongin.. few mins later im done.. and suddenly i saw her openin her eyes and she looked more positive this time.. and i could hear her speakin in a healthy voice, "it makes me feel so comfortable after u did tt to me.."

my relatives immediately tot tt the wet cloths does help her 2 reduce the pain.. 2 b honest i do not noe whether this will help.. and i doubt this CAN help.. butall i noe was when the "human touch" factor was applied over her life.. she will feel better and she would summon strength 2 fight and overcome her sickness.. my relatives didnt realize tt as they were concerned on providin the necessary stuff 4 her 2 get well w/o even considerin the "human touch" factor

after which.. she felt tired.. and as i bid her goodbye.. she reached out her hand again.. this time she touched my (oily) face.. "take care" was wat she said 2 me.. and it was wat i said 2 her too in reply..

HaNd pH0nE cHaNgE 0f c0mMaNd

2008-11-01T23:35:00.002+08:00

Outgoing

jus when i tot the motorola V3 was my best ever phone.. u ar the phone i'll nv 4get.. i like u not becoz of ur functions and design.. but the durability and the usefulness of it.. above all u hav gone thru THICK AND THIN wif me.. from brunei to OVL to taiwan to basicnet to ORD mood days to the hospitality pre course in SIM.. not 4gettin numerous uncountable medical covers since sept 2007 when u step into my life.. u ar like a gdd pal.. jus like all my gdd friendz tt i hav in life.. u ar one of it.. may u retire in peace.. as i keep u away 4 perhaps reservist uses or any other unforeseen circumstances..

Incoming

the v3 has proven me gddd.. i hope u will too.. as i tried ur functions out jus now it seems a little off from my expectations but nevertheless u had still provided 4 wat i need in a range of sophisticated options..u will perhaps enjoy the gdd life of bein my phone.. jus hope tt u continue 2 serve me well.. as longggg as possible...

JoLiN SiNgS eNgLiSh

2008-10-31T23:14:00.002+08:00

So this is her new album..

songs in her album:

01.Get This Party Started
02.Lovefool
03.Kiss Me
04.The Blower's Daughter
05.I Won't Last a Day Without You
06.Lady Marmalade
07.Physical
08.When U Say Nothing at All
09.Thank U
10.Angel

ar u sure she can sing ENGLISH?????? i nv hear the album b4... and im nv a jolin fan.. i always felt the reason y she's famous is becoz she's sexy.. nothin else matters.. esp 2 the guys.. she cant realli sing as gddd as those famous singers.. her attutude is veriii badd.. nothin is beautiful inide of her.. perhaps she can join willy's BIO club 4 an extreme makeover.. lolzz

h0mE aLoNe FiNaL DaY

2008-10-28T22:35:00.003+08:00

(i jus felt tt i dun hav enuff songz.. but wif a database of 12-13k of songz.. i mus re-think abt this perspective again.. perhaps.. there's jus not enuff NEW CHINESE SONGZ available.. btw this is a gddd songz.. xingni would prob agree 2 it.. album availability is subjected 2 wEiwEi's terms and conditions.. lolzz)

tomolo my folks and my bro will return from USA and Aussie respectively.. the hse will b filled wif my mum's naggin and rantin.. my bro's dota voices and sound effects and my dad's music when he blast on the old hi-fi set.. lolzz.. the livin room will not b dark in the nite nor will it b quiet in the dae.. everythin will b in order once again.. at least i will not hav 2 clear the thrash.. do my laundry or clear the mess in the livin room.. and of coz while my finances ar runnin low.. i pray tt my dad would top up all the amt tt i hav spent 4 the past 17 daes..

and so 4 the past 17 daes.. mani things had happened.. no one's naggin at me wat 2 do and im jus so independent into settlin my daily needs and ends.. it realli gives me the freedom 2 do all the things i wan?? do i miss my folks.. well yes.. but i felt tt they should b treatin me like a 22 yr old rather than a 12 yr old.. it sux when my mum kept braggin abt the dos and donts in the hse and she kept braggin abt wat i should do and should not.. i seriously do not need tt.. if onli she can cut tt down..

alrite... time 2 control my emotions.. and my words.. lookin at the positive side.. i still can do wat i mus or can do and advance in life..

a SuBc0nsCi0uS sCiEnTiSt

2008-10-27T22:14:00.004+08:00

ok im too tired to bloggg liaoz.. and becoz of exams comin up tomolo.. i've gonna get myself 2 muggin mode.. hopefully in a snap of the fingers..

seriously.. i've tried 2 study harddd 4 the exam but everythin is so common sense and to realli rem them in detail kinda make no sense at all.. got realli frustrated into studyin 4 this subject.. hopefully the paper would not b too diff as mentioned by our teacher april..

aniwae i took this quiz from the link of quizzes of esther's (aka my ex ex cgl..) facebook..

The Subconscious quiz

You are The Scientist

You have an equation for fun.... you believe everything has its place and you actively try to build your role in the world through dedicated study, hardwork and perserverance. There is nothing you appreciate more than a good listener and a friend who can accept you for who you are - which is quite a complex and intriguing mind. Logical, rational and sometimes quite cut throat, you will stop at nothing to achieve your goals and consequently have little time for plans that do not fit around your own. Thus you may find yourself quite alone sometimes. Try to be more open, honest and considerate of people and you will much happier when doing your sums.

i like the way they put it.. "i hav an equation 4 fun.." tt's y i always marvel ppl in my mental sums.. i rem durin BMT.. 1 of my sgts put me thru mani maths calculations tests tt involves multiplications.. and everytime i will nv fail 2 surprise wif my quick thinkin of answers.. tt's one time while i was doin my SOC and the sgt actualli tested me at the pt of time when i was severly shagged.. but still i can ans him correctly.. lolzz..

all these was prob due 2 the fact tt i like 2 count when im lazing ard or idling.. thank God 4 a statistical mind!!!

bLoGgEd aT 2359

2008-10-25T23:59:00.004+08:00

haha.. i quickly logged in and make a blank post in the nick of time.. coz i do not wan 2 waste a day of bloggin archive!!! lolzz.. i take my daily archives in serious count..

well i was quite amazed of wat happened after cg 2dae.. so after cg i was thinkin how do i actualli put the wii into better use.. since no one wans 2 play and everyone in da hse is busyzz.. mayb if i bring back home and tink abt it.. and one of the choices is 2 sell it.. since none of us is realli interested..

lo and behold.. sally suggested 2 play the wii!!!

i got everythin set up asap.. and we played wacky races.. tennis and boxing!!

speakin abt boxing... those gals ar realli gddd boxers!!!

i was actualli observing them playin boxing.. hahahhhahaha is so funni lor.. huimin andie sally and vanessa took turns 2 play.. and the "fight" was so "intense".. they did not follow the tutorial before the fight commences as they already wanted 2 fight wif each other.. and throughout the game they realli "fought hardd".. punchin and dodgin the punches as if they were in the boxing arena..

it was so hilarious.. i kept laughin on the inside.. i did not wan 2 look at them too much.. else i realli burst out in laughter.. but at the same time i saw their intesity and eagerness 2 win the game or rather.. to win the fight.. its so scary.. to tink they treat it 4 real.. i mean they should realli play and expertise in other sports such as baseball (like xingni) or tennis.. mayb bowling or golf... but y boxing?? tt's kinda way too violent.. at least 4 the gals.. furthermore its so gross to see 2 Mii female characters fightin in the arena.. lolzz..

the world has INDEED changed..

so i was actualli thinkin.. one of these days.. when they ar married and their husbands refuses 2 listen 2 them in one way or another.. they will prob challenge them into this boxin game!!! and when the husbands tot tt they could win them hands down they will prob "box the daylight out of them!!"

so a warning to the husbads-to-be of N435.. or rather those who ar thinkin of chasin the gals of N435.. here's a word of precaution i hav 4 u all..

BE AFRAID.. BE VERIIIIII AFRAID.. MUAHAHAHAHHA

FoRg0TTeN

2008-10-24T00:05:00.002+08:00

oops!!! arghhhh!! this few daes i realli kept forgettin 2 blogggg.. hahahah.. slackk too much liaoz..

well basically this wk is realli nothin much lahz.. coz its supposed 2 b study wk.. as the rest of my classmates were taking and completing their biz modules this wk i had the privellege 2 stay at home and study 4 onli 2 modules.. lolzz..

i checked the sch email acc 2dae and i realized tt the gradin they had 4 this course is onli pass or fail.. so its like gettin a grad P or a grad F.. wat the crap!!!!! i realli began 2 question myself whether i should realli put in alot of effort 2 study 4 these 2 subjects when they onli hav a mediocre gradin like this.. tink at the end of the dae the sch onli wans us 2 pass and move on so tt they can receive the payment of our sch fees nxt yr!!! hmmfffff!!!!

and im still considerin whether 2 go 2 the gym tomolo anot.. lolzz.. since i may not be steppin out of the hse..

ohhh check this out!!

Champagnes ar available in diff sizes and the diff sizes hav diff names!!! their names ar
-bottles (750ml)
-Magnums (1500ml)
-Jeroboam (3000ml): now does he sounds like some king of israel to u?? in fact he is!! lolzz.. its in the bible where he was told by a man of God tt Israel is bein divided and 10 tribes ar given 2 him..
-Rehoboam (3000ml): now u got another name from the bible!! this is the son of solomon when and after solomon died he became king.. so 10 tribes was taken from him and he was left wif judah and benjamin..

now where do these champane makers get their inspiration from?? perhaps jeroboam and rehoboam hav some english meaning from these hebrew names??

anyway wines ar realli hardd 2 study lahz.. so mani theoretical stuff 2 memorize..

P.S. i claim the job of sentosa in the name of Jesus!!! i'll get a gddd payin job this november!!!

tHe FaLL

2008-10-18T23:43:00.005+08:00

when i hear bigg businesses or strong relationships break.. i will jus sit back and stare in space.. thinkin of wat could hav actualli happen..

kinda reminded me for another romance of the 3 kingdoms story again..

after the famous military adviser zhu-ge liang died.. the kingdoms shu and wei did not fall in their kingdom strength.. but they fall when the emperor of the 2 kingdoms do not hav a vision 4 their country as they were laid back and jus wanted 2 enjoy gdd life.. the emperor of shu onli noe how 2 eat drink and b merry and do not wan 2 care abt any political matters.. whereas the emperor of wei is onli a child and he do not noe wat he needs 2 do 2 strengthen his kingdom.. as such.. the authority of shu was actualli given 2 a eunuch while the authority of wei was given 2 the general-in-command.. who is a power hungry minister..

meanwhile in the country of shu.. there was the general-in-command.. who stays faithful and loyal and committed 2 shu becoz of his gratitude towards the late prime minister zhu-ge liang.. however.. as he places his ambition over his country.. he was bein sabotaged time and again by the eunuch despite runnin 9 military expeditions against the kingdom of wei as each time he returned empty handed..

in the kingdom of wei.. the general had no regards 4 the emperor as he gives orders to the emperor's subjects as and when he pleases.. he even made use of the emperor's armies and items for his own comfort.. each time the emperor pick up his guts 2 come against him.. he would jus plot 2 kill the emperor and would then replace any child along the lineage of the royal family..

the fall of shu came when the emperor had no regards of the invasion of wei.. as a result.. many impt cities were lost and the general-in-command was forced 2 retreat towards the capital.. instead of raising an army 2 fight.. the emperor listened 2 the eunuch and consulted a witch 2 foretell the future of his kingdom.. and as a result.. the capital was fallen and the general-in-command could not remedy the situation and died in a plot thereafter.. the emperor was captured and the kingdom is finished..

the fall of wei came when the minister died and his son took over his duties.. one day he jus stepped into the palace and demanded the emperor to hand over the throne.. the emperor had no choice but 2 agree.. and so the emperor was exiled and the kingdom is finished..

by not havin a vision.. life could jus fall apart.. and i realize tt to hav a great vision.. we mus hav gddd friendz 2 help us build our lives and liven up our thinkin..

in zhu-ge liang's famous masterpiece 《出师表》he wrote tt:

亲贤臣，远小人，乃前汉之所以而强盛也。

亲小人，远贤臣，乃后汉之所以而颓废也。

(translation: befriend the gddd subjects and keep out the badd ones.. this is how the the dynasty became strong when it was established.. befriend the badd subjects and keep out the gdd ones.. this is how the dynasty became weak at the later stage..)

h0mE aLoNe DaY 7

2008-10-17T23:15:00.002+08:00

so its been 7 days tt im home alone.. (4 some of u guys who dunno.. my parents ar in the united states rite now.. my bro is in aussie and my grandma is bein taken care by my aunt coz of her recent medical condition.. so 4 the past wk.. im livin in my hse wif me.. myself and i... oh yes not 2 4get.. wif the Holy Spirit too..)

and i still got 1 more wk b4 my parents come back..

ahhhh.. actualli the feelin its realli quite diff.. there ar several plus and minus pts when no one's at home.. lolzz..

the plus points ar:

-no one 2 naggg at me and disturb me.. esp when im doin my stuff.. gamin or watever activities tt involved my lappy..

- i can hav my 3 meals as and when i wan.. or need sometimes.. lolzz

- i can stay till veriii late at nite.. hang out and fellowship.. hang out wif friendz like there's no tomolo.. (oops.. mayb too exaggerated liaoz...)

- i can make a mess out of my room and the hse!!! (i told my mum tt i'll prob mess up the place when she's not ard... and she was surprisingly ok wif tt!!!!)

- i can blast my music till late nite and nobody cares

- i can watch my fav VCDs anytime.. now tt no one is hoggin the TV..

however.. there ar also quite a few minus pts when no one's ard:

- despite the fact tt no one's naggin and disturbin me and my privacy.. the hse seems so quiet..

- i hav 2 take care my own self.. been fallin sick recently and i realized tt i haven't been takin the dietary fibres like my parents used 2 ensure me to..

- wash my own dishes after i cook.. clear the thrash after use..

- do my own laundry!!

- no one 2 take care of me when im sick.. waaaaaaaa.. but thank God im not tt sick 2 the extend tt i cant move..

now i noe how eve and huimin felt when they 1st came 2 sg wif no one wif them except themselves.. despite the fact tt there is freedom and more space.. its all abt self mgt and care.. daily routine activities could b quite a chore when we ar already busyzz wif our own work.. but i felt tt it'll b a gddd exp.. esp when nxt yr im goin 2 switzerland and leave my family behind 4 at least 6mths..

and now i need 2 wash up the dishes and clear up the rubbish..

PrEsEnTaTi0nS

2008-10-14T22:51:00.002+08:00

it's been a longgg time since i do presentations.. 2 yrs in the army had successfully downgrade the use of my grammer and vocab and filled me wif army jargons and lingos where those typical ah benggg and ah sengggg communicate as if a fight could happen anytime..

this wk.. my presentations were back-to-back.. and i felt tt i realli had 2 speak well.. here's the recap

monday
the nite b4 i slept at 5am coz i jus couldn't get myself 2 slp.. i went 2 class abit not feelin well.. wif cough and flu buggin me all dae longgg.. i had 2 put on a show 4 my classmates and the teacher.. and the 1st few slides was a total disaster.. i stutter and stutter all the way and more stutterings came along as i attempt 2 speak and explain the slide.. then i saw my teacher april writin down a whole lot of stuff.. i was like, "ohhh no.." and i even call a bow tie a "RIBBON" (to my utmost horror!!!!)

and all my classmates tt had presented b4 me had actualli managed 2 present and elaborate well on their slides.. i was so disappointed.. i realli pray tt i can pass.. i didnt present certain items tt my classmates had presented and i felt so lost..

tuesday
after the disaster on monday.. i wan 2 bounce back from the loss of confidence tt i suffered.. i had myself prepared mentally 4 the presentation.. once again i stutter from the start.. and i keep tellin myself.. "focus and look on the notes tt i jot down 4 elaboration.." i stared it 4 quite some time.. i look at the slide again.. and i tot tt it'll b best tt i jus read it from the slide.. and after i did tt.. i felt some confidence 2 speak wif my own words..

but this time the teacher andy actualli looked at me positively and thus i felt tt it was a great vote of confidence.. and i continue speakin until the end.. i knew i did better than yesterdae.. but i jus felt tt its not gddd enuff and i had 2 improve.. esp nxt yr and when i graduated from this course...

apart from these presentations i also felt tt i need 2 communicate the rite way 2 my p5 kids esp when my ministry senior ruth goes ard pickin children and even tutors 4 the wrong usage of vocab and grammer... i jus need 2 get back 2 basics..

and hopefully i'll not b picked tt much when i resume teaching my p5 class this sat..

d0 n0t DoUbT

2008-10-13T00:42:00.003+08:00

(P.S. my classmates told me tt niu nai aka milk can't sing.. he can onli dance... but i like his songs lehz..)

b4 my parents leave 2 go 2 the USA.. my mum instructed me a whole lot of things 2 do.. after she did tt.. she's still quite unsettled inside of her.. i feel like sayin, "mum, if u ar so worried, u dun go lahz.. dad can go alone and tt will do.."

but she went wif my dad anyway.. and wif my bro in aussie 4 exercise.. im officially home alone..

it came 2 my tot tt my mum couldn't fully trust me bein at home all alone.. and it kinda reminded me of 1 story..

in one of the stories in the romance of 3 kingdoms.. there's this general who surrendered 2 the warlord Sun Ce and he promise tt he'll return at noon on the followin daes wif some of his loyal subjects.. Sun Ce agreed wif tt.. the nxt dae Sun Ce's advisors placed a huge sundial in the middle of the camp and Sun Ce was shocked when he sees it.. he removed the sundial and told his advisors,

"我孙策用人不疑，疑人不用!" (I, Sun Ce, do not doubt anyone when i use ppl, else he will not be used!)

true enuff.. the general returned wif his subjects followin him at the back.. and everyone admired his judgment over ppl..

we always felt tt ppl hav 2 do things our way.. anythin tt's not "the right way" accordin 2 us is wrong.. and so we often train ppl 2 do "our right way.." and thus it always limit creativity and a new perspective thru things..

sometimes.. i jus take a step back and watch how others complete their task.. and its pretti amazin tt they hav ideas and solutions tt ar so diff yet efficient.. sometimes i would feel like objecting their ideas and solutions but yet i noe tt wat they hav contributed could effectively change things.. even the kids in the tuition ministry.. they hav ideas and tots tt they ar unaware of themselves and sometimes i feel so sorry 4 them when the education system has its limits tt cripple them..

doubtin ppl can also press down the self esteem of an individual.. w/o self esteem the motivation 4 excellence could b lost.. tt's y its impt 2 hav faith in someone else.. tt he can do the job well.. complete the task well..

even God did not doubt when He created man.. He did not doubt tt He can save the world thru His Son..

PSP GaMe UpDaTe

2008-10-08T21:25:00.002+08:00

am currently playin this:

and guess wat.. the controls of this game is much muchhhh better than the prev versions.. lolzz.. but im still quite noob at it ahhhh ehhhhhhh~~ coz everytime when i play a friendly match i could not get a clean sheet despite i thrashed the team wif mani mani goals.. of coz.. the lvl tt im playin rite now is the noob level.. aka beginners lvl.. lolzz

am now waitin 4 this game 2 b completely downloaded..

and wif tt.. im goin 2 hide by my PSP again!! hahahahaha..

oops b4 i forget.. i've got my 2000 word report 2 type.. now its abt 1300-1400 liaoz.. abt 600 more to go!!

LoSs 0f w0rDs

2008-10-05T16:31:00.002+08:00

soooo mani ppl had asked me.. wat was it like.. when u hear tt the cg had actualli multiplied and the ppl tt i love and so much care for ar not in the same cg already..

my response is:
1. i gave them a smile and carry on
2. if they want an ans, i'd b like, "ok.."
3. and if they ask, "so u wouldn't miss us??", i would not giv them any ans..

i do not wan 2 make mention of my tots.. or even worse.. bloggg it here 4 everyone 2 see..

so some ppl call it "heartless", "ruthless" etc etc etc.. and so im bein maligned and criticised at.. (ohhh btw... if u please.. u can make a tabloid out of it.. sayin 'wEiwEi rebels', 'wEiwEi betrays God's ppl', 'the rugged ruthless rebel - wEiwEi' etc etc etc..)

2 b honest.. i wan 2 avoid trouble.. day by day i see myself spirallin down like nobody's business.. yet in the midst of it i hav 2 b professional - standing upright and smile 2 everyone and talk 2 them.. at times i felt so threatened and critical.. tt if i dun change 4 the better and i do not hav any idea wat 2 do i'll b plain doomed..

multiplication is jus the divine timin for me 2 get out of trouble and start focusin back 2 the things of God.. prayer.. fastin.. seekin God.. cryin 4 revival.. it reopened my eyes 2 a vision and a purpose tt i could follow.. and when buildin fund and asia conference is comin up.. this is prob the best time 2 see revival in the new cg..

when s25 was birth forth from s24 (my prev cg..) it grew like nobody's business within a few mths.. at tt time i rem there's the whole gang of us.. janson.. tommy (angie's bro) and alot more guys came 2 the cg.. we grew like nobody's business and i tot we had left the world behind 4 heaven.. this is clearly my jericho - wat we hav accomplished and achieved!!! and if God had done it b4.. GOD CAN SURELY AND POSITIVELY DO IT AGAIN~~!!!!

so i hav actualli provided an analysis for my tots of cg multiplication..
wat abt the ppl tt i love and care for ALL THESE WHILE tt ar not wif me already????

:)

pErFoRmAnCe 2DaE

2008-09-28T23:23:00.002+08:00

it's been a longgg time since i played a rubber ball on the bball court.. despite the fact tt i knew abt the disadvantages of the rubber ball outweighs the advantages.. i still use it anyway 2 play at daryl's hse.. after all.. the cgl wans 2 confirm tt he got the rite product.. rite?? lolzz.. but anyway i was there 2 confirm it.. but deep down i noe tt the rubber ball wont stand.. but somehow it can b a start 4 daryl's ambition 2 become a bball pro contender in the church.. hmmm... or mayb in cg.. lolzz..

the rubber ball didnt affect me much.. im actualli pretti concerned abt my abilities once again.. firstly the defence falter when i play against daryl and rong fei.. i was quite surprised tt daryl could actualli b even more aggressive than he played last time.. though rong fei could not adapt 2 the height of the board he's still a threat under the basket.. i had a harddd time overcomin the 2.. and i felt tt i should b more of tt..

if we were 2 enter the "slamdunk" competition at the asia conference.. it'll prob take more than jus our current skills 2 win.. some of the fundamentals had 2 b work on and most imptly teamwork.. i personally felt tt there mus b unity and communication on the court.. at times we wanted 2 score 2 prove ourselves.. but bein a role player in a team is equally impt as well.. w/o the dribbles.. the passes.. the screens.. and the assists.. we'll jus b like multiple teams playin on the bball court 4 honor and glory of ourselves..

i've seen real talented ppl playin bball in church.. accordin 2 my last exp (in the may 2007 archives) a strong defence plan is actualli needed 2 stop them from scorin.. once again it involves teamwork and the teamwork here involves areas like double teamin.. zone defence.. switch from man-to-man etc etc.. its easi 2 stop or defend 1 person.. (daryl and michael huang tried 2 stack up their defence against me in a handicap match.. they were well positioned but the defence wasnt tough..) but to defend against a team.. the weakest link should not even b despised by the opponent..

played against 2 ang moh guys b4 we left the court.. this is the 1st time i lost twice in a row in a game.. (thank God its not any other ordinary sg-reans) but i realized tt i am almost reduced 2 none when im defendin or reboundin against these gigantic size bodies.. in the NBA a proper matchup is needed 2 match against the likes of shaquille o neal.. yao ming.. illgauskas.. dwight howard and other big time centers.. but in the street court u play wif wat u hav.. lolzz.. and so they pounced us.. played realli an aggressive game and they won.. for a moment i realize tt how human i was.. and so im once again committed 2 tough trainin.. no matter how bad it can be..

FiRsT FiVe b0oKs

2008-09-26T22:59:00.002+08:00

i had jus browsed thru the iLumina CD tt was given 2 me 3 yrs ago.. i nv reali use the CD as i onli read the NLT bible.. jus now.. as i rem the CD.. it took me sometime 2 "revive" it as the CD is already quite "stale" in a sense..

the content tt was provided was not much.. as this was onli a trial CD.. but there's a section which introduced on the various books of the bible and i found it interestin.. and i would like 2 extract some of them and put it here..

Genesis
"BEGIN . . . start . . . commence . . . open. . . . There’s something refreshing and optimistic about these words, whether they refer to the dawn of a new day, the birth of a child, the prelude of a symphony, or the first miles of a family vacation. Free of problems and full of promise, beginnings stir hope and imaginative visions of the future."

Abraham and descendants
"... As we come to Abraham on the plains of Canaan, we discover the beginning of God’s covenant people and the broad strokes of his salvation plan: Salvation comes by faith, Abraham’s descendants will be God’s people, and the Savior of the world will come through this chosen nation. The stories of Isaac, Jacob, and Joseph that follow are more than interesting biographies. They emphasize the promises of God and the proof that he is faithful. The people we meet in Genesis are simple, ordinary people, yet through them, God did great things. These are vivid pictures of how God can and does use all kinds of people to accomplish his good purposes—even people like you and me."

Exodus
"GET UP . . . leave . . . take off—these words are good ones for those trapped or enslaved. Some resist their marching orders, however, preferring present surroundings to a new, unknown environment. It’s not easy to trade the comfortable security of the known for an uncertain future. But what if God gives the order to move? Will we follow his lead?"

Special Features of the book: Exodus relates more miracles than any other Old Testament books (WOWWW!!!!)

Leviticus
“GOD seems so far away . . . if only I could see or hear him.” Have you ever felt this way—struggling with loneliness, burdened by despair, riddled with sin, overwhelmed by problems? Made in God’s image, we were created to have a close relationship with him; and when fellowship is broken, we are incomplete and need restoration. Communion with the living God is the essence of worship. It is vital, touching the very core of our lives. Perhaps this is why a whole book of the Bible is dedicated to worship."

Focus of the book - Holiness
"...The overwhelming message of Leviticus is the holiness of God—“You must be holy because I, the LORD your God, am holy” (19:2). After Israel’s dramatic exit from Egypt, the nation was camped at the foot of Mount Sinai for two years (sounds like NS??) to listen to God (Exodus 19 to Numbers 10). It was a time of resting, teaching, building, and meeting with him face to face."

special features of the book: Holiness is mentioned for 152 times, more than any other book in the bible.

Numbers
"...As the “children” of Israel journeyed from the foot of Mount Sinai to the land of Canaan, they grumbled, whined, and complained at every turn. They focused on their present discomforts. Faith had fled, and they added an extra 40 years to their trip."

"...God was making the people, both spiritually and physically, ready to receive their inheritance. But then the complaining began. First, the people complained about the food. Next, it was over Moses’ authority. God punished some people but spared the nation because of Moses’ prayers. The nation then arrived at Kadesh, and spies were sent into Canaan to assess its strength. Ten returned with fearful stories of giants. Only Caleb and Joshua encouraged them to “go at once to take the land” (13:30). The minority report fell on deaf ears full of the ominous message of the majority. Because of their unbelief, God declared that the present generation would not live to see the Promised Land. Thus the “wanderings” began. During these wilderness wanderings there was a continuous pattern of grumbling, defiance, discipline, and death. How much better it would have been to have trusted God and entered his land! Then the terrible waiting began—waiting for the old generation to die off and waiting to see if the new generation could faithfully obey God."

"The lesson is clear. God’s people must trust Him, moving ahead by faith if they are to claim His promised land."

Deuteronomy
"...there is a time to remember: Mistakes should not be repeated; commitments made must be fulfilled; and the memory of special events can encourage us and move us to action. As you hear the message of Deuteronomy, remember how God has expressed his kindness in your life, and then commit yourself anew to trust, love, and obey him."

Purpose of the book: To remind the people of what God had done and encourage them to rededicate their lives to Him.

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amazing.. isn't it?? the 1st 5 books is like a start of a destiny.. there's so much things tt is prepared 4 us in the fullness of God.. all glory 2 Him!!

tHe FiNaL sTrEtCh aNd tHe LeGeNd EnDs

2008-09-25T14:14:00.003+08:00

i decided 2 start anew in 2008.. i had a revelation from God tt this yr im gonna b a warrior of God burning for His passion.. i tot to myself.. tt i'll giv myself another chance.. to set my yr anew..

the yr kick started wif plenty of preparation for the upcomin brunei trip in feb.. when i heard abt it.. i was once again quite saddd by the fact tt the brunei trip is from feb 13-feb 27.. meanin tt i'll miss v.day in sg and also leavin 4 brunei after my bdae celeb.. and also by the fact tt alan will b goin of 2 australia 4 his studies.. but more imptly.. im not goin 2 see my family and my loved ones for 2 wks..

and so the dae had finally arrived.. i packed up everythin i need and set off 4 brunei.. (the rest of the thoughts and exp i had in brunei were found in the archives of feb/mar 2008) im proud 2 sae tt like other worthy infantrymen in sg.. i hav climbed 2 the peak of mount biang wif all i had on my field pack.. and i rem when i reached the top there was my OC.. cheerin 4 me and praisin me 4 a gddd job well done..

and after we came back brunei.. we heard news tt mas selamat had escaped from prison and part of the SAF were scheduled 2 find him.. i tot tt we would not b affected by it due 2 our prep 4 the taiwan trip in apr.. but we ar actualli activated 2 do so.. i shook my head in disappointment.. but we realli had no choice but 2 conduct the search and i was doin my usual stuff.. sittin ard and wait 4 somethin 2 happen.. i rem tt's when i gotta noe 2LT jj better and also LTA rong tai.. im always wif them runnin errands and stuff and 2 kill boredom.. they actualli mastered playin the rubix cube durin this period of time.. hahaha..

wks hav gone and finally our task is done.. but still mas selamat was not found and so we hav 2 hand over 2 the nxt unit 2 carry on wif the search.. and we found ourselves preparin 4 another trip again.. this time is taiwan.. so mani ppl hav been talkin abt this trip and most of them were jus so excited abt the R&R trip tt they were goin 2 hav.. the wk b4 i go taiwan.. im also water baptized and i could also declare my faith publicly tt im a christian!! and so it was like, "after wEiwEi was bein baptized, he was led into the wilderness of taiwan.."

and the wilderness of taiwan is 10x much better than tt of brunei.. my OC was so happi and he kept on convincin us tt taiwan is actualli so much better than brunei.. lolzz.. i found it rather true.. in fact its even better than singapore.. there were many occasions whereby we could see civilians and some taiwan gals havin fun on the jeeps cars wheelin themselves ard while we were in our midst of trainin wif our camo paints on our face.. there's 1 instance where my OC was frustrated of the civilians where they jus drove by us while we were all set 2 capture the objective.. overall its like the best exp u can get out of a bad one.. lolzz..

and so the notorious EX HIGH NOON started 2 wks after we stayed in taiwan.. for 3 missions for 3 diff nites.. i walked a total of 62km wif my medical pouch and the strectcher behind my back tt's worth abt 10kg++ and when we finally reached.. i jus put down everythin i had behind my back and gasp 4 breath the best i noe how.. for the rest of the guys it may not seem tt tough.. but i felt tt despite the better conditions we had.. this was prob 1 of the toughest for me.. and after tt it was R&R and it was indeed a fun-filled exp.. and it also marks my last final overseas trip as an NSF..

soon after we head back from taiwan.. a few commanders hav ORDed.. few wks thereafter the 1st yr commanders hav all ORDed leavin me behind wif 3 more mths 2 go.. then it came in new faces.. the new OC.. the new commanders.. but still the same old CSM.. and so few daes after they hav settled down in our coy.. they will hav 2 safeguard the premises of changi airport and sembawang wharf.. as 4 me im actualli bein the coy orderly sgt 4 almostg the entire continuously.. 4 the whole mth i was realli tired and i always struggle 2 keep myself awake and alert due 2 fatigue.. but thank God work is not as much as those normal days of trainin.. it was also the best mth 4 the men as they get 2 slp in air con rooms.. hav a nice shower and tuck comfyly into their blankets 4 a gddd nite rest..

so after the time has come 2 end.. it was onli 2 more mths 2 met my pink i/c.. i started preparin myself 2 go 2 the uni i wanted to.. and i started 2 look 4 jobs whenever possible.. work was not at tough and demandin as b4 and i could feel my burdens bein lifted up.. its not as heavy as b4.. as the 2nd yr commanders were busyzz preparin 4 their future and startin 2 get optimistic or bored abt the army life... i was totally optimistic abt my future.. hahaha.. july passed and august came.. it seems tt im not in the picture or plans of the company and anymore.. and the need 4 me had actualli faded away..

and as time goes by.. its already september!! and finally i've got my pink i/c and somehow the camp tt i stayed in 4 abt 1 yr 3mths were gone like the wind in my memories.. all the hurts.. the depressions.. were blown away as i start my life anew..

so when friendz or even some gals they asked me abt my NS life.. i would hav replied them, "outstanding~~" as i noe i will live 2 tell the tale..

(sorry ah.. my faithful medic readers.. i didnt put much of the med ctr.. saddded.. u noe y lahz.. coz im a coy medic ahh ehhh~~~)

tHe 2SIR sToRy: DaYs oF RaZaLi

2008-09-21T20:05:00.002+08:00

as i took bus no 86 2dae from punggol rd bus stop back 2 home.. i actualli rem tt this bus had actualli passed by a famous landmark in my life.. amoy quee camp.. and as i tink back.. it had actualli left me a bittersweet feelin within my soul..

after i received my postin to 2SIR.. i was told 2 report back at nee soon 1st 2 wait 4 my senior medic 2 meet me up and fetch me.. however.. the person tt called me 1st was a medic specialist named danial.. i was told 2 meet him up 1st b4 he brings me 2 see the senior medic.. and so i met danial and the senior medic, known as 1SG razali.. he actualli wanted us 2 tour ard the museum of the medics for a better understanding and knowledge and i was quite impressed by the fact tt he had actualli went on a trip for UN peacekeeping durin the tsunami disaster..

after the tour we went straight 2 the home of 2SIR: amoy quee camp.. we were further introduced 2 our MO, cpt dr yap chee mun.. my 1st impression of him was tt he was actualli quite nice and friendly jus like other MOs in the SAF.. and i was also introduced 2 another medic spec named colin and the rest of the 2SIR medics.. i also found out tt amanda, one of the trainees from the prev batch, is also here but she's attached to 20SA.. and of coz there were the whole gang of 20SA medics tt were present at tt time..

and so my life at 2SIR kickstarted.. i started learnin the basics of medical ctr administration.. report sick procedures etc etc.. since the battalion was still in the lull period.. there were actualli not much 2 do.. most of the time i was sittin ard not knowin wat 2 do or i will b goin 2 canteen 2 get a bite or 2..

and 1 week later the mono officially started.. the enlistees came wif all sorts of hairdos and fanciful clothes.. and i noe they will b rewarded wif a total transformation.. and a shave for a start.. lolzz.. however we hav 2 stay wif them for 1 weekend as they go thru their 2 wk of confinement.. at tt time i rem i was quite depressed for all these confinement and stuff tt i actualli blocked my cg out.. thank God my cg members came and tok 2 me.. i overcame it and we saw ourselves shiftin from our old premises of the med ctr 2 a brand new renovated med ctr..

i had my 1st med cover wif a medic named PTE farhan.. he's actualli quite friendly and he guided me along the necessary administration 4 a medical cover.. he then explained 2 me wat's my role as a medic and gave me a few tips on doin my job well.. im actualli learned alot from him.. and he turned our 2 b a realli special friendz i had from the army *wink* *wink*..

i was actualli assigned 2 become the coy medic for 'B' coy and the MO actualli brought me 2 see the 2ic then, cpt raymond lee, and i was quite surprised tt he actualli is a friendly person.. he told me 2 relax ard and get 2 noe all the comdrs in the coy.. but i was still pretti fresh back then as i didnt realli noe wat 2 say.. however.. they didnt hav a bunk 4 me 2 stay in... so i continue residin at the battalion HQ block until the BMT phrase had completed.. so everydae wat i basically did is to gather the report sick personnels 2 the med ctr and basically my job's done..

one day i actualli had a chance 2 meet up wif my CSM.. MSG phillip.. he's big, strong and super unfriendly.. im actualli rather intimidated by his presence as he sat me down and tok 2 me of his expectations of me.. i was quite shocked when he said tt i should b trained like an infantry sect com and also carry out the duties of it.. i immediately resisted him and tried 2 explain my stand.. he took little or no heed abt it as he carried on to do his way..

in sept last yr i went thru some of the hardest emotional times of my life.. we ar actualli preparin the army open hse and we were in charge of providin med cover 2 the public... as a result we hav 2 burn our sept weekends and i rem tt wk we hav somethin realli bigggg goin on in cg/church and i actualli miss all tt.. the followin wk is my best pal willy's bdae.. i actualli missed it becoz i hav 2 provide med cover 4 the BMT field camp tt was held in tekong.. i told myself i couldn't miss it again nxt yr.. and i noe i wont.. coz tt's the time when im abt 2 ORD.. and i should b quite free..

and 3 months passed fast.. the enlistees had already passed out.. some of them were posted out but the majority stayed.. the advance infantry training phrase started..

soon after 2ic cpt raymond tookmover as OC and i was told 2 shift over 2 stay in wif 'B' coy.. and so all my "pleasures" were stripped.. i had 2 actualli share my space jus like b4 where previously i had the freedom 2 hav a space of my own though it is small.. and i hav 2 wake up earli and follow the routine orders where previously i do not hav 2 do so as long as i punctually report 4 1st parade.. also the book-in timin was actualli set much earlier than previously in my days at HQ.. most imptly.. i was actualli stripped away of the privellege to hav nites out everydae as i stayed in wif the coy.. life was a struggle for many wks.. time and again i had the idea of goin back 2 HQ.. and so i became increasingly unmotivated 2 do things and i actualli got into alot of trouble..

finally at december.. i actualli missed the church yr end camp as i ended up providin med cover 4 the platoon field camp for my own coy.. i realli swallowed my tears and carry on wif my life.. though there were plenty of holidaes and at the end of the yr i nv felt like im goin 2 get thru all this.. is life realli like this?? its so dull.. and its so down.. i started 2 regret becomin a coy medic at bravo.. its too much 4 me.. i longed 2 return 2 HQ.. i longed 2 post out.. but it nv seemed possible 2 me..